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I wonder if anyone can tell me why when everything is going so great with you, we think it's almost time to say goodbye.
I'm strong enough I know to handle it. Once again.
Wow, there is so much irony in my life.
I know now that you could be anywhere and I could be anyone.
I hate that you're feeling down for 2 weeks now, that you don't know what to do and panic. I try not to show. And cheer you up, while it gets harder and harder.
I said we should remember these two months as 2 great months of our lives, but seems like we just don't know how to make it work.
Hope it'll get betttttttter.....

After the AFS meeting I realised how much I've changed and I don't want to lose a "new things in me" when I'm back home to Russia.
When I write it, it sounds silly =P

PS: I ADDED 2 PICTURES from AFS meeting =)

it was fun, not like I thought it would be though.
Some great moments, some bullshit though...
Yeah, I don't wanna be a perfectionist. But in general it was good.
My camera didn't do a very good job...

OMG! Prom is tomorrow, I just can't believe it.
Gotta think what I'm gonna do with my hair and everything. WOW! I'm excited.
I'm just asking God for everything to be like I dreamt it to be. I hope M will be there. I really do. I'm nervous too.......
oUUuuu!!!!F!....pf... hm. Yeah.
Today after tennis me and my teammates made t-shirts (we bought blanc black t-shirts and than painted them.) Coach helped me a lot.
She is so cute! I'll take a picture of her and show you, she's really nice!

I'll write a little.
Today was a day just like every other day.
M left to his track thing. I haven't talked to him since. Gonna call him tonight. We promised to write each other notes is we can't talk on the phone... Sweet!
Had a test today and I don't think I did really good on it.
Played softball today.. It's pretty much like baseball. Just so you know.
Had a tennis game at BrookPoint High School, just got home.
So now I'm going to eat something, take a shower and finally get some sleep))
Bye! Love you all!!!!

This week is crazy! I haven't written anything for a while.
There are some news - bad and good.
There are some days - good and bad.. partly. But they all are busy...
This week I have 3 tennis games in a row. Yesterday, today and tomorrow.
So I come home every day around 7-8 in the evening, eat and do my homework, take a shower and simply dying to go to bed.. being really tired after such a day.

I'm going to prom (school dance) without a date. I'm going to prom without my boyfriend. Too bad. I've been upset about for a couple weeks now. It's clear now. Now it's ok. Almost. He is going to track competitons for 3 days to another state. He's so in sports. And! He is soooo goood at it. He is gonna run with olimpic runners! That's my baby! I'm so proud, I hope it will be alright.
This is a good apportunity for him, a good chance for a scholarship and etc...

Good news: he was nominated to be a PROM KING! I love him, he is the best))))
I think it's so cool!!!

It's all gonna be fine, he'll get to prom late and prom is till 12 (midnight) so he'll definetely will be there in the end, he already has his suit and everything.
And there is also a lot of fun "After Prom" - we're going bowling till 5 in the morning! I'm excited!!!!!! It's gonna be great!!!


ps, life is like a zebra - black and white, I'll try to get some color!

Here I am, took a shower.
Now I'm gonna pack my bag for a New York trip.
Ipod, money, ID, Sweater, sunglasses, cosmetics, contact lences, camera, snacks, water... hm... I don't want to forget anything.
leaving at 1:30 in the morning.

Today I sayed home sick.
Tomorrow I'm going to New York for a day! I'm been waiting for it forever.
Hope I'll feel better or at least not worse.
Talked to my mommy and my best-in-the-whole-world friends. They are amazing.
The weather is really nice, too much thoughts and drama with M, he started to think about me leaving coz he tryed to avoid it for a long time, doesn't work anymore.... Sadly, I wanna be optimistic.
Talking about future, I know my love is forever.

calling again and again.
finally decide to live a message.
Hey babe! What’s going on? Where Are you so late? We gotta talk, coz I feel kinda sorry I left like that. We’re fine, right? I’ll talk to you tomorrow I guess. Love you. Bye.

I'm going to NewYork this Saturday!!!!
I've been waiting for it since Christmas.
But now I'm sick, so it's not that exciting, hopefully I'll get better.

I realized I had a friend I haven't thought for months. Rachel.
She came to my game tonight. I was glad. She is one of those people I can talk to.
She said - if something happens call me and I come and take you out, call me even if it's late and I'm probably sleeping...
Sweet!