I went for shopping this saturday.. Bougth sum new tops. Its been a long time that I went out somewhere. Its like I've been refreashened or sumthin after hanging out n enjoying wit ma mates. I've been like jumping da whole day.. n wen I came home, one of ma friends called me, who lives nearby.. Weird.. Its been a long long time dat I've spoken to her. Anyway, went to her house to. Had a na-ice time there also. Watched a moive.. a few anime episodes n den fell asleep at 4 am.. Dats sumthn dat i wanted to do past so months. Like be free.. sleep any time I wannu..  no worries about dis stupid exams..

I wake up da next mornin.. and then a realise that this day is gonnu be nothing like the rest of da days.. Sunday, study time. Had to finish ma homework.. prepare for the coming weekly tests.. and go to sleep.. Wake up the next, and wish dat u've never woken up because there is nothing to look forward to.. I try to remember the dream I had and wish dat I've never woken again from it.

But no.. I'm awake.. and I have to go to school.. I have to get up and go to the bathroom and splash ma face with water.. not because I want to. But, because I have to. I simply have no other choice.

And then by metro.. same stations.. same rush.. same street..same subway.. same mc.donals... n da same school.. nothing new.

I enter school questioning ma'self when its gonnu end. Yea, I've just reached school and can't wait till da final bell rings to let me out of this intoxicating creature. ( school, duh )

Again.. da same mc.donals.. da same subway.. da same metro... da same rush..

I walk back home from metro thinking why I need to drag ma'self to school today. Afterall, I even know wut da teacher is gonnu teach. I even prepare for da tests.. and I know exactly how much I'm gonnu get.. so borin.. the world seems to look so dull and rotten.

And there.. Im standing before ma house.. I enter da lift.. da sixth floor.. and walla, I'm home.. home again.

Why do I have to go back home? Maybe homework is not what I wannu do.. maybe I hav completely different.

But yet.. I still push ma'self home.. I remove ma jacket.. ma shoes.. not because I want to, but because I have to.

I force ma'self to do things that are not meant for me.. Or rather life is forcing me to.

I change ma clothes.. start doin ma homework.. and then go to sleep.. and wake up.. da next day... wishing dat I never woken up..

Life is like spininng wheel.. Its like a disk of songs... da songs spin n spin.. da same songs.. da same old songs.      

And the more it spins.. da fatser its starts spinning.. afterall, i'm already in 12th.. I still cant belive it.. Can't belive that time just flew by so fast.

And nothin worth mentioning in ma life has happened.. absolutely nothing. I'm no different from any other person. Who does, wut he is told to do. Who doezn't use his or her own heart to judge wut is false and wut is true..

I'm caugth in dis web of life.. and I am desperately.. wanting to find  a way out.

Thanks to all who read this.

Hope it wasn't that boring.