Концептуальный фотограф из Канзаса Джошуа Хоффайн занялся визуализацией детских кошмаров и страхов. Что у него из этого получилось, можно посмотреть в данной подборке его работ.

 

 

---

 

В колонках играет - silence
Настроение сейчас - back ace.grrrrrrr.

 

 

 

 

>
>>
>>>
>>>>
>>>>>
>>>>>>
>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>
>>>>>>
>>>>>
>>>>
>>>
>>
>

 

I thought that I could do so many things this year. But, time ran past through me. Its December now. And I am still standing here empty handed.

I wonder what will next year bring with itself. Will I be the same? Will this world be the same?

But, whatever it is. I'm ready to move on now.

 

 

 

---

Couldnt resist posting this. Its simply amazing! Im loving the emo stuff in this all. :D

 

 

Really cool Japanese Game Show Where Everything is litraly acted!!

 

www.youtube.com/watch

 

 

 

 

 

В колонках играет - jimmy eat world
Настроение сейчас - dreamy

Heres the other cool stuff. Enjoy!

I found an intriguing article about LSD.. Make sure you read it.



Every human being lives inside the creations and interpretations of his mind, for we are only our thoughts. The way we conceive the world is our reality; it is unique to each individual because his perception of his environment and personal experiences are vastly different from everyone else's - as the old saying goes: "No two minds are alike."

I am no metaphysicist or psychologist, but I have pondered about what is actually reality and the power of our conscience, especially compared to the estimated five to 30 million species that exist on our planet. We seem to be the only species that seeks an altered state of mind, using and experimenting with all sorts of drugs, alcohol being the most common of them. Psychedelics are the type I'm most concerned about, for they warp your perception of reality the most, and yet are claimed to be less toxic than an aspirin.

Just last month the meritorious "Father of LSD," Albert Hofmann, passed away at the age of 102, but he did not leave mankind empty-handed. Albert Hofmann was "the mystical Swiss chemist who gave the world LSD, the most powerful psychotropic substance known," which he first synthesized in 1938, according to The New York Times.

LSD, or lysergic acid diethylamide, is more commonly known as acid, one, tabs, blotter, does or trips. According to the National Institute on Drug Abuse, hallucinogens like LSD are so widely revered because of their surreal and fantasy-like properties which distort one's perception of reality by "disrupting the interaction of nerve cells and the neurotransmitter serotonin." More simply, an acid trip can have a variety of effects on different people, anywhere from feeling, hearing and seeing things that are particular to the user, and a trip typically lasts from eight to 12 hours or even longer depending on the dose taken.

Unlike alcohol and other drugs, each acid trip is different. In my opinion, the most amazing attribute of acid is that the drug's effects occur at extremely low doses which are "most commonly [taken] on blotter or in liquid form" according to Erowid, an organization that strives to provide, "non-judgmental information about psychoactive plants and chemicals and related issues."

You must be wondering how Hofmann miraculously stumbled across this "smart" drug, which contributed to the 1960s hippie counterculture. Well, while working in the Sandoz Research Laboratory in Basel, Switzerland he accidentally ingested some while "isolating and synthesizing the unstable alkaloids of the ergot fungus," according to The Economist.

He initially felt lightheaded, but soon he was absorbed into the psychedelic world of acid, "dissolving into a kaleidoscope of colours, shapes, spirals and light."

Just imagine how it would feel to unintentionally take such a powerful drug - one minute you're sitting on your couch reading a book and the next the world explodes in your mind and what was once real is now unreachable to you.

After that epiphany, Hofmann took the drug over 100 times in the course of his life, but made it clear to the world that albeit his experiences were great, the drug has a more supreme purpose and value. Using acid, Hofmann "saw humanity's oneness with nature" and truly believed, as many people come to believe following such life-changing experiences, that mankind can benefit from seeing the world through a completely new lens.

The world is far from perfect, and maybe the drug does really bring people closer to nature and allows them to concentrate on mankind's "ultimately self-destructive degradation of the natural world" according to The New York Times.

Bill Gates, Steve Jobs, author Aldous Huxley, Dr. Timothy Leary, and not to mention some of our favorite rock artists like The Beatles and Jimmi Hendrix, have experimented with LSD.

I can't help but feel that some people are going to read this and remind themselves, "Say no to drugs," which is perfectly fine. But, you should be aware of LSD's behemoth impact on the lives of many of the world's most accomplished people.

В колонках играет - bleed american- jimy eat world
Настроение сейчас - im feeling sick..ugh...

So here are some pictures that I thought would be interesting..

I dont know why. But somehow I cant post video stuff here li.ru .
I guess I'll just give you the URL.
Check this out:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SnKtq4RVzLs

Its real deep. So watch it carefully.

В колонках играет - 30 seconds to mars
Настроение сейчас - sleepy

Настроение сейчас - better than ever

I actually finished school a few days ago. I guess I'm still not used to it. Cause I wake up in the middle of the night with the idea that I gotta finish something. But, then I realise...  its all over!

В колонках играет - eminem
Настроение сейчас - sing for the moment

I read this on net in an forum.. haha..




I recall my first time with a condom, I was 16 or so. I went in to buy
a packet of condoms at the pharmacy. There was this beautiful woman
assistant behind the counter, and she could see that I was new at it.
She handed me the package and asked if I knew how to wear one.

I honestly answered, "No, this is my first time."

So she unwrapped the package, took one out and slipped it over her
thumb. She cautioned me to make sure it was on tight and secure. I
apparently still looked confused. So she looked all around the store
to see if it was empty. It was empty.

"Just a minute," she said, and walked to the door, and locked it.
Taking my hand, she led me into the back room, unbuttoned her blouse
and removed it. She unhooked her bra and laid it aside. "Do these
excite you?" she asked. Well, I was so dumb-struck that all I could do
was nod my head. She then said it was time to slip the condom on.
As I was slipping it on, she dropped her skirt, removed her panties
and lay down on a desk. "Well, come on", she said, "We don't have much time."

So I climbed on her. It was so wonderful, that unfortunately, I could
no longer hold back and KAPOW, I was done within a few minutes.

She looked at me with a bit of a frown. "Did you put that condom on?"
she asked. I said, "I sure did," and held up my thumb to show her.

She fainted.

This an abstract from a book by Paulo Coelho that i'd like to share:


I reckon that it takes about three minutes to read each page in this book. Well, according to statistics, in that same space of time, 300 people will die,and another 620 will be born.
I might take half an hour to write each page: im sitting at my computer, concentrating on what im doing, with books all around me, ideas in my head, cars driving past outside. Everything seems perfectly normal, and yet, during those thirty minutes, 3000 people have died, and 6200 have just seen the light of the world for first time.
Where are those thousands of families who have just begun to mourn the loss of someone, or to smile at the arrival of a son, daughter, nephew, niece, brother, or sister?
I stop and reflect a little. Perhaps many of those people were reaching the end of a long painful illness, and some people are relieved when the Angel comes for them. Then again, hundreds of those children who have just been born will be abandoned the next moment and will go on to form the part of the death statistics before I even finished writing this page.
How strange. A simple statistic, which I happened to read, and suddenly Im aware of those deaths and entrances, those smile and tears. How many of them are leaving this life while alone in their rooms, with no one realising whats happening? How many will be born in secret and then abandoned outside a childrens home or a convent?
I think to myself that I was once part of the birth statistics and will, one day, be included amongst the numbers of dead. It is good to be aware that I will die. Ever since I walked the road to Santiago, I have understood that, although life goes on and we are all eternal, this existence will one day end.
People do not think much about death. They spend their lives worring about absurdities; they put things off, and fail to notice important moments. They dont take risks, because they think its dangerous. They complain a lot, but are afraid to take action. They want everything to change, but they themselves refuse to change.
If they thought a little more about death, they would never forget to make that much-postponed phone call. They would be a little crazier. They would not be afraid of this incarnation coming to an end, because you cannot fear something that is going to happen anyway.
The Indians say: 'Today is as good a day as any to leave this world.' And a wise man once said : 'Death is always sitting by your side so that, when you need to do something important, it will give you the strength and the courage that you need.'
I hope that you, have got this far. It would be foolish to be frightened by death, because all of us, sooner or later, are going to die. And only those who accept this fact are prepared for life.

В колонках играет - silence
Настроение сейчас - bored

Foo Fighters got an grammy for their song "The pretender ".. those guyz are really great.They nearly disbanded when their vocalist died. But their drummer took his place. Even in Fall Out Boy the vocalist is an drummer. Never know how things may turn out..

Im so bored of preparing for ma finals.. I know that there is like only two months left but I can't get myself together. Seriously.. I dont get it... What am I supposed to do with this school diploma ? Its not even valid in Russia. Nor it will allow me to get scholarship..

Weird thing.. just when I have ma exams going on I urge to write.

SO this is what I wrote recently..

Nectar of life

 

 

Living in the flow of ugly commotion

 

Without a reason, all in vain

 

Indulged in meaningless devotion

 

Conquered from within, all in sake of a name

 

 

Yeah, we call ourselves innocent

 

We say we need no cure

 

Like a hypnotized child by a silver globe

 

Covered by a shell of lies

 

But still feeling insecure

 

 

Your addiction is the result of your one try

 

Your anger is not the end of the major lie

 

There’s no escaping, no place to hide

 

Trying to change reality but running out of time

 

How ironic and immature

 

You tripped and fell at the end of your duel

 

 

Yeah, we call ourselves innocent

 

We say we need no cure

 

Like a hypnotized child by a silver globe

 

Covered by a shell of lies

 

But still feeling insecure

 

 

We are afraid to live but scared to die

 

Breathing in the nectar of life

 

It’s poisonous

 

Devouring the will to be alive

 

 

Like any other, from beginning to the end

 

You failed to understand

 

All in fear of destroying an illusion

 

Enchanted by the materialistic age

 

You find no answer, no solution

 

All ‘cause you’re trapped in a golden cage

 

 

Yeah, we call ourselves innocent

 

We say we need no cure

 

Like a hypnotized child by a silver globe

 

Covered by a shell of lies

 

But still feeling insecure

 

 

We are afraid to live but scared to die

 

Breathing in the nectar of life

 

It’s poisonous

 

Devouring the will to be alive

 

 

 

 

В колонках играет - A'studio- Angel
Настроение сейчас - Sleepy

Here is a book review that I found real interesting. Don't know how many r into this paranormal and stuff like that..

There is nothing new to the spiritual science of preparation, illumination and initiation into the mysteries contained within this book. For those who are actively engaged in studying the evidence, it is becoming more and more certain that the Earth was once host to an ancient, advanced civilization that had complete understanding of the physics and the timing behind the event that we are now experiencing in the Earth and Solar System.

This civilization took great pains to preserve their legacy so that we could re-discover these everlasting truths.

The most obvious footprints that have been left behind by this lost, ancient civilization are the many surviving structures around the world that are composed of multi-ton blocks of stone or “megaliths,” far too large and intricate in construction to be built by any known methods now available to humanity.

In our 2000 book The Shift of the Ages, we go into detail about such monuments, including their distinct energetic functions and their worldwide interconnected nature, provable by straightforward mathematical analysis.

Off the coast of the Japanese island of Yonaguni, a pyramid-like, obviously artificial megalithic structure has been found submerged under the sea in an area that could not have been above water for at least 12,000 years.

And in 2001, Paulina Zelinsky and Paul Weinzweig of Advanced Digital Communications announced that they had discovered vast submerged city of pyramids, buildings, roads and other structures off the western tip of Cuba, about a half-mile under the sea, as seen from side-scan sonar readings. This story actually broke into the Western mainstream media, which shows how surprisingly close they are to admitting that such a civilization did indeed exist.

Though there has been ongoing interest in the search for ancient undersea ruins, Zelinsky’s team was the first to elicit cooperation with the Communist regime of Cuba so that such advanced measurements could be taken in their national waters.

The research of Linda Moulton Howe and others has revealed that National Geographic has already signed a contract to have exclusive rights to release this new material to humanity, and that a comprehensive multimedia disclosure is being planned.

More recent updates in November 2001 revealed that interconnecting circles of rock similar to Stonehenge have now been photographed at the site by a robotic undersea probe, along with a series of stone inscriptions including crosses, sketches of Mesoamerican-style pyramids, and an unusual written language. The team hopes to photograph and survey the area much more thoroughly as time proceeds.

The original source of information for the Western world regarding this lost ancient civilization came from the works of Greek philosopher Plato, who first referred to it in the Timaeus as the island continent “Atlantis.”

It is widely held that the technological sophistication of Atlantis actually superceded our own, including anti-gravity capability that was used both for devices capable of interstellar travel as well as the levitation of tremendous blocks to build the pyramids and sacred structures seen worldwide.

Also available to the Atlanteans was a form of technology where extremely high amounts of energy to power all sorts of different devices could be drawn from the very essence of empty space itself – a non-physical energy source that the Greeks referred to as “aether,” which was their word for “shine.” The Greek word “pyramid” actually comes from the word roots “Pyre” and “Amid,” meaning “fire in the middle.”

This suggests that a harnessing of energy is occurring within such structures. In addition to technology, the Atlanteans were much more aware of the spiritual, intuitive and symbolic side of life, something that modern civilization has become much more divorced from.

Many different sources indicate that Plato had received the information regarding Atlantis secretly from the existing priesthoods of Egypt, and that he created a great controversy amongst their ranks by actually publicizing it. This one small data point, published in the philosophy texts of the day, could be seen as the first clue in unraveling a very substantial mystery.

According to such sources, the Egyptian priesthood was one of several splinter groups entrusted with preserving what they referred to as “the sacred fire of antiquity,” a coded term for the overall cosmology, physics and spiritual knowledge of Atlantis, which was also referred to as “The Tradition” or “The Mysteries.”

Rigorous oaths of secrecy were taken to uphold the secrets of such initiatory knowledge on pain of death. Offshoots of these societies are well known to still exist today through such organizations as Freemasonry, a group that was intimately connected to the foundation of the United States and still has widespread influence among the most elite power circles.

Solid information regarding such “secret societies” and their initiated teachings has been publicly available throughout the 19th and 20th century. In 1928, 33rd-degree Freemason scholar Manly Palmer Hall published a book that does a remarkable job of assembling the puzzle pieces into one single, vast composite, and its name is “The Secret Teachings of All Ages: An Encyclopedic Outline of Masonic, Hermetic, Quabbalistic and Rosicrucian Symbolical Philosophy, Being an Interpretation of the Secret Teachings concealed within the Rituals, Allegories and Mysteries of all Ages.”

This text is by far the most popular of its kind, and without such a book in existence, it would arguably be much more difficult to reconstruct an accurate picture of what exactly was known in the ancient world and how it was preserved throughout time.

The general picture of the time of Atlantis that Hall and other sources paint is of a world quite different than we know it today. Atlantis was one of two main advanced civilizations that co-existed on the Earth at that time, the other being the Rama Empire, which was centered in India. [If the Pacific Ocean-based civilization of “Lemuria” had indeed existed, it appears to have been from an even earlier period and was long-gone by the time of Atlantis and Rama.]

Documents from the Rama empire still exist today for the public to study, which the Hindus call the Vedas, and in these texts there are many references to highly advanced technology, including elaborate flying machines known as “Vimana” and nuclear weaponry. According to David Hatcher Childress in the book Vimana Aircraft of Ancient India and Atlantis,

The India of 15,000 years ago is sometimes known as the Rama Empire, a land that was contemporary with Atlantis. A huge wealth of texts still extant in India testify to the extremely advanced civilization that is said by these texts to go back over 26,000 years. Terrible wars and subsequent earth changes destroyed these civilizations, leaving only isolated pockets of civilization.

It is not surprising for those aware of such research that vast undersea city ruins have now been discovered off the coast of India near Gujarat, which could not have been above water for at least 9000 years.

Some twelve thousand years ago, most of the Earth’s population was nowhere near at the level of sophistication possessed by the Atlanteans or the Ramas, and like the “clashes of civilizations” of our own era, these two giants ended up going into war with each other.

Atlantis had just begun a program of indoctrinating lesser-developed cultures with their knowledge when their island continent was destroyed by a combination of warfare and geological cataclysms, which completely submerged their land circa 9600 BC.

Just prior to this time, some who were aware of this impending cataclysm left the island and went into hiding amongst other lesser-advanced populations of humanity. Some of these indigenous groups were in North and South America while others were in Europe, Africa and Asia. As Hall writes in Secret Teachings,

From the Atlanteans the world has received not only the heritage of arts and crafts, philosophies and sciences, ethics and religions, but also the heritage of hate, strife, and perversion. The Atlanteans instigated the first war; and it has been said that all subsequent wars were fought in a fruitless effort to justify the first one and right the wrong which it caused.

Before Atlantis sank, its spiritually illumined Initiates, who realized that their land was doomed because it had departed from the Path of Light, withdrew from the ill-fated continent. Carrying with them the sacred and secret doctrine, these Atlanteans established themselves in Egypt, where they became its first "divine" rulers.

Nearly all the great cosmologic myths forming the foundation of the various sacred books of the world are based upon the Atlantean Mystery rituals.

In the Western Hemisphere, this “Atlantean” influence is arguably behind the Mayan Calendar and many other indigenous spiritual traditions of various Native American groups. In the Eastern Hemisphere, this same Atlantean / Raman influence links the Egyptians, Sumerians, Assyrians, Babylonians, Chaldeans, Celtics, Druids, Tibetans and Greeks, as well as Judaism, Christianity, Islam, Hinduism, Zoroastrianism, Taoism, and Buddhism.

A variety of “secret societies” or “mystery schools” arose as well, including the following partial list that could easily be continued:

Atlantean, Hindu / Vedic / Raman, Hermetic, Pyramidic, Zodiacal, Egyptian, Celtic / Druidic, Mithraic, Serapean, Odinic / Gothic, Eleusinian, Orphic, Bacchic, Dionysiac, Cabiric, Pythagorean, Essenic, Platonic, Solomonic, Quabbalistic, Hebraic, Gnostic, Christian, Scandinavian, Arthurian, Alchemical, the Knights Templar, the Order of the Assassins, the Order of the Quest, Rosicrucian, Baconian / Masonic (Freemasonry,) Builders of the Adytum (BOTA), Ordo Templi Orientalis (OTO), the JASON society, the Skull and Bones society, the Islamic mysteries, the Mayan sacred teachings and the vast Native American / Shaman heritage.

It is important to remember that within each of the above names is an entire corpus of material to assimilate and digest, upon which a multiplicity of books could be written – knowledge which likely remains concealed to this day, at least in part. Secrecy was very much a part of the picture, as this next passage from Hall’s book points out:

"He who would fathom the depths of philosophic thought must familiarize himself with the teachings of those initiated priests designated as the first custodians of divine revelation. The Mysteries claimed to be the guardians of a transcendental knowledge so profound as to be incomprehensible save to the most exalted intellect and so potent as to be revealed with safety only to those in whom personal ambition was dead and who had consecrated their lives to the unselfish service of humanity.

Both the dignity of these sacred institutions and the validity of their claim to possession of Universal Wisdom are attested by the most illustrious philosophers of antiquity, who were themselves initiated into the profundities of the secret doctrine and who bore witness to its efficacy.

The question may legitimately be propounded: If these ancient mystical institutions were of such "great pith and moment," why is so little information now available concerning them and the arcana they claimed to possess? The answer is simple enough: The Mysteries were secret societies, binding their initiates to inviolable secrecy, and avenging with death the betrayal of their sacred trusts.

Although these schools were the true inspiration of the various doctrines promulgated by the ancient philosophers, the fountainhead of those doctrines was never revealed to the profane. Furthermore, in the lapse of time the teachings came so inextricably linked with the names of disseminators that the actual but recondite source — the Mysteries — came to be wholly ignored."

In the next paragraph, Hall explains how much of this secret ancient knowledge was preserved through the use of symbolism. This enabled valuable information to be stored in plain sight, such as in physical structures, mythological accounts and sacred texts, and yet concealed in an encoded form, which would only be decipherable to those who had already grasped the knowledge of the ancient Mysteries to some degree:

"Symbolism is the language of the Mysteries; in it is the language not only of mysticism and philosophy but of all Nature, for every law and power active in universal procedure is manifested to the limited sense perceptions of man through the medium of symbol.

Every form existing in the diversified sphere of being is symbolic of the divine activity by which it is produced. By symbols men have ever sought to communicate to each other those thoughts which transcend the limitations of language.

Rejecting man-conceived dialects as inadequate and unworthy to perpetuate divine ideas, the Mysteries thus chose symbolism as a far more ingenious and ideal method of preserving their transcendental knowledge. In a single figure a symbol may both reveal and conceal, for to the wise the subject of the symbol is obvious, while to the ignorant the figure remains inscrutable.

He who seeks to unveil the secret doctrine of antiquity must search for that doctrine not upon the open pages of books which might fall into the hands of the unworthy but in the place where it was originally concealed.

Far-sighted were the initiates of antiquity. They realized that nations come and go, that empires fall, and that the golden ages of art, science, and idealism are succeeded by the dark ages of superstition. With the needs of posterity foremost in mind, the sages of old went to inconceivable extremes to make certain that their knowledge should be preserved.

They engraved it upon the face of mountains and concealed it with the measurements of colossal images, each of which was a geometric marvel. Their knowledge of chemistry and mathematics they hid within mythologies which the ignorant would perpetuate, or in the spans and arches of their temples which time has not entirely obliterated.

They wrote in characters that neither the vandalism of men nor the ruthlessness of the elements could completely efface. Today men gaze with awe and reverence upon the mighty Memnons (Pyramids) standing alone on the sands of Egypt, or upon the strange terraced pyramids of Palanque. Mute testimonies these are of the lost arts and sciences of antiquity; and concealed this wisdom must remain until this race has learned to read the universal language — SYMBOLISM.

The book to which this is the introduction is dedicated to the proposition that concealed within the emblematic figures, allegories and rituals of the ancients is a secret doctrine concerning the inner mysteries of life; which doctrine has been preserved in toto among a small band of initiated minds since the beginning of the world.

Departing, these illumined philosophers left their formulae that others, too, might attain to understanding. But, lest these secret processes fall into uncultured hands and be perverted, the Great Arcanum was always concealed in symbol or allegory; and those who can today discover its lost keys may open with them a treasure house of philosophic, scientific, and religious truths."

So as we can see from the above passage, the sacred knowledge from Atlantis concerned a cosmology of the “inner mysteries of life,” a viewpoint of reality that was markedly different than that espoused by the “profane” masses who were not initiates into the ancient traditions.

Hall does make the explicit point at the end of this passage that those who can discover the lost keys of ancient wisdom “may open with them a treasure house of philosophic, scientific and religious truths.”

Within this book that you are now reading is an exhaustive reconstruction of the scientific knowledge of the Ancients, upgrading this information with the most modern cutting-edge discoveries in physics, and thus returning the “lost keys” to the hands of modern-day seekers. With these ancient keys we can indeed reveal an incredible storehouse of spiritual wisdom that has thus far almost completely eluded the Western scientific establishment, at least overtly.

Настроение сейчас - Sleepy..

I've taken these recently:

 

 

code:

code:

code:

code:

Choose the mountain you want to climb

Don't be influenced by what other people say: 'that one is preetier' or 'that one looks easier'. You are going to put a lot of energy and enthusiasm into achieving your objective, and your are the only person responsible for your choice, so be quite sure about what ur doing.

Find out how to reach the mountain

Often you can see the mountain in the distance- beutiful, interesting, full of challenges. However, when you try to reach it, what happens? It's surrounded by roads; forests lie between you and your objective; and what seems clear on the map is far more complicated in reality. So you must try all the paths and tracks until, one day, you find yourself before the peak you intend to climb.

Learn from someone who has been there before

However unique you may think you are, there is always someone who has had the same dream before, and who has left signs behind that will make the climb less arduous: the best place to attach a rope., trodden paths, branches broken off to make easier to pass. It is your climb and it is your responsibility too, but never forget that other's people's experiences are always helpful.

Dangers, seen from close to, are controllable

When you start to climb the mountain of your dreams, pay attention to what is around you. There are, ofcourse, precipices. There are almost imperceptible cracks. There are stones polished so smooth by rain and wind that they have become slippery as ice. But if you know were you are putting your foot, you will see any traps and you will be able to avoid them.

The landscape changes, so make the most of it

You must, naturally, always keep in mind you objective - reaching the top. However, as you climb, the view changes, and there is nothing wrong with stopping now and then to enjoy the vista. With each metre you climb, you can see a little further, so take time to discover things you have never noticed before.

Respect your body

You will manage to climb a mountain if you give your body the care it deserves. You have all the time that life gives you, so do not demand too much from your body. If walk to quickly you will grow tiered and give up halfway. If you walk too slowly nigth migth fall, and you will get lost.  Enjoy the landscape and drink the cool spring water, but keep on walking.

Respect your soul

Don't keep repeating "I am goin to do it'. Your soul knows this already. What it needs to do is to use this long walk in order to grow, to reach out far as the horizon, to touch the sky. Obsession will not help you in search of you goal, and will end up spoiling the pleaure to climb. On the other hand, don't keep repeating 'It's harder than I thought' because that will sap your inner strength.

Be prepared to go the extra mile

The distance to the top of the mountain is always greater than you think. there is bound to come a moment when what seemed to be close is still far away. But since your prepared to go still further, this should not be a problem.

be joyful when you reach the top

Cry, clap your hands, shout out loud that you made it; let the wind (because it is always windy up there) purify your mind, cool your hot, weary feet, open your eyes, blow the dust out of your heart. What was once a dream, a distant vision, is now a part of your life. You made it, and that is good.

Make a promise

Now that you have discovered the strength you did not even know that you had, tell yourself that you will use it for the rest of your days; promise youself too, to discover another mountain and set off on a new adventure.

Tell your story

Yes, tell your story. be an example to others, Tell everyone that its possible,and then others will find courage to climb their own mountains.

В колонках играет - Silence
Настроение сейчас - Dreamy

A boy was watching his grandmother write a letter. At one point he asked:

' Are you writting a story about what we've done? Is it a story about me? '

His grandmother stopped writting her letter and said to her grandson:

'I am writting about you, actually, bot more important is the pencil than the words I'm using. I hope you will be like this pencil when you grow up.'

Intrigued, the boy looked at the pencil. It didn't seem very special.

'But its like every other pencil I've seen!'

' That depends on how you look at things. It has five qualities which, if you manage to hang on them, will make you a person who is always at peace with the world.

'First quality: you are capable of great things, but you must never forget that there is a hand guiding your steps. We can call that hand God, and He always guides us according to His will

'Second quality: now and then, I have to stop writing and use a sharpner. That makes the pencil suffer  a little, but afterwards, he's much sharper. So, you too must learn to bear certain pains and sorrows because they will make  you a better person.

'Third quality: the pencil always allows us to use an eraser to rub mistakes This means that correcting something we did is not necessarilt a bad thing; it helps to keep us on the road to justice.

'Fourth quality: what really  matters in a oencil is not its wooden exterior, but the graphite inside. So always pay attention to what is happening inside of you.

'Finally, the pencil's fifth quality: it always leaves a mark. In just the same way, you should know that everything you do in life will leave a mark, so try to be conscious of that in your every action.

 

Source: "Like flowing river" by Paulo Coelho

You can take my breath away!!! stay away from me I don’t want do die Now.

He Took Me Fr0m a Bar. He Took Me In His Car. He Took My T0p 0ff. He Puts His Lips 0n Mine,But D0n't W0rry I'm a Bottle 0f Wine..

i removed L from LOVER.......n now its all OVER !!!

do u believe in love at first sight or do i have to walk past u again?

DONT SAY YOU LOVE ME UNLESS U REALLY MEAN IT, CUZ I MIGHT DO SOMETHING CRAZY LIKE BELIEVE IT

Look at the world as one big chocolate cake.It would never be complete without few sweets n nuts.Sweets like ME and nuts like YOU.

2 catch me , u gotta me fast...2 c me u gotta be smart...but 2 be me.............damn, u must be kiddin.

Some people are afraid of heights. Not me, I'm afraid of widths.

A good lawyer knows the law, a great lawyer knows the judge.

Beauty isn't a passport to success, it's a Visa.

Is your name sprite? cause baby you'd quench my thirst!Is your name sprite? cause baby you'd quench my thirst!

To explain the unknown by the known is a logical procedure; to explain the known by the unknown is a form of theological lunacy.

To explain the unknown by the known is a logical procedure; to explain the known by the unknown is a form of theological lunacy.

To explain the unknown by the known is a logical procedure; to explain the known by the unknown is a form of theological lunacy.

I broke her heart , She broke my jaw

w8 . i'm scanning your brain .. 10 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1 .. ERROR!! No brain detected!! ;)

look into my eyes ! u ll see... chocolates chips and a 1/2 litre pepsi

i slept n dreamt dat life is beauty .............i woke n found dat life is duty !!

My cat just knocked over a candle, which set fire to my dog. He, in turn, ran into my curtains and now they're ablaze too. Damn it!

kisses spread germzz....germz are hated..kiss me baby..i am vaccinated.

Yeah, that was ma first impression when I steped down the plane. Familiar smell of humidity. belive it or not but it India smells. Ofcourse, not in the sense that it stinks or anythin.. But there is this odd smell which u can see for ur'self. ( If u happen to come to India, ofcourse )

So.. I'm studing here. Didnt go out anywhere except for some classes in maths n programming. When I'm busy I dont even notice how time goes by.

It was totally different in Moscow. Now that I have come here I realised how I was wasting ma time there.  Couldn't help it.. Ma mind was totally somehwere else..

India ainh't that bad as I thougth it would be. Atleast it keeps me away from some thougths..More precisely, from some lies. ( Mine.. shhh... )

Don't know what else to write.

Life is so indefferent here.. So I thats y I am out of words rigth now.

On the other hand, I find it peacefull.. Cause all this months I really need this. Peace, I mean. To be al alone and think about somne stuff... make correct decisions and choices... Now that I am here in India I am hiding from a few things.. But once I come to Moscow.. Thats gonnu be one big BANG!! for me.. So goota prepare.. to keep me standin after that bang, lol.

Thats it for now.

Will try to keep this updated.

AGain, if sumthin new happens..

 

C Yah

В колонках играет - Nana- A little pain
Настроение сейчас - happy happy happy!!

So here I am.. Its 22.53 pm.. n I'm eating strawberries on ma B-day.

To say da truth, I didn't even feel like gettin up in da mornin.. I just wanted to lie dere all day long doin nothin..

n den sms.. still lyen down.. another down.. too lazy to get up.. another one... k darn gettin up already.

" Stel was beatin up skin-heads "

 

Wow. a perfect way of startin ma 16th birthday..

Well I've been punked actually, so dat it will get me to a suprise party.

Man.. it feels so gud wen u hav such gud friends around yah!

Thanks to Bebika n cavang!! Can't imagine where I wud been without yah guyz!!

 

 

 

I went for shopping this saturday.. Bougth sum new tops. Its been a long time that I went out somewhere. Its like I've been refreashened or sumthin after hanging out n enjoying wit ma mates. I've been like jumping da whole day.. n wen I came home, one of ma friends called me, who lives nearby.. Weird.. Its been a long long time dat I've spoken to her. Anyway, went to her house to. Had a na-ice time there also. Watched a moive.. a few anime episodes n den fell asleep at 4 am.. Dats sumthn dat i wanted to do past so months. Like be free.. sleep any time I wannu..  no worries about dis stupid exams..

I wake up da next mornin.. and then a realise that this day is gonnu be nothing like the rest of da days.. Sunday, study time. Had to finish ma homework.. prepare for the coming weekly tests.. and go to sleep.. Wake up the next, and wish dat u've never woken up because there is nothing to look forward to.. I try to remember the dream I had and wish dat I've never woken again from it.

But no.. I'm awake.. and I have to go to school.. I have to get up and go to the bathroom and splash ma face with water.. not because I want to. But, because I have to. I simply have no other choice.

And then by metro.. same stations.. same rush.. same street..same subway.. same mc.donals... n da same school.. nothing new.

I enter school questioning ma'self when its gonnu end. Yea, I've just reached school and can't wait till da final bell rings to let me out of this intoxicating creature. ( school, duh )

Again.. da same mc.donals.. da same subway.. da same metro... da same rush..

I walk back home from metro thinking why I need to drag ma'self to school today. Afterall, I even know wut da teacher is gonnu teach. I even prepare for da tests.. and I know exactly how much I'm gonnu get.. so borin.. the world seems to look so dull and rotten.

And there.. Im standing before ma house.. I enter da lift.. da sixth floor.. and walla, I'm home.. home again.

Why do I have to go back home? Maybe homework is not what I wannu do.. maybe I hav completely different.

But yet.. I still push ma'self home.. I remove ma jacket.. ma shoes.. not because I want to, but because I have to.

I force ma'self to do things that are not meant for me.. Or rather life is forcing me to.

I change ma clothes.. start doin ma homework.. and then go to sleep.. and wake up.. da next day... wishing dat I never woken up..

 

Life is like spininng wheel.. Its like a disk of songs... da songs spin n spin.. da same songs.. da same old songs.      

And the more it spins.. da fatser its starts spinning.. afterall, i'm already in 12th.. I still cant belive it.. Can't belive that time just flew by so fast.

And nothin worth mentioning in ma life has happened.. absolutely nothing. I'm no different from any other person. Who does, wut he is told to do. Who doezn't use his or her own heart to judge wut is false and wut is true..

I'm caugth in dis web of life.. and I am desperately.. wanting to find  a way out.

 

Thanks to all who read this.

Hope it wasn't that boring.

 

 

I found dis funny so wanted to share dis..

 

---

Top 10 most stupid questions people usually ask in obvious situations


1. At the movies:
When you meet acquaintances/ friends.. .
Stupid Question:- Hey, what are you doing here?

Answer:- Dont u know, I sell tickets in black over here...

2. In the bus:
A heavy lady wearing pointed high-heeled shoes steps on your feet...
Stupid Question:- Sorry, did that hurt?

Answer:- No, not at all, I'm on local anesthesia.. ...why don't you
try again.

3. At a funeral:
One of the teary-eyed people ask...
Stupid Question:- Why, why him, of all people.

Answer:- Why? Would it rather have been you?

4. At a restaurant: When you ask the waiter
Stupid Question:-
Is the "Butter Paneer Masala" good??

Answer:- No, its terrible and made of adulterated cement. We
occassionaly also spit in it.

5. At a family get-together:
When some distant aunt meets you after years
Stupid Question:-Munna, Chickoo, you've become so big.

Answer:- Well you haven't particularly shrunk yourself.

6. When a friend announces her wedding, and you ask...
Stupid Question:- Is the guy you're marrying good?

Answer:- No,he's a miserable wife-beating ,insensitive lout...it's just
the money.

7. When you get woken up at midnight by a phone call...
Stupid Question:- Sorry. were you sleeping?

Answer:- No. I was doing research on whether the Zulu tribes in
Africa marry or not. You thought I was sleeping.... you dumb witted
moron.

8. When you see a friend/colleague with evidently shorter hair...
Stupid Question:- Hey have you had a haircut?

Answer:- No, its autumn and I'm shedding.... ..

9. At the dentist when he's sticking pointed objects in your mouth...
Stupid Question:- Tell me if it hurts?

Answer:- No it wont. It will just bleed.

10. You are smoking a cigarette and a cute woman in your office
asks...
Stupid Question:- Oh, so you smoke.

Answer:- Gosh, it's a miracle ...........it was a piece of chalk and
now it's in flames!!!

---

Latter from husband ( who is abroad) to wife
 
 

Dear Sweetheart:


I can't send my salary this month, so I am sending 100 kisses.


You are my sweetheart


Your husband
 

Allen
 
 
 
============ =========   
 

His wife replied back after some days to her husband:
 
 

Dearest sweetheart,
 

Thanks for your 100 kisses, I am sending the expenses details.

 
1. The Milk man agreed on 2 kisses for one month's milk.


2. The electricity man only agreed after 7 kisses.


3. Your house owner is coming every day and taking two or three kisses
 

Instead of the rent.


4. Supermarket owner did not accept kisses only, so I have given him Some other items....... ....


5. Other expenses 40 kisses
 

Please don't worry for me, I have a remaining balance of 35 kisses and I hope I can complete the month using this balance.
 
 
 
Shall I plan same way for next months, Please Advise!!!
 

Your Sweet Heart 

---

 

---

Настроение сейчас - golova raskalivayatsa

aaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!! fuck programming!! I hate looping.. ma mind is soon gonnu loop out of ma brain..

yea, u guessed it. another exam 2morow.. darn..

cant i have a time-out or sumthin?!

первой записи не будет!вот так вот...........