Ну давай еще в плагиате меня обвини
Если я украл этот стишок то украл из собственной головы
Это мое повседневное представление о мире
Чтоб его понять нужно глаза раскрыть пошире....

You are not along in the cave of mind. I know it's very difficult not to commit suicide when you can't change everything... But you should only know what you want in this crazy life and try to hold on this idea, try to change simple daily things, to make yourself love them. I'm not sure but I think Your text is the part of somebody's song or poem, but some days in some ways I agree with it.