When you alone you are trying to find someone who can help you to stay away from mistakes. Sometimes you even forget about your pride just because of fear that you going to do something wrong in the future. Its a sigh of weakness. I am weak, sometimes I forget that to maintain in this life I have to be on my own. Mistakes is just a lessons which you try to avoid in the future. They are helping you to grow up. When you love someone, you think you can do everything the only weakness is him/her. Sometimes you feel that all your life is based on this person. When someone breaks your heard, the period of pain just shows you who you are and how you can handle your difficulties. Some people are striving in their weaknesses, losing themselves in addictions and thinking that this is the only way to find solution. When others, are trying their best to keep themselves busy, by doing something useful for them. Most of us believe that the time can heal anything. I disagree with this. We all know for everyone the period of healing has a different period, for some faster for some longer. I believe that some people they know that by being weak nothing inside can be fixed. I was trying to heal myself for a year. I was weak. When I used to see him, I wanted him back just because I never wanted to be in pain. I had a guy who loved me, I was with him just to feel save and loved to remove all my inside damage. But all the time when period of loneliness was coming I didn't know where to put myself. Dying in pain and asking myself why I deserve all this. When finally I got a chance to be alone for 3 month I still was trying to be weak. I was always telling stories about him, I made everyone ask about him. He was texting me, I was replying and making look like everything okay. I was forgiving everything. I was stoping myself from new people, keeping my old atmosphere where everyone and everything were reminding me of him. I knew I was hurting people by my selfish attitude. I couldn't let him go just by thinking that without him I cant resist. I was praying every night to make at list one of my days without thinking of him. One day I woke up and realized that I didn't make any movement to move on. I was keeping myself far from any closest movement to try. I didn't give anyone chance to help me. Finally, after all this time I realized that he doesn't deserve all this, that I don't want to suffer for nothing. I decided to stay far from my old circles. I kept myself busy with studies, any possibilities to work, every weekend I tried to have fun and I seceded. Finally it really happened. I woke up at the morning and I even forgot what is it to feel that easy without any hard stones to carry during the day. Everything seemed so bright and nice that I realized how many things I had lost during this time. I could make it way faster than i did. I know that love is very strong feeling but sometimes you don't have a choice just to move on. Every time I was with him I was trying my best to do everything to make him happy, for me was enough to spent my time with him doing nothing. I loved to look at him, to hug him. For me was hard to realize that this hands will never hug me again, that those eyes will never look at me again. This period when you don't feel your chest, when it all burning on fire. When you cant brief, eat sometimes even move, you cant even think about anything its just whole blank. Just stand up, you don't really have another choice other than forcing yourself doing something in order to make all this feeling stay behind your life. Everyone choses own ways to erase pain, but its a huge fight with yourself.

сегодня были дома с раком
и варенье было с маком
Вета кушала из утки
проходила проститутка
бляди были за углом
кот ругался за столом

тут угрюмая скотина
нажралась амфетамина
бляди прыгали на стол
кот уткнулся взглядом в пол!

кости зубы ананасы
были вместе у тараса
тарас конечно не глеб
но тоже молодец