part fifteen out of a collab i'm doing with the astounding DameVulpes
& yes, the title is a reference to her version ("broken records")

fifteen..
i.
gluttony.
48 days.
that's how long it takes to starve a famished love; skinny things never survive the winter. all jutting joints and harsh angles, the cold makes it shiver like hypothermia. blue; lips like the sky, eyes like the sea, hands that forget to hold each other in this frozen paradise.
48 days.
that's how long it took for our love to shudder itself to death, too full of itself, of the roiling ocean foam, of the pretend sailor who thinks the shore is whiter, blacker, better somehow on the other side of the continent.
a month and a half is a long time to think that you're in love.
ii.
wrath.
the winter has no patience for the dying. no wistful goodbyes, or teary hugs, no lingering kisses. only the covering of eyelashes with snow, the hurried way it buries the dead. the slow, freezing burn of its anger on your fingertips, the loss of feeling.
feel my rage like the lack of patience in the winter.
i'll bury our love in ice, coat it with soft snow; make it i

i'm sorry for not posting recently. ugh i still feel in shock from what happened yesterday ;_;
& i kinda spilled out all my emotions to my friend via text last night too
she was like "damn" & i was like "uh huh i'm fucked up"
but i've been watching season 4 of ahs all day & scrolling through tumblr to try to get me in a better mood all day
i guess that's productive??

oh well. everybody, stay safe, ily guys, & love to all of you

-Chell

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