
Êîãäà ýòîò ñòàðèê óìåð â äîìå ïðåñòàðåëûõ â ìàëåíüêîì àâñòðàëèéñêîì ãîðîäêå, âñå ñ÷èòàëè, ÷òî îí óøåë èç æèçíè, íå îñòàâèâ â íåé íèêàêîãî öåííîãî ñëåäà. Ïîçæå, êîãäà ìåäñåñòðû ðàçáèðàëè åãî ñêóäíûå ïîæèòêè, îíè îáíàðóæèëè ýòî ñòèõîòâîðåíèå. Åãî ñìûñë è ñîäåðæàíèå íàñòîëüêî âïå÷àòëèëè ñîòðóäíèêîâ, ÷òî êîïèè ïîýìû áûñòðî ðàçîøëèñü ïî âñåì ðàáîòíèêàì áîëüíèöû. Îäíà ìåäñåñòðà âçÿëà êîïèþ â Ìåëüáóðí... Åäèíñòâåííîå çàâåùàíèå ñòàðèêà ñ òåõ ïîð ïîÿâëÿëîñü â Ðîæäåñòâåíñêèõ æóðíàëàõ ïî âñåé ñòðàíå, à òàêæå â æóðíàëàõ äëÿ ïñèõîëîãîâ. È ýòîò ñòàðèê, êîòîðûé íèùèì óøåë èç æèçíè â Áîãîì çàáûòîì ãîðîäêå â Àâñòðàëèè, òåïåðü âçðûâàåò èíòåðíåò ãëóáèíîé ñâîåé äóøè.
Âñïîìíèòå îá ýòîì ñòèõå â ñëåäóþùèé ðàç, êîãäà âñòðåòèòåñü ñî ñòàðûì ÷åëîâåêîì! È ïîäóìàéòå î òîì, ÷òî ðàíî èëè ïîçäíî âû òîæå áóäåòå òàêèì êàê îí èëè îíà! Ñàìûå ëó÷øèå è ñàìûå êðàñèâûå âåùè â ýòîì ìèðå íåëüçÿ óâèäåòü èëè ïîòðîãàòü. Îíè äîëæíû ÷óâñòâîâàòüñÿ ñåðäöåì!
Âõîäÿ áóäèòü ìåíÿ ñ óòðà,
Êîãî òû âèäèøü, ìåäñåñòðà?
Ñòàðèê êàïðèçíûé, ïî ïðèâû÷êå
Åù¸ «æèâóùèé» êîå-êàê.
Ïîëóñëåïîé, ïîëóäóðàê.
«Æèâóùèé» âïîðó âçÿòü â êàâû÷êè.
Íå ñëûøèò – íàäðûâàòüñÿ íàäî,
Èçâîäèò ïîïóñòó õàð÷è.
Áóáíèò âñ¸ âðåìÿ – íåò ñ íèì ñëàäó.
Íó, ñêîëüêî ìîæíî, çàìîë÷è!
Òàðåëêó íà ïîë îïðîêèíóë.
Ãäå òóôëè? Ãäå íîñîê âòîðîé?
Ïîñëåäíèé, ìàòü òâîþ, ãåðîé.
Ñëåçàé ñ êðîâàòè! ×òîá òû ñãèíóë…
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Ñåñòðà! Âçãëÿíè â ìîè ãëàçà!
Ñóìåé óâèäåòü òî, ÷òî çà…
Çà ýòîé íåìîùüþ è áîëüþ,
Çà æèçíüþ ïðîæèòîé, áîëüøîé.
Çà ïèäæàêîì, «ïîáèòûì» ìîëüþ,
Çà êîæåé äðÿáëîé, «çà äóøîé».
Çà ãðàíüþ íûíåøíåãî äíÿ
Ïîïðîáóé ðàçãëÿäåòü ÌÅÍß…
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…ÿ ìàëü÷èê! Íåïîñåäà, ìèëûé.
Âåñ¸ëûé, îçîðíîé ñëåãêà.
Ìíå ñòðàøíî. Ìíå ëåò ïÿòü îò ñèëû.
À êàðóñåëü òàê âûñîêà!
Íî âîí îòåö è ìàìà ðÿäîì.
ß â íèõ âïèâàþñü öåïêèì âçãëÿäîì.
È õîòü ìîé ñòðàõ íåèñòðåáèì,
ß òî÷íî çíàþ, ÷òî ëþáèì…
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…âîò ìíå øåñòíàäöàòü, ÿ ãîðþ!
Äóøîþ â îáëàêàõ ïàðþ!
Ìå÷òàþ, ðàäóþñü, ãðóùó.
ß ìîëîä, ÿ ëþáîâü èùó…
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… è âîò îí, ìîé ñ÷àñòëèâûé ìèã!
Ìíå äâàäöàòü âîñåìü. ß æåíèõ!
Èäó ñ ëþáîâüþ ê àëòàðþ,
È âíîâü ãîðþ, ãîðþ, ãîðþ…
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… ìíå òðèäöàòü ïÿòü, ðàñò¸ò ñåìüÿ
Ó íàñ óæå åñòü ñûíîâüÿ.
Ñâîé äîì, õîçÿéñòâî. È æåíà
Ìíå äî÷ü âîò-âîò ðîäèòü äîëæíà…
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… à æèçíü ëåòèò, ëåòèò âïåð¸ä!
Ìíå ñîðîê ïÿòü – «êðóãîâîðîò»!
È äåòè «íå ïî äíÿì» ðàñòóò.
Èãðóøêè, øêîëà, èíñòèòóò…
Âñ¸!Óïîðõíóëè èç ãíåçäà!
È ðàçëåòåëèñü êòî êóäà.
Çàìåäëåí áåã íåáåñíûõ òåë.
Íàø äîì óþòíûé îïóñòåë…
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… íî ìû ñ ëþáèìîþ âäâî¸ì!
Ëîæèìñÿ âìåñòå è âñòà¸ì.
Îíà ãðóñòèòü ìíå íå äà¸ò.
È æèçíü îïÿòü ëåòèò âïåð¸ä…
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… òåïåðü óæå ìíå øåñòüäåñÿò.
Âíîâü äåòè â äîìå ãîëîñÿò!
Âíó÷àò âåñ¸ëûé õîðîâîä.
Î, êàê ìû ñ÷àñòëèâû! Íî âîò…
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… ïîìåðê âíåçàïíî Ñîëíöà ñâåò.
Ìîåé ëþáèìîé áîëüøå íåò!
Ó ñ÷àñòüÿ òîæå åñòü ïðåäåë…
ß çà íåäåëþ ïîñåäåë.
Îñóíóëñÿ, äóøîé ïîíèê.
È îùóòèë, ÷òî ÿ ñòàðèê…
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… òåïåðü æèâó ÿ «áåç çàòåé».
Æèâó äëÿ âíóêîâ è äåòåé.
Ìîé ìèð ñî ìíîé, íî ñ êàæäûì äí¸ì
Âñ¸ ìåíüøå, ìåíüøå ñâåòà â í¸ì...
Êðåñò ñòàðîñòè âçâàëèâ íà ïëå÷è,
Áðåäó óñòàëî â íèêóäà.
Ïîêðûëîñü ñåðäöå êîðêîé ëüäà.
È âðåìÿ áîëü ìîþ íå ëå÷èò.
Î, Ãîñïîäè, êàê æèçíü äëèííà,
Êîãäà íå ðàäóåò îíà…
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… íî ñ ýòèì ñëåäóåò ñìèðèòüñÿ.
Íè÷òî íå âå÷íî ïîä Ëóíîé.
À òû, ñêëîíèâøèñü íàäî ìíîé,
Îòêðîé ãëàçà ñâîè, ñåñòðèöà.
ß íå ñòàðèê êàïðèçíûé, íåò!
Ëþáèìûé ìóæ, îòåö è äåä…
… è ìàëü÷èê ìàëåíüêèé, äîñåëå
 ñèÿíüè ñîëíå÷íîãî äíÿ
Ëåòÿùèé âäàëü íà êàðóñåëè…
Ïîïðîáóé ðàçãëÿäåòü ÌÅÍß…
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… è, ìîæåò, îáî ìíå ñêîðáÿ,
íàé䏸ü ÑÅÁß!
Òåêñò îðèãèíàëà:
Cranky Old Man
What do you see nurses? ……What do you see?
What are you thinking .. . when you’re looking at me?
A cranky old man, … …not very wise,
Uncertain of habit .… … . .. with faraway eyes?
Who dribbles his food .. . … . . and makes no reply.
When you say in a loud voice . .’I do wish you’d try!’
Who seems not to notice …the things that you do.
And forever is losing … …… A sock or shoe?
Who, resisting or not … … lets you do as you will,
With bathing and feeding … .The long day to fill?
Is that what you’re thinking?. .Is that what you see?
Then open your eyes, nurse .you’re not looking at me.
I’ll tell you who I am … . .. As I sit here so still,
As I do at your bidding, .… . as I eat at your will.
I’m a small child of Ten . .with a father and mother,
Brothers and sisters .… .. . who love one another
A young boy of Sixteen … .. with wings on his feet
Dreaming that soon now …… a lover he’ll meet.
A groom soon at Twenty … ..my heart gives a leap.
Remembering, the vows .. .. .that I promised to keep.
At Twenty-Five, now … . .I have young of my own.
Who need me to guide … And a secure happy home.
A man of Thirty . .… . . My young now grown fast,
Bound to each other …. With ties that should last.
At Forty, my young sons .. .have grown and are gone,
But my woman is beside me . . to see I don’t mourn.
At Fifty, once more, .. …Babies play ‘round my knee,
Again, we know children … . My loved one and me.
Dark days are upon me … . My wife is now dead.
I look at the future … … . I shudder with dread.
For my young are all rearing .… young of their own.
And I think of the years … And the love that I’ve known.
I’m now an old man … … .. and nature is cruel.
It’s jest to make old age … … . look like a fool.
The body, it crumbles .. .. . grace and vigour, depart.
There is now a stone … where I once had a heart.
But inside this old carcass . A young man still dwells,
And now and again … . . my battered heart swells
I remember the joys … . .. . I remember the pain.
And I’m loving and living … … . life over again.
I think of the years, all too few …. gone too fast.
And accept the stark fact … that nothing can last.
So open your eyes, people .… . .… open and see.
Not a cranky old man .
Look closer … . see .. .…. …. . ME!!