I've just realised that if the card she sent me will stay at mail.ru - it will dissapear from their in 90 days. So I've got this wonderful idea to place it RIGHT HERE.

PS: I sent her 2 cards: birthday and another one, and 1 to Nastia (birthday) but I didn't get an e-mail that they got them.... I hope they did.



I miss you so much!!!! I'm looking forward to hugging you next year!!!!! I love you!!! chmok!!!!!

OOOOOhhhh!
i don't wanna get up. Maybe I can stay in bed for another hour. But I don't think so.
All the Sundays are awful, but not this one! I'm glad, it is because I don't have school tomorrow, Columbus Day! Yes!
I woke up at 5 because Amber was taking shower in my bathroom. Hour ago she and Ashlyn left for the church, baptist church. They asked me yesterday to go with them, but I said I prefer sleeping. =)
So i'm just sitting on my bed and looking at the flag. I put my flag on the wall and my sister's picture on it! When I wake up I always see the picture. It is the picture of our family, and the note: "we are always with you" on it.

i wrote a poetry about it:

My nightmares


Sometimes I feel empty.
Sometimes I feel special.
Sometimes I feel broken.
Sometimes I feel happy.

Not often seems I can reach for you,
But then I suddenly wake up.
Seems like I’m standing next to you,
And I fall when I want to stand up.

This is a nightmare every night.
I see myself saying goodbye.
To all of my friends, it’s not alright.
I can’t stop crying, but I always try.

I can't stop thinking about what I said yesterday.
Shannon (the girl from my PE class) asked me about Marcell (the boy who i'm going with to the homecomming). She asked me: "are you guys going to hold hands, kiss and this stuff there?" And I said: "probably!"
I can't believe i said it. I said it really fast, it was actually the first word I could remember. OMG! Things are going good with him, but that's a pity we don't have any classes together. OH! this word Probably - stacked in my head!
Tomorrow me, Ashlyn, her best friend Amber, mom and some more people maybe are going shopping to buy dresses. I'm so excided. But I don't like shopping any more coz I weight 4 km more then before. That's sad. But I'll get over it.

So... here I am.
Laying on my bed with my computer on my knees.
I change the design of my diary and now feel so proud of myself becouse this is exactly what I was looking for, exactly what I feel it should be like.
But first of all I want to say that I LOVE THIS PHOTO! I just love it. I wanted to make it the background of my diary, but then I realised it's too much =) i like it a lot anyway!
Today I went to John's place, there was a band practice, to hear Trevor's band playing. It wasn't bad. They were playing outside and it was so loud, they could be heard from all over the town I think. But they need some new eqipment. Logan, their singer couldn't be heard at all, bet we could see him singing. I was bored after third song actually.