Elena I'm sorry to use this space to write u a message but I guess this is the only one way so that you get it... even if I know no one needs to hear that...
First of all, I'm sorry to have annoyed u about my feeling ...whatever... because if I need something, it's your happiness, doesn't matter how, with who... even if I really would love that this happiness happens by my side! Ouch I told u, I would stop talking about it... Дебил (I don't know if it's right but u know what I mean...aren't u?) or гогол....;)
Otherwise I'm doing well in my own town even if I got homesick, but I don't care cause I'm going to your city next august, I could live again...hehehehe or perhaps to die of exposure...)))
That's why I would like to keep in touch with u, because even if our future would be each for his part, we couldn't rub the past out. It has been a wonderful story and I need to tell u that me too I was definitely not the same guy in Malta than in my town. Over here I'm a bit shy, don't drinking so much (I said so much lol) and I haven't any relationship or sex partner since I came back.

Sometimes...euhhh not OFTEN if it's not always ))) I remember good moments we have spent together and found out how I was totally wrong...

I want to tell u something, perhaps u will remember...I wrote u in russian in our famous room )))

Life is a passage
Friendship is only a mirage
but love is a gold wire
which breaks only at death

or maybe we could say :

Life is a passage
Love is only a mirage
but friendship is a gold wire
which breaks only till the death

Make your choice )))) Mine is already done...
Love u

P.S : first snow fell down last night at my home, can u believe that?! That's why I'm not afraid of going to your own town ))))

Missing u sweetie mouse

GASTAUD Cyril