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There's an article. There's a FUCKING article about this shit. It will just be a matter of time before they investigate all of you. They'll find Tohma's affairs with eighteen year olds and Sakuma's affairs with sixteen year olds. All because your so-called brilliant singer can't keep his damn mouth shut! Next time make your damn entry private if you just want to tell us instead of the world.

Tohma, you'd better bring your ass home tonight or call me and tell me a damn good reason why you're not here. We need to talk.

https://users.livejournal.com/-mika/16128.html

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There's an article. There's a FUCKING article about this shit. It will just be a matter of time before they investigate all of you. They'll find Tohma's affairs with eighteen year olds and Sakuma's affairs with sixteen year olds. All because your so-called brilliant singer can't keep his damn mouth shut! Next time make your damn entry private if you just want to tell us instead of the world.

Tohma, you'd better bring your ass home tonight or call me and tell me a damn good reason why you're not here. We need to talk.

http://users.livejournal.com/-mika/16128.html

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There's an article. There's a FUCKING article about this shit. It will just be a matter of time before they investigate all of you. They'll find Tohma's affairs with eighteen year olds and Sakuma's affairs with sixteen year olds. All because your so-called brilliant singer can't keep his damn mouth shut! Next time make your damn entry private if you just want to tell us instead of the world.

Tohma, you'd better bring your ass home tonight or call me and tell me a damn good reason why you're not here. We need to talk.

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**Private**
Tohma and I are back together, but I'm sure everybody knows that by now. I'm happy. I missed him so much. I don't care if he's crippled or an invalid or whatever the hell he's calling himself next. I don't mind taking care of him. It would be difficult to do forever, but he's going to recover. It's just hard taking care of two kids at a time, that's all. I wonder how Noriko manages it.

Speaking of Noriko, I finally called her to chat today. I missed doing that. Maybe when I have more time, I'll get to take her out to lunch again. Like we used to do before my husband crippled himself and before she had three children to take care of.

**Ryuichi and Eiri**
Tohma and I are holding a Christmas party at our house. You two are certainly invited. Yes, you may bring your boyfriends if they want to come. I hope you two will come. Eiri, I'll be dragging you along whether you want to or not.

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**Private**
Tohma and I are back together, but I'm sure everybody knows that by now. I'm happy. I missed him so much. I don't care if he's crippled or an invalid or whatever the hell he's calling himself next. I don't mind taking care of him. It would be difficult to do forever, but he's going to recover. It's just hard taking care of two kids at a time, that's all. I wonder how Noriko manages it.

Speaking of Noriko, I finally called her to chat today. I missed doing that. Maybe when I have more time, I'll get to take her out to lunch again. Like we used to do before my husband crippled himself and before she had three children to take care of.

**Ryuichi and Eiri**
Tohma and I are holding a Christmas party at our house. You two are certainly invited. Yes, you may bring your boyfriends if they want to come. I hope you two will come. Eiri, I'll be dragging you along whether you want to or not.

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**Private**
Tohma and I are back together, but I'm sure everybody knows that by now. I'm happy. I missed him so much. I don't care if he's crippled or an invalid or whatever the hell he's calling himself next. I don't mind taking care of him. It would be difficult to do forever, but he's going to recover. It's just hard taking care of two kids at a time, that's all. I wonder how Noriko manages it.

Speaking of Noriko, I finally called her to chat today. I missed doing that. Maybe when I have more time, I'll get to take her out to lunch again. Like we used to do before my husband crippled himself and before she had three children to take care of.

**Ryuichi and Eiri**
Tohma and I are holding a Christmas party at our house. You two are certainly invited. Yes, you may bring your boyfriends if they want to come. I hope you two will come. Eiri, I'll be dragging you along whether you want to or not.

http://users.livejournal.com/_mika/15640.html

Why does it feel like my world is crashing down around me?

Private
Hell, who am I fooling? I know why and soon the whole world will know. My husband... ex-husband... ex-fiancee. I don't know what to call him anymore. Tohma... Seguchi-san... fuck. Him. He just broke it off. He said that God told him to. Bullshit. He read a book and concocted some plan. He's probably going to go to someone else and he just doesn't want to tell me. Eiri or Ryuichi... though for some reason, I doubt it. Ryuichi said himself that he didn't like to see me hurt. And Eiri... he knows I'd figure that out sooner or later.

Speaking of Ryuichi... he was very sweet. I honestly didn't expect that sort of kindness from him. He proved me wrong. All these years I've disliked him, but that's only because I haven't gotten to know him. I just knew the part that was in love with my husband. I wish I hadn't judged him before all this. Though, while he's doing his best to make me feel better, I just don't feel like anything will work. I don't have a damned explanation. Perhaps if there had been a better reason for him to leave me I would have taken it better. Hard to say now, but it's always possible.

I need another pack of cigarettes... I'm out again.

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Hell, who am I fooling? I know why and soon the whole world will know. My husband... ex-husband... ex-fiancee. I don't know what to call him anymore. Tohma... Seguchi-san... fuck. Him. He just broke it off. He said that God told him to. Bullshit. He read a book and concocted some plan. He's probably going to go to someone else and he just doesn't want to tell me. Eiri or Ryuichi... though for some reason, I doubt it. Ryuichi said himself that he didn't like to see me hurt. And Eiri... he knows I'd figure that out sooner or later.

Speaking of Ryuichi... he was very sweet. I honestly didn't expect that sort of kindness from him. He proved me wrong. All these years I've disliked him, but that's only because I haven't gotten to know him. I just knew the part that was in love with my husband. I wish I hadn't judged him before all this. Though, while he's doing his best to make me feel better, I just don't feel like anything will work. I don't have a damned explanation. Perhaps if there had been a better reason for him to leave me I would have taken it better. Hard to say now, but it's always possible.

I need another pack of cigarettes... I'm out again.

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Hell, who am I fooling? I know why and soon the whole world will know. My husband... ex-husband... ex-fiancee. I don't know what to call him anymore. Tohma... Seguchi-san... fuck. Him. He just broke it off. He said that God told him to. Bullshit. He read a book and concocted some plan. He's probably going to go to someone else and he just doesn't want to tell me. Eiri or Ryuichi... though for some reason, I doubt it. Ryuichi said himself that he didn't like to see me hurt. And Eiri... he knows I'd figure that out sooner or later.

Speaking of Ryuichi... he was very sweet. I honestly didn't expect that sort of kindness from him. He proved me wrong. All these years I've disliked him, but that's only because I haven't gotten to know him. I just knew the part that was in love with my husband. I wish I hadn't judged him before all this. Though, while he's doing his best to make me feel better, I just don't feel like anything will work. I don't have a damned explanation. Perhaps if there had been a better reason for him to leave me I would have taken it better. Hard to say now, but it's always possible.

I need another pack of cigarettes... I'm out again.

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I swear, if anything else gets out of hand I'm liable to kill somebody. Life is bullshit. It's a nice cannibal who bites you in the ass, then comes back for more. I swear, sometimes I think I should have just stayed with Ryuuen. Tatsuha wouldn't try to sabotage us. I know this time it wasn't Tohma's fault, but shit. Those two piss me off, I swear. He should know better than to accept drinks or any substance you put in your mouth when it involves Tatsuha. Tatsuha should know what will happen if he does such a thing. They're like children who just don't listen. Tohma was so upset, though. Even after Tatsuha told me it wasn't his fault, I still wanted to yell at him, but I couldn't. Not with him acting the way he did. It was... almost pathetic. I understand that he doesn't want to lose me again, but really. I love him all the same. Tatsuha, on the other hand. I'm still pissed at him. He promised to apologize, but I don't know how well that's going to go. I prefer to stay out of it. I wish I had a normal family. Right now, Eiri's looking pretty damn sane to me.

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I swear, if anything else gets out of hand I'm liable to kill somebody. Life is bullshit. It's a nice cannibal who bites you in the ass, then comes back for more. I swear, sometimes I think I should have just stayed with Ryuuen. Tatsuha wouldn't try to sabotage us. I know this time it wasn't Tohma's fault, but shit. Those two piss me off, I swear. He should know better than to accept drinks or any substance you put in your mouth when it involves Tatsuha. Tatsuha should know what will happen if he does such a thing. They're like children who just don't listen. Tohma was so upset, though. Even after Tatsuha told me it wasn't his fault, I still wanted to yell at him, but I couldn't. Not with him acting the way he did. It was... almost pathetic. I understand that he doesn't want to lose me again, but really. I love him all the same. Tatsuha, on the other hand. I'm still pissed at him. He promised to apologize, but I don't know how well that's going to go. I prefer to stay out of it. I wish I had a normal family. Right now, Eiri's looking pretty damn sane to me.

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I swear, if anything else gets out of hand I'm liable to kill somebody. Life is bullshit. It's a nice cannibal who bites you in the ass, then comes back for more. I swear, sometimes I think I should have just stayed with Ryuuen. Tatsuha wouldn't try to sabotage us. I know this time it wasn't Tohma's fault, but shit. Those two piss me off, I swear. He should know better than to accept drinks or any substance you put in your mouth when it involves Tatsuha. Tatsuha should know what will happen if he does such a thing. They're like children who just don't listen. Tohma was so upset, though. Even after Tatsuha told me it wasn't his fault, I still wanted to yell at him, but I couldn't. Not with him acting the way he did. It was... almost pathetic. I understand that he doesn't want to lose me again, but really. I love him all the same. Tatsuha, on the other hand. I'm still pissed at him. He promised to apologize, but I don't know how well that's going to go. I prefer to stay out of it. I wish I had a normal family. Right now, Eiri's looking pretty damn sane to me.

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I suppose my life right now is like that old saying: "If you're going through hell, keep going."

Well, I'm still going and this ride is showing no sign of stopping. Fucking Tatsuha... I know I really should be angry with him, but I can't be. I know this situation is beyond his control, but then again I can't help but feel he could have handled his life much better than he has. Why does it feel like ever since I started dating Ryuuen things have gotten more hectic? Maybe it's just me. Though, I can't help but miss Tohma every so often. I see him at work, but that's not what I mean. I love Ryuuen and nothing is going to change that... I guess it's just remeniscence.

Tatsuha mentioned the drugs the last time we talked. He asked me if I still thought about them. He should know better than that, of course I do. I've just been able to control myself... somehow. But since he mentioned it I've been thinking about it much more. It would take away the pain, certainly, but where would it leave me when the effects subsided. And Ryuuen would know. He can always tell when I'm hiding something from him. Even if he didn't notice, Tohma would. He notices everything.

**For Noriko**

I know it probably isn't the best time to try and spill my problems to you, but would you like to come over some day? I'd really like to talk to you.

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I suppose my life right now is like that old saying: "If you're going through hell, keep going."

Well, I'm still going and this ride is showing no sign of stopping. Fucking Tatsuha... I know I really should be angry with him, but I can't be. I know this situation is beyond his control, but then again I can't help but feel he could have handled his life much better than he has. Why does it feel like ever since I started dating Ryuuen things have gotten more hectic? Maybe it's just me. Though, I can't help but miss Tohma every so often. I see him at work, but that's not what I mean. I love Ryuuen and nothing is going to change that... I guess it's just remeniscence.

Tatsuha mentioned the drugs the last time we talked. He asked me if I still thought about them. He should know better than that, of course I do. I've just been able to control myself... somehow. But since he mentioned it I've been thinking about it much more. It would take away the pain, certainly, but where would it leave me when the effects subsided. And Ryuuen would know. He can always tell when I'm hiding something from him. Even if he didn't notice, Tohma would. He notices everything.

**For Noriko**

I know it probably isn't the best time to try and spill my problems to you, but would you like to come over some day? I'd really like to talk to you.

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I suppose my life right now is like that old saying: "If you're going through hell, keep going."

Well, I'm still going and this ride is showing no sign of stopping. Fucking Tatsuha... I know I really should be angry with him, but I can't be. I know this situation is beyond his control, but then again I can't help but feel he could have handled his life much better than he has. Why does it feel like ever since I started dating Ryuuen things have gotten more hectic? Maybe it's just me. Though, I can't help but miss Tohma every so often. I see him at work, but that's not what I mean. I love Ryuuen and nothing is going to change that... I guess it's just remeniscence.

Tatsuha mentioned the drugs the last time we talked. He asked me if I still thought about them. He should know better than that, of course I do. I've just been able to control myself... somehow. But since he mentioned it I've been thinking about it much more. It would take away the pain, certainly, but where would it leave me when the effects subsided. And Ryuuen would know. He can always tell when I'm hiding something from him. Even if he didn't notice, Tohma would. He notices everything.

**For Noriko**

I know it probably isn't the best time to try and spill my problems to you, but would you like to come over some day? I'd really like to talk to you.

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I thought I'd kicked my smoking habit for good. Guess not.

**PRIVATE**
The stress is really getting to me. Noriko slept with Miki. She fucking slept with Miki. I wanted to feel sympathetic toward her, but I just couldn't. She knows what he did to me. I can't believe she would do something like that. It's stupid. Tetsuya 'left' her, but not really. He's apparantly staying with his parents to get things straight and probably calm down. He has every right to be pissed. When she said he left her I assumed they were getting a divorce, but I guess not. That's really not something her children need to go through right now.

Second of all, Ryuuen wants to gain full custody of Shiori. I honestly don't see why. Sakano-san isn't neglecting her while she's there. He has a job to do and I know for a fact that Tohma's a slave driver. I doubt he can help working those late hours. I will support Ryuuen in what he's doing because this isn't my affair, I just don't think it's right for him to do that to Sakano-san. I'm sure he tries the best he can.

We went out dancing the other night. He danced on stage. I forgot he used to work at that place. It was amazing and he looked so sexy. I got to be in control that night too. I loved it. I suppose that makes up for the stress.

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I thought I'd kicked my smoking habit for good. Guess not.

**PRIVATE**
The stress is really getting to me. Noriko slept with Miki. She fucking slept with Miki. I wanted to feel sympathetic toward her, but I just couldn't. She knows what he did to me. I can't believe she would do something like that. It's stupid. Tetsuya 'left' her, but not really. He's apparantly staying with his parents to get things straight and probably calm down. He has every right to be pissed. When she said he left her I assumed they were getting a divorce, but I guess not. That's really not something her children need to go through right now.

Second of all, Ryuuen wants to gain full custody of Shiori. I honestly don't see why. Sakano-san isn't neglecting her while she's there. He has a job to do and I know for a fact that Tohma's a slave driver. I doubt he can help working those late hours. I will support Ryuuen in what he's doing because this isn't my affair, I just don't think it's right for him to do that to Sakano-san. I'm sure he tries the best he can.

We went out dancing the other night. He danced on stage. I forgot he used to work at that place. It was amazing and he looked so sexy. I got to be in control that night too. I loved it. I suppose that makes up for the stress.

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