Last night I did something grand! Natalie and Casey were in the back seat and they congratulated me. I felt an enormous weight lifted off my shoulders, but then of course - guilt and worry came along. Some people just bring you down. I wouldn't say that they "drag you down a bad path" but more like...help you slide down it. So I kicked the fucker out of my car and made him walk home.

So I'm feeling kind of icky today, but nothing stopped me from decorating my Christmas tree! I did it all by myself this year. My mom decorated it all last year without me, so this year I went ahead and did it my way. I also bought 2 new ornaments. I'm sad that I didn't buy more ornaments at Kathe Wolfhart in Germany. The ones that I got there stand out on my tree.

I've been doing pretty bad in school. I'm failing math again and not trying at all in my other classes. I'm so worried about Public Speaking. I HATE that class. I need to work on my speech I guess. ughhhhh ten fucking minutes of persuading.

So I guess HCC next year. I don't even want to go there. I just want to travel and see different places and learn languages. I don't know what I want to do. I used to want to be a substance abuse counselor...but not anymore. Maybe...but I don't know. ugh. That job would give me a migraine.

My life is so interesting lately. I just don't feel like talking about the excitement.

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