I never thought I would be among those people who go ahead and bluntly fall for people who are wrong for them... причем knowing wwaaaay in ahead that this person is just not right for you!

It is no secret that I am quite often unpatriotic... what can I do? I'm back from my week-off and Gods was it good!!!! It has been quite a while since I have been away and I nearly forgot how great it is... to travel, to see new things and to meet new people...all those new faces... not new cultures as the participants quite often resembled the people I knew back from college years in AUBG...

a combination of studies with heavy drinking and all-night dancing :) I was starting to forget how great it feels :) and I even watched football!!~!

pictures coming up soon :)

I'm sick of people telling me that I've changed and become more aggressive/depressive/crazy/bitchy... TOUGH! if s/o doesn't my "new" self feel free to forget me/delete from contacts/forget e-mail/etc ... Honestly can't wait till I get out of Armenia for those 10 days - change of scenery and people is sometimes so good! uf..

из серии Conceptual photos :)

Happiness comes in small doses... and from people you don't really expect !!!! :)

just when you start to think that it can't and won't get worse.... strangely enough it does!!! ssssssstop stop stop stop STOP! I want it to stop :) any ideas?
How to...
how to stop taking things personally...
how to grow up, meaning really grow up and become wiser :) ha-ha-ha
how to learn to be happy...
how to learn to forgive and to forget
how to strive...
how to smile even though don't want to smile at all
how to not be a snob but have enough poise and self-confidence

I guess this list can go on and on :)

Странное такое чуВство... что делаю что то не так, что не на правильном пути... а свернуть некуда... пока

Before falling in the nirvana of sleep couldn't help but think about: started of by thinking that summertime is an awful time for s/o to be lonely, to stay at home and not enjoy Yerevan's nighttime breeze, to hold someone's hand or even to hug... or maybe fall is worse? winter? or spring? Each season has something unique about it, something that can bring about sadness..

Hargeli kaghakatci,

erek, mayisi 30 avartvetc Rasmik Sargsyani ev myusnery aghmkaharuytc datavarutyuny. DATAVOR mher arghamanyany DATAPARTETC EREK MEGHADRYALNERIN TCMAH DATAPATZHIN.

Ays datavarutyuny arandznatcav ir aknaru anardarutyamb. Linelov lragroghneri ev hasarakakan kazmakerputyunneri nerkayatcutcichneri ushadrutyan tak, chnayatc mardu iravunkneri bazmativ aknaru khakhtumneri te knnakan te datavarutyan yntatckum, aynuamenayniv, datarany avartetc tcmah datapatzhov erek ksan tarekan zinvorneri gortcy.

Vaghy, hinisi 1in, zhamy 12:00, Mamuli tany, Media srcharanum, 2rd hark, pastabannery, hasarakakan kazmakerputyunneri nerkayatcutcichnery ev spanvatc tghayi hayry knerkayatcnen datavarutyan manramasnery ev hetaga kaylery.

Lala Aslikyan, Huys HK
Karen Hakobyan, Huys HK
Seda Melikyan, Hogevor Hayastan
Harutyun Simonyan, kaghakatci

I'm not sure what I should be feeling at 24 :)

Yesterday, while I was talking to one of my friends I realized that I really do need to change my attitude towards everything!!!! Somehow lately I can't help but be negative about both small and huge things... can't help but wonder when did I became so joyless? (c)

vpervie v jizni po nastoyashemu raduyus' iz za xoroshikh ocenok :) finalized my first semester of graduate studies, got a scholarship... so what if its AUA :) I'm happy... just wish there was s/o to share the happiness with...

Ukrala u Belly :)

Came across the material that I brought with myself from the US when I was 16. In one of the surveys I mentioned that in 2006 I'll be married and will be a mother of 2 children... strangely enough mentioned journalism as my profession, strange because I can't remember considering journalism... but apparently did...if I was "wiser" in my relationships with others maybe what I wrote when I was 16 would be true now... but in reality soooo far from being true..
*lately cannot help the feeling of hatred towards a bunch of ghosts from the past*

sometimes I feel bitter and sad and mad at the whole world...I wish I knew how to keep myself from feeling this way... I know that life brings us many surprises both good and bad, and not all plans come true... and that this is not a reason to be upset (c)... BUT!

I don't generally like to say bad things about my country, about the course of business and the attitute of the people, but sometimes it is just too hard to stay quiet or to ignore... why do I have to ignore??? Is it better to be nice and civilized that have a mission of promoting certain values and ideas in Armenia? Is it better to stay quiet and accept that lack of professionalism is just a normal course of business for Armenia?

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Is it considered growing up when you realize that things that you used to perceive in a certain way are totally different? That things, hopes and plans that you had for the future do not necessarily have to come true? That one has to learn to slow down, to enjoy the moment and not think "what if?" all the time? That with time, the enthusiasm transforms to apathy-laziness. More importantly, that you finally start to realize that you can't change the world thus have to change yourself in order to survive in that world??

Утром шла на работу... и все было окей... час спустя от хорошего настрояния ничего не осталось... В последнее время почему то больше грусти

What I don't like is waiting... I guess it is the worst torture for me - waiting and now knowing what will happen... a friend of mine always tells me that I am rushing time, and I know I know that I do! And I try to back up, to take slow and to breathe... but sometimes it just doesn't work - iz serii "I want it and i want it now!" :( at those times I usually do things that I regrett :) although, at those times those things seem like the most natural thing - strange isn't it?! But of course life has rules and apparently I have to play along, to pretend that I"m this and that, that I don't care in order keep the interest... nenaviju :( why can't things be simple and straightforward?

*the only reason i'm writing this is to keep my fingers from writing other things and then regretting :) ujas !