some people want a beautiful life...
when you know you can't have it, what you want is a beautiful death...

so beautiful... like a love you've never had
like a smile on a face you won't ever see, like a laughter you won't hear, like a whisper in a wind that won't ever blow, like a touch lighter than a dream, like a vision intangible as a smoke of a sacred fire, like a tear lost in a rain, like a last heartbeat nobody will notice, like a meaning of life noone will ever explain