I'm very very lost and very very confused :(

Have not written anything in my journal for a while, but that's because I hardly had time for anything... in the past week today is the first day that I got some time off both from work and studies...a combination of the two turned out to be nearly equal to "mission impossible" - getting minimum sleep, trying to juggle multiple tasks, do required reading and all of that combined with an office move... have not been so tired in a long, long time...

I'm angry and sad, and this is as bad as it gets... I'm upset because I start to realize that there is no absolute truth and no absolute goodness in people. And what realy makes me mad is the fact that people who are ignorant and selfish go on enjoying their lives whereas people who care about things and people around, even if for a small bit, end up in bad situations and are facing unfair treatement

С Праздником ! Счастья и любви!:air_kiss:

Chestita Baba Marta!!!!

I hope in your part of the world the sun is shining the spring spirit is all around yoU :)

Today is oficially the first day of classes at AUA. I know what many people (nearly everyone I know) think about the quality of education at AUA: actually I'm pretty aware of how bad it is. Somewhere in my heart I know that I am not going there for a wonderful educational experience, in fact I'm pretty sure that in a couple of years I will finally realize that despite all the warm feelings towards Armenia it is time to move on and there are other countries that offer better opportunities. But today, I am still here and AUA is the place where I am going to meet my enemy.

Its painful and hard to see how s/o who was close and dear turns into an acquaintance, to realize that you can never know how ppl really do feel about you, and its very painful to try to change yourself in order to take things more easily

Only in Armenia you can meed a lady sweeping the sidewalk at 8:30a.m during wintertime

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wanna scream and shout~ but have to keep my cool at work ;)

How do I learn to hang on to good mood?

В колонках играет - Deep Purple *Slow Train*

Sometimes I envy those that have never left Armenia, do not know any other truth besides the one that was passed on from generation to generation, do not try to think outside the box or strive for something more. Sometimes I wish I never left and came back, lived an unordinary life for an Armenian teen...

Happy Valentine's Day to all!

I wonder if there's a possibility of living a life without a "what if" part in it? What would have happened if I didn't do this or that, go here or there, etc.. etc..what would happen if I was more open, tolerated all the nasty things and pretended to be happy when I was not?

Its weird how I feel sad sometimes, without any reason...

В колонках играет - Africando *Africando allstar*
Настроение сейчас - Optimistic

I thought I was at a point where one does not believe that she can make a change or that there is a need for a change... during a business meeting today I realized the enthusiasm about new ideas and things has not vanished completely. Good to know that!

Sometimes its really great to be so busy and have no time for emotions or thougts and feelings

Its weird how s/o that once was very dear and special turns into s/o mediocre...i guess its really true - we do create images in our heads, images of ppl that don't exist and those images vanish after a number of events and disapointments. S/o very very special once said that it is usually the closest person that stabs you in the back (ironically he did the same, but this is not about him). I'm wondering how much of this disappointment I should take, where is the stop-point ?

I have to learn some basic skills of anger management and mood control... otherwise quite soon I'll turn into a complete bitch