I was thinking of you for rather long time... You knew my blood... Dancing... Wow. And now we won't see each other so often, but I don' feel any sorrow. I am happy I used to see you then. I'm happy I met you at all.

C'est pour mon petit-ami... Je t'aime...

Pour mon ami, par ce qui est mon ami aussi...

Ou es tu?

Mes reves sont de toi...

Now I am here again... I should say, much has changed. But to tell the truth, it did not change me at all. So here I am, I returned as I always did...
I am still in love. I am still physically in love...
I still seek the truth... and the beauty...
I found a lot. But I still have to find more.

The Fire, the Water, the Air, the Earth... I respect their beauty and their power. I know they would help me... I have seen them even more definitely then before...

Who am I? Lots of years after, still hesitating... Not knowing exactly who I am...

I am happy with you. I only wish you hadn´t suffered that much, knowing about my past, seeing my pain... I wish... I wish you hadn´t seen it at all. But it would change you. And I don´t want you to be changed for such stupid reasons. You are what you are, and I love you.

There is a person in this world whom I believe... believe that much that I would go along a rope which is strained between two rocks, both eyes closed, if he held my hand. Well... I think so.

I love his eyes. When I look into his eyes I can see that he's not afraid of me. And that is what I appreciate very much...
I see the sky, the forest and watersprings in his eyes...

We walked together. Through the hollow streets... I remember the walks - seeing something I've never seen, with such a person...

Have I met him in the previous life? I don't know...

Never thought of the reason why I seek people who seem to have known me lives before... But somehow I find them. And, whatsmore...

I keep loving them.

I keep loving him.


But... it would be better if he would be my friend... friendship lasts longer and I don't want to lose him...

I thought I was free... And I was. I was free to do anything... Anything but choosing my own path. For now I stand in the middle, two ways before my eyes... One goes left, the other one goes right... Which of them is mine?
Do I have to leave him? Do I have to stay?...

Am I allowed to love anymore? To show my true feelings, not pretending I still feel the same?

I don't. Time passed, and who knows,if it was me or him who has changed or... maybe I was simply mistaken...

I loved when you brought me flowers... I don't feel any joy seeing them now...
I adored looking in your eyes... But now, your eyes are full with mist, and I don't see the reason why I used to watch them so carefully...
You're so calm... You don't need that what I can't live without...
And, above all... You make me burst in tears saying such stupid things... About my beauty... What is my beauty in comparison to my soul? The soul you don't see... The person you refuse to see behind my appearance...
You see... You don't love me. You love something you made up yourself...

Oh I really apologise if this story made any of you dive in sorrow.

That is why... I'll tell you another one.

It's freezing outside my sole... But there... believe it or not, I feel something very warm, thinking of people I would see with all my pleasure. And, oh Merlin, I hope to see them very soon... Who would help me to save that what I have now... Or do I have to keep it at all?...
Who's that kind angel who let me feel what I feel now? Who gave me those dreams which make me tremble, make me want them to come true?
And now, let me keep the truth through all the obstacles. There, where the warmth is.
Hmm... Trying to break the wall? If I knew myself what for)

You know... I used to take care of what I was thinking and doing for rather a long time... That was when I was a child, which was very long ago... Later I did what I wanted, and yet I used to want to do things that my brain and my morals told me to want. Funny things happen...
Step by step... understanding that your soul needs to be free from morals and principles... Finally, I decided to give it its natural freedom.
LOVE THOSE YOU WANT TO LOVE
HATE THOSE YOU NEED TO HATE

There are no mistakes. There are just things you do and just life you live.

But guys... I love you, for there is still a place on the Earth I may allow myself to love everybody... And it's here. Lots of hugs and kisses.

I dreamt of him... That was amazing to see him in my dream, just a surprised, smiling face... And then thousands of trees and a stream along the path... Oh, it was a lovely place to walk... I love such dreams... They never hurt, even when you wake up.

It is like thunder in my soul, it is like waterfall in my mind, like birds in my brest... I feel what I have felt all the time... The most wonderful feeling in the world.

Let me be free...

I would never go away...

Is it possible, to meet people who would feel so close to you... Like you have known them for thousands of years.... And, oh my, could THIS person be your own b/f...
Can't believe... Have to realise... I am so glad it really is what it is%)

How dare I love you… I had no choice. For you are the most fantastic person of my big dream… You woke up my scill, which was forgotten long ago… Just with a pair of stories and with a couple of looks. I love your eyes… And even if you don’t wear your beautifull long hair you used to… I still can see that your eyes are the same as in my memory…

I would say "Thank you", but I was too proud then... However, not it's too late to say that. But I'll never forget what you've done for me. I'll never forget your beautiful eyes and your warm hands. I know too litlle about you. But I miss you, and sometimes it fills me with pity... For you never knew what I felt.

I returned from the land of my dreams, and I am back here... But now my eyes are wide open. Honestly, a bit of hesitation still lives in my mind, for it was betrayed by the world it lived, is it REAL now? Am I not being deceived again?
But it does not matter anymore. I am what I am now. I am not going to pour tears as I used to do. I am going to be strong. I don't want to live in the lies anymore.
The passion went away, and it took all my weakness with it.
Did it try to return? It did. But when I felt this creature above me, I looked inside - and there was nothing. There was no passion. It was hollow... it was gone.

I was sleeping so long... Come on, you're not a sleeping beauty. Not anymore.
My eyes had to open one day... I just got out of my dreams and turned my face to the REAL HOME. I watched my serene land... and all the passion ran away. I was left alone with my tranquility, with my land, with my roots.
I was left alone to think over all the things that used to happen with me. Were my friends really friends, were my enemies really enemies, did my love exist at all?...
I used to think, and nothing would bother me, nothing would stop me...
Was there anything of my dreams at all?

And now again I don't want to do anything what I should. Yeah... Thinking thoughts, and that's all. I wish I had bigger patience, better speed and fuller concentration.

I wish something very big couldn't be more powerfull than my soul... I'm joking. It would be awful.