Today is my parent's anniversary. I came home from school... talked to my BEST FRIEND for 5 minutes - then they went to bed. I miss them.
I decided to have a special lunch, to celebrate. I was alone at home, Trevor went to the dentist and etc. So I had soup and cookie that my parents sent me. I felt so happy, coz seemed I felt the connection with my family. Hm. And then something awful happened. I went to my room and what did I see there? Misty (dog) ate almost all packs of soup that my parents sent me. The soup and packs was all on the floor. I couldn't move, screem, even say anything... Later I thought "what is your fucking problem, dog?!?!?!?!" When I saw this picture in my computer.
AAAAAAAAAAA!!!! I'm so mad!!!! I'm angry!
I called my host mother and told her what happened. You know what she said? "You sould vacum, and don't leave the food on the floor." (The box WAS CLOSED)
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?! I can't. Does she care? don't think so.
Feel so empty. Because I can't do anything about it.
I vacumed.
Now it smells like soup in my room.
Maked my sooooo mad!
I don't want to go out of my room anymore!!!!!!!!!
STUPID, STUPID, STUPID, STUPID, STUPID DOG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HATE HER.
I had a wonerful mood before it had happened.

Привет,Алинчик!!!!! Это Оля Д. Я очень соскучилась. Как ты поживаешь? У меня все отлично. Тебе еще передавали привет Даша У, Лида, Вика Л, Оля Ф, Лера Ш и еще много кто. Помнишь, ты собиралась дать нам свои координаты перед отъездом-да так и забыли. Твой mail дала мне Даша У. Надеюсь, что ты обрадовалась письму. Пиши скорей! Я жду!

Is it really happening?!
Well, I think so. He came back from Boston, I can't believe it's 10 hours driving. He gave me a suvenier! It is a glass thing. Looks like a piece of glass with 2 dolphins on it. Simbolic?... hm =)
He came by, didn't com in the house, we talked standing on the front poarch. Ashlyn was talking almost all the time,,, so we didn't talk personally. Ok. She was hugging me from time to time and said 3 times that i'm not allowed to go to the homecomming with him. And 2 times "Don't touch my woman!" Funny? She cares....

I received an e-mail from her!
Have no idea where she is.
It's sad she changed her host family, but I hope things'll be better now...... pf....


Hi Alina!!!!!!!!This is Tanya!How are you?How is your english?How is your family? I have already changed my family,it is kind of difficult.My afs experience is very difficult.And if you know Vica`s e-mail could you write it to me!!!!!!Write me ,please.

Tomorrow I'll know if I got a role in Fall Play. It is "Tvelfth Night" by Shakespere. I tried out last week. The Drama teacher seems likes me, we talked a lot about Russian Drama Plays writtent by Chehov and etc... Also he asked me if I drink vodka))))) That was funny. He also asked if I'm allowed to do that.
Actually the most popular question is "You are from Russia, right?... pause... So you speak Russian?!" I was asked this about 8 times already!!!!! I'm glad they don't ask me often: "How is your president, Stalin?" But probably not so many people know that the president of Russia is Putin... pf...
I can write a book about it.. Can be sucsessful!

It’s funny to wake up and realize it is soon will be 6 in the evening Somewhere. I guess you all know where.
Yesterday I went shopping for Homecoming. I bought a really nice dress. The most comfortable dress I’ve ever wore.
Yesterday Ashlyn’s friends cane over to watch movies and I watched the movie with them. I can’t believe I watched Saw II. Oh! I’m surprised I didn’t have any nightmares… I’m definitely happy about it. Then we watched a comedy – the Russian translation is “a little pregnant.”
No school today. I am so glad! But I have tons of homework. And chores. We clean the house every Sunday but this time on Monday.

I feel sad about her.
I didn't know her well, and it's even more sad to think that we'll never, never be closer then we used to be. I don't know a lot about her. Only what my friend told me. But I know one thing. This girl was told about only good things when she was alive. Always. Whan she was alive.
Some people, when they die only then are told good things. It's complicated.
It's hard to think about it, but the life is going on. It's not over.
It's difficult, but I can imagine how hard it is for her parents and close friends.
It seems I can feel the reflection of this pain. Because I compare it with my life and... I sarted to think about things I don't want to think at all. And words li IF... If I... If my friends... Parents...
I'll die If anything happnens. Like that.
Just wanted to ask you. Please! Take care.
And know that you have my love. It is with you every single day. Maybe it'll help to get though these days........... Hope. And pray. I will....