So hard just being honest...with others, with your daily life, with yourself...saying the exact things you're thinking about and not blaming yourself for hurting sobody's feelings..So hard to stay true when your own life becomes a full lie. And it's the only way out, and you hate that, but you can't change and control it anymore..And you begin shouting. But the only thing which can hear you is your own miserable proud. That's what I call being lonely.