I love him.
And I am absolutely stupid for acting this way!
How can I even think of anyone except for him??
I feel bad. horrible. stupid. disrespectful. dishonest. I fell like I've forced myself to jump into a huje pile of mud. and it is disguisting me!
is there any way to fix it????? Why did I even do that?????
This is ridiculous. absolutely.
he's the greatest boy in the whole entire world. ever.
I love him with all my heart!
I just want him to be happy!

Baby, I am so sorry! I love you!
and I miss you every second you are not around...