I feel good

Soledad

This is sooo fucking wrrong@ I would say just the opposite. Anyway, It was a waiste of time. Who creates those tests?

I am soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
drunk! It feels soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo good!

Match . com
How stupid is that? Or e-harmony?

This is my life now

I just realized that thee time on my computer is sooo wrong.

HOPE! The hope gives me hope to ...
I am very exsited about that job. Maybe i will get? Who kows, right? Life is full of surprises.
Why do I like changes sooo much? I never change my friends but I like to change the sroundings, the things I like, the colors I like....In this stage of my life I need some sophisticated colors, earth colors. Again, for another time i am gonna redo my apartment.
The telephone is ringing hoplessly. I m anot gonna pick it up. I cetainly know who that is.
It is really hard to live without certainty. Its rather scary.
Yesterday I found the "novel" i started to write a while ago. Do i want to continue? It is interesting to look back sometimes, to dig the past and find "treasures". The last days of life in that place were so intense and stressful that every time I think about it
I do not want to think about it. Even though I gavet hem promisses about financial support and writing letters but I am so happy to be out theri lives maybe forever. ALthough I do not belive that people meet just f or one time. Nothing happens without a reason. I know that for sure. Everyting has a purpose and meaning. Nothing happens accidentally. But I certainly do not belive in God. I belive in nature! I am panatheist! A summer ago I was discussing this with V.
I like black and white photography! I need a new camera![FONT=century gothic][SIZE=3]

It is interesting to read others diaries. Sometimes even you get new ideas for yourself!
Yesterday our friends visited us for the first time in the new house. WE had so much alcohol...Everything went well as it was planed. Then we got sort of wild. We need that sometimes. I just realized that I became so domestic lately. So we decided to go out and continue the party. Yeah, til 2:00 am. Funny enough I di n't feel terrible the next day. Wow, we have to do this often. We laughted so much, I couldn't belive. I cann't even remeber when was the last time I had soooo much fun. GREat food, great people and wine.
Did some shopping today for the house. Nice!
After figuring out what I can and what I cannn't do for the next year gave me a sense of relief.

Pretty tired. Went to the doctor earlier today. Boy, I was scared. The news didn't make me happy at all. Now I am gonna wait and look all the time. YOu know, I do not understand these doctos, they never have time to explain things. How I am gonna guess? Ha?
Feel some muscle tension. i guess I better take a bath. Oh, I love baths. Never had a turkish bath. Intersiting how it feels? Aaaa, screw them, the turks!
Watched my favorite shows. Did some grocery shopping. On Sunday we have guests. GREat. I am gonna cook. Yammy, yammy.
Tomorrow I have to go to the airport to pick up them. I wish they could stay longer.
I better go to bed. Good night!

I cann't find my board games. This is driving me crazy.

I just want to say
Hey, fuck you bitch!!!!!!!!!!!
Stop being annoying

I had a great day! We went to the ocean. Took some pictures. I hope the weather stayes like this.
Have to make couple of phone calls but so DO NOT WANT!
Well, at least wrote a letter to a friend in Moscow. Boy, it took me a lot of effort!

Beatiful day! I was outdoors for a long while. I was trying to enjoy the day.
What a stupid attitude she has! I feel sorry for her. I mean, I even feel sorry for me for giving such an expensive gift. Did she like it? I guess she wanted that for a long time. And wow, right? But not, she acted weird. She even didn't want it there. She wanted me to bring it back. is she really carzy?
Fall! ERa of beatiful colors and romantisizm.
People sometimes act strange. I wish i could read her mind.

Again!
The mailman put the wrong mail into my mailbox. I so don't want to deal with the neighbors. Nice people though...
The sex was GREAT today!

I do not even know what to write. Because my life is soooo uneventful. Its all the same. I watch the same shows, I drink the same coffee, I do the same things.
I am bored.......
Need some changes? I am pretty happy with the way I live. At least I have a peacful and comfortable life.
Even didn't call the doctor for the appointment. Damn it!

All alone. I guess I better turn on the lights.

I heard bad news about my friends father. I wish I could do something. I am sorry, I even can not give a hug. But that's life you know. I just wanner a say, hey remember, there was time you wanted him to die....But I cann't. And I feel so depressed about that. i guess I will never see him again. What is going to happen to her Mom? Oh, God, I do not even want to think about it.
One thing is clear for me; when I go back, I won't find things the same way they used to be. Well, V.' s grandpa died, Arthurs Grandpa died and Gosh, I have a strange feeling this is gonna be the THIRD one.

My name is ....
I do not know what I am doing here.
What do people think when they write diaries? I read so many diaries of great people and all I understood, is that the person who writes a diary always carries this subconscious desire that someone else could read it, you know. I think although it’s a way to express yourself or to share your thoughts with a notebook (well, now a virtual diary, which is a little bit intimidating) it still is for others.
Well, whoever created this online diary communication thing deserves a lot of credit. It’s fun actually.