Hey, u!!!!
U r my life, my sence of everything, my air!!!
Why don't u wanna understand that, why don't u wanna forget about what other people think and make me urs!!
I hate u so much. I hate everything u do. I hate ur cold smile. I hate the way u flirt wit others.I hate when u say those secret words "I love u" and then act like u were just kidding. I hate those dark spanish eyes that look at me and promise the whole world, but instead give me tears. I hate ur hands that make me feel like im urs but next moment become cold and strange to me. I hate u so much.
At the same time i love u, more than anything. I love everything u do. I love ur warm smile. I love the way u flirt with me. I love when u tell me those words and wait from me the same. I love those dark eyes that look at me with interest and promise of everything that I want in this world. I love ur hands when u r hugging me and i feel comfortable and protected. I love u so much.
Why u do this to me? Why u always say that u want to be only friends? Why u kiss me and then act like nothing happened? Why u making out with my best friend? Why u don't talk to me when i want to hear ur voice? Why u act like i don't exist? Why am i still thinking about u? Why am i writing about u in my diary? And u will never read it, but i know that u don't have to. I think u understood everything a very long time ago.
But u can't help me, cause u r player and never stay with one for a long time. Guess what, i don't even care now, i just want u to know that there is someone who loves u and always remembers.

To my memories of J