You don't realise how much I need you.
Love you all the time and never leave you.
Please come on back to me.
I'm lonely as can be. I need you.
Said you had a thing or two to tell me.
How was I to know you would upset me?
I didn't realise as I looked in your eyes...
You told me.
Oh yes, you told me, you don't want my lovin' anymore.
That's when it hurt me.
And feeling like this, I just can't go on anymore.
Please remember how I feel about you, I could never really live without you.
So, come on back and see just what you mean to me.
I need you.
But when you told me, you don't want my lovin' anymore.
That's when it hurt me.
And feeling like this, I just can't go on anymore.
Please remember how I feel about you.
I could never really live without you.
So, come on back and see just what you mean to me.
I need you. I need you. I need you.
So many feelings… So many words to say. The events of last days affected on my mood and thoughts. Suddenly I realized that there is a Person in my surroundings whom I can rely on. Really. He understands everything and has an unusual sense of humor. How could I ignore him until yesterday?..
Today I have been thinking all day long about Friday, Saturday and Sunday. All these conversations have influenced on me so much!.. Again and again I do try to remember all the details of these evenings. I can`t believe that it all is happening with me :)
-There are two main things in my life.
-Hmm.. Having knowing you I can say that they are religious and family.
-Ou, it sounds so.. Yes. “Whom you Believe and Whom you believe”.
To tell the truth, I don`t want to speak to somebody now. I`m afraid to frighten off my new thoughts.
Some people suppose that they are the cleverest, the most beautiful and creative. Sometimes it`s funny, but now I`m tired of it. Too many of you are ill. Some of you stop being amazed of this life, culture and people`s behavior. When something is unusual or unknown, you contemptuously raise your eyebrows, bend your lips and say something like “Ooo daa…”
Vileness.
Why do you do it?? You are absolutely different at public places and tet-a-tet. Being surrounded by others, you like showing yourself as a bitch. And they do love it! They laugh and enjoy while somebody`s ideas are ridiculed by you.
You are so diffident.
You are afraid of showing real you in the presence of some people. You are ready to do anything only to avoid being ridiculed…
This awful stuffy city... I want summer. I need russian fields, forests and water... Want silence.
I wish I were far away from Minsk now. I wish reading books standing at my shelfs, breathing fresh air, looking at the sun... Here I can`t hear myself think. Though it`s time my studied hard. When I finish reading "12 chairs", I will only learn, learn, learn my 3 subjects - Math, Russian, English. After this there will be no art literature, no cinema, no entartainments....
Two-weeks holidays.. That`s great. At least I study hard at the subjects I will take at the exams. That`s great too. Now there is no chemistry, no physics… I can`t stand learning them :)
I can afford chilling out several hours a day. Bliss!.. Though there are so many thoughts which disturb to concentrate on Math. For example, Andrew Kim. Yes, exactly he! The other day he offered us to make feeding grounds for birds. I looked up to thus idea. And now I constantly imagine how I will do it… The other nosy thought is snowball. It`s a brainwave! Of course, Kim organizes it too :) I`m looking forward the 17 of January ^_^ And after this game we are going to have a cup of tea at his flat! Uuuupppeee! I have been waiting for it so long… And you, Meline? :)
So, English-speaking time is on.
It`s a good training for me and a difficulty for you. He-he. Don`t want – don`t read! :p
Why did they keep silence so far?? I don`t blame my teacher. But we wrote the school Olympiad in September and I took the second place from seven. Some people said that it was great. I don`t think so.
We were told no more information about next events. I haven`t worked at my English so hard as I can…
I make silly mistakes and lose my time…
And now I must revise all I know for two days!
What should I do?!
I will go to my English courses for two hours on Saturday in the morning. My home teacher for Russian wrote that we wouldn`t meet today but I would have to ring her up on Saturday. Arina and I wanted to go to the cinema on Saturday. How many plans for tomorrow when I must learn English! Oh my God...
At 8 a.m. on Sunday we will have to be in our school. Then we are going to the 74 gymnasium.