hatttteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

I give up again.
I give up to the pain.
I must.
It seems like I love to do it.
I must feel the pain, (not phisical) it's the only thing.
Only thing I can feel so intensitly.
Pain, and you.
I can feel you anywere.
I fucking hate you. But love you more.

Run away with me.
Meet in incident.
And then just forget the world.
And be together for the night.
Run away from everyone, with me.
One night, why one?
Just need to know that you have feelings for me.

But that is not going to happen.
The brain knows. The heart dosn't.

How can it be easy to forget you
When I think about you all the time
I never know how I miss you when I never had you
You were never mine

I move on,
But I can't go on without you
Said I try,
Don't know why,
What to do about you
Can't move on

It'd be cool if we never met,
If we never locked eyes
Then I'd feel so happy,
Not knowing you're so fine

I get so nervous when I'm around you
There's nothing I can say
I wish you'd get outta my head
I think about you every day


(GC-Can't move on)

To much in my head.

It's hard to say that I was wrong
Its hard to say that I miss you
Since you've been gone, it's not the same

(The Used)

I have a dream, like everyone else.
My dream is perfect, to perfect.
In my dream I have a perfect boyfreind, perfect smile, perfect love, perfect life.
But when I see my dream again, I see that I can give up everything for my dream, and I dont care, it's to perfect.
But then I come back to reality, and see taht It can't be right-too perfect, In my dream I dident care, but now, it's to perfect.
When you want that everything will be perfect-you can't live. It's killing you.
I live my life as it is, I dont like the most of it, but I'm trying.

I dont want it to perfect. and I cant.
I think, that I need just something that will be that way-perfect, It's love.


Now I'm li'l drunk.
My head hurt's.
But I like it.

Burn the sun
Burn the light
Take take take take take take it away
Take my hand
Take my life
Take take take take take take it away !!!

Lonely Feeling
I'm not in love
You know it's not love.

This is because I'm different.
This is because I've "changed".

And because I... shhh...
Dont say it ! shhh...

Hate me, let me die.

I hurt everyone.
I should die.

I hate myself.

I see dark light.
Hope, painful hope.
Dark light.

When I see you, my heart beat's faster.
Your eyes, so painful.
When you look at me...

I try to talk to you, one more look, one more word.
Somthing, just to hear your voice, see you.

I live in a bubble.
I can't lie to myself anymore.
I can't live live that.

I hate myself.
I mean it.
I realy mean it.

I can't control it !
I'm telling you that I love you. But I don't.
Sorry.

I't hurts more to see you.

Grrr..

How can I not hate myself, whan I told you I love you, but I lied.

I lied to you.

I did it only for the chance that I forget you.

I HATE MYSELF !

Hate me to.
Hate me.
Me.

You love me, I feel somthing strong, but not love.
I think.

I'm SORRY !!!

You told me to come with you, and your girlfreind.
Me.

" I'll saiL away
it's time to Leave
rainy days are yours to keep
I'll fade away
the night is calling my name
you will stay
I'll sailaway "

I must give up on you.

I had a dream about you.
I huged you, you took my hand, your eyes.
I was smiling.
You were with me. Just like then.

I'm tired to see youe face anywhere.

Bla bla bla.

You called me ugly, stupid, Emokid, bithch...

It's like I didnt cut 1000 years.

I miss it.

So...

One more time.

Bye.

I cant sleep.
My heart beats to fast.
It's crazy. I cant close my eyes anymore.

?

Why? I'm happy now!

No I'm not.

I pretend to be.

26

Why this?!?!?!?!??!?

26 26

I hate you.

Somthing that somebody wrote me.

"let me tell you this
as long as your alive you have a chance to make up
for misstakes
and even if time comes and you need to let
go of your past and start a new future

it might be too late to correct past misstakes
but its not too late to learn from them

oh...
and alittle advice
you dont need to get druk to talk freely
the only thing that i think stands in your way
of doing so is that you dont know how the other side
might react

here is a line that might help you

"you need to see the sunset to see it raise another
day
but if you spend all night waiting you will forever be lost in the dark.."

the only thing you trully own
is your life.. "

Dam.
That is so right =\ .

I will try.

Tomorrow I will bring my razor to school.
I think I will need it.
Cut.

Good Night.
I've tryed.
But...
I cant.

You will stay in my dream's.
Always.

My dreams are killing me.
You're killing me from inside.

Do it fast.
I wont scream.
Promise.

Knock me out.

Cut my vains.

Let me bleed.

Let me die.

I dont belong here.

I'm too tired to save myself.

You forgive me?

I'm dead. From inside.

I cant kill my body.
It can be very sad for few people.

"Positive scab is never healing"