Настроение сейчас - ,

I need to move now, I have found a new live internet. Cupid.com, seems very good, and although 2 journals are nice, i think i can't have both.( it is way too much effort. So its most likely i will stop my entries here again for good this time.
Dear journal from monday, my entries might be redirected to cupid.com, this will be confirmed on sunday finally.
I'm not 100% sure yet, but most probably yes.

Настроение сейчас - ужасен

Не, никога повече. Вях лувупитен, ама вече нистина го видях за каквото си е, глупост!! Веше важно да го вида и тогава да си решя. Както аз го разбирам, ако някой продалжи да го приследва, тогава си е ясно какъв тип човек е.
Да, все пак загувена вече, точно петък, и само ако забравия тоз рост в бъдещото, ако кажа ххх ще си препомния!

Настроение сейчас - няма

Чудасе, той е педерас, много ми е страмно. Жалко, щото той е добър,поне така смятам, ама има нещо много страмно в неговото поведение. Не само че е гей, ма всъщо че има страмни идеи. Разбрах че е спал с други хора, куето смятам че можеби вклучва момчета. Не знам, но ако това е верно, тогава ще трябва да не се сверзвам по чат повече и да паза такава връска както вих с приятел.
Жалко ама нужно, аз съм внимателен.
Хайде помогнах му, ама малко да спръ чат що той ще мисли нещо има, ама няма нищо, само приятели и край.!!!!

Настроение сейчас - #

Historical Events on this Day in History ...

0387 - Bishop Ambrosius of Milan baptizes Augustinus
1521 - Parliament of Worms: Cardinal Alexander questions Maarten Luther
1599 - Valencia arch duke Albrecht of Austrian marries Isabella of Spain
1663 - Osman declares war on Austria
1676 - Sudbury, Mass attacked by Indians
1797 - France and Austria signs cease fire
1853 - 1st train in Asia (Bombay to Tanna, 36 km)
1856 - Russian Republic Chancellor Earl von Nesselrode resigns
1868 - San Francisco Society for Prevention of Cruelty to Animals formed
1869 - 1st international cricket match, held in SF, wins by Californian
1902 - Denmark is 1st country to adopt fingerprinting to identify criminals
1909 - Joan of Arc declared a saint
1923 - Poland annexes Central Lithuania
1927 - Chiang Kai-Shek forms anti-govt in China
1939 - Hubert Pierlot forms Belgian government
1942 - James H Doolittle bombs Tokyo and other Japanese cities
1945 - Clandestine Radio 1212, after broadcasting pro-nazi propoganda for months used their influence to trap 350,000 German army group B troops
1946 - US recognizes Tito's Yugoslavia govt
1948 - International Court of Justice opens at Hague Netherlands
1949 - Republic of Ireland withdraws from British Commonwealth
1950 - Polish Catholic church and govt sign accord over relations
1950 - 1st transatlantic jet passenger trip
1954 - Colonel Nasser seizes power and becomes PM of Egypt
1956 - Egypt and Israel agree to a cease fire
1956 - Grace Kelly marries Prince Rainier III of Monaco (civil ceremony)
1968 - US performs nuclear test at Nevada Test Site
1968 - London Bridge is sold to US oil company (to be erected in Arizona)
1975 - John Lennon releases "Stand by Me"
1978 - Senate votes to turn Panama Canal over to Panama on Dec 31, 1999
1979 - Major Haddad declares South-Lebanon independent
1980 - Zimbabwe (formerly Southern Rhodesia) declares independence from UK
1982 - Zimbabwe capital Salisbury renamed Harare
1983 - A lone suicide bomber kills 63, at US Embassy in Lebanon
1984 - Challenger flies back to Kennedy Space Center via Kelly AFB
1986 - Titan rocket explodes seconds after liftoff from Vandenberg AFB
1987 - US performs atmospheric nuclear test at Maralinga Australia
1987 - An unconscious skydiver is rescued by another diver in mid-air
1989 - Zimbabwe gains independence
1990 - Supreme Court rules states could make it a crime to possess or look at child pornography, even in one's home
1994 - Lebanon drops relations with Iran
1994 - Former President Nixon suffered a stroke and dies 4 days later

Настроение сейчас - serious

I promised Nando this early morning hours to help him.
We started talking, then it all came out. I dont run, I dont know why, but i like listening to other peoples problems, and somehow, even though they may live 100000 km away, i want to help in anyway. I cant leave this guy alone, cause i understand what he is going through, and no one should be be living a life like he does.
Tonight now after my studies, i will dedicate 1.5 hours to helping u out, I PROMISE!! Cross my heart, hope to die, stick a needle in my eye.
I cant promise a solution, but its worth helping out. Cause at the end of the day, believe or not, the world doesnt only revovle around us, and our problems arent the only ones, we arent special, and there people worse off than us.
The sooner we realise this, the better picture we get of life, and the more we complete we become.
Fernando, I WILL DO MY BEST, friend.

Настроение сейчас - I want to help Nando

I want to remember this conversation on msn at 00.30 on Wednesday 18/04/2007,

C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
hi nick!!
Nik says:
Hi nando
Nik says:
fernando
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
how r ya???
Nik says:
well well thanks
Nik says:
and you?
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
just ok.. boring
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
u??
Nik says:
hmm ok
Nik says:
uni is busy
Nik says:
lots of tests and stuff
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
uni is off for me...
Nik says:
off?
Nik says:
why?
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
vacations...LOL
Nik says:
ahh
Nik says:
nice!
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
nut mux
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
i gotta use the free time to get a job..
Nik says:
I like vacations
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
kinda strssfull...
Nik says:
agreed
Nik says:
i understand
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
SHIt!!! my aunt is here
Nik says:
but what about the miss ecuador
Nik says:
business?
Nik says:
ur aunt, ok do you need to go?
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
hse is so anoying!!!
Nik says:
oh ok
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
i have no privacy is this fucking house!! i hate it!!!
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
no i dont need to.. its just that im getting so tired of the ppl here...
Nik says:
thats definitely sucks(((
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
Miss Ecuador is ok, but just dont get me enough money to pay the uni...
Nik says:
hey i know what u mean, i used to be in such circumstances
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
yeha i know i hate living here..
Nik says:
i feel for u
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
really??wot did u do to solve it?
Nik says:
oh lol, im uni now.
Nik says:
almost unlimited privacy
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
oh... u live at the uni...
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
God id love to do that..
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
we dont do taht here...
Nik says:
no one here basically to mess in my life
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
unis are like high school...
Nik says:
oh ok
Nik says:
pity
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
u go there averymorning, study and come home for lunch..
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
i hate it..
Nik says:
ohhh
Nik says:
i seee
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
seriously im having lots of problems in my house..
Nik says:
no my uni is infact 1200km from home
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
i cant stand this..
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
mine is 5 minutes in car...
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
:(
Nik says:
:(
Nik says:
i feel so sorry for you
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
i wish i could b far away... think my family will miss me and apreciate me then...
Nik says:
they will!!!
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
thanx dude... just dont feel sorry for me, its good enough to feel sorry for myself
Nik says:
now when i go back, they are soo nice to me
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
everytime i come back they scream and never stop asking queestions..
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
i hate it
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
living here have bacame a hell...
Nik says:
i see
Nik says:
hmm
Nik says:
i dont know of what alternatives
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
where do u live??
Nik says:
cause to be away u need money
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
i know...
Nik says:
i live in south africa
Nik says:
u need money to go to a hostile
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
i wanna get a simple job and get on my own but here in my country is impossible..
Nik says:
or go over seas
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
wot part of southafrica u live??
Nik says:
east coast
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
i know.. and even more hard for us, we need visas..
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
i hate myself
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
looks like im gonna b stuck here..
Nik says:
hmmm, yes tough position
Nik says:
the key is a sound tertiary education like uni
Nik says:
it gives u more power to find higher paying jobs
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
not here.. they give a shit if u study uni or not..
Nik says:
:/
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
they just want u to make money...
Nik says:
that doesnt sound right
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
and use u..
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
nope..
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
at all..
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
actually there is ppl with money that just nuy uni...
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
buy uni tittles..
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
so
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
they dont study and get degrees..
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
i love my country just hate the ppl in here... or not the ppl.. hate how they are ruling here..
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
im so lost..
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
im having that feeling that i wanna save a little money and
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
then someday just wake up
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
and take a bus
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
and go somewhere far from here..
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
somewhere i dont know
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
with ppl i dont know..
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
and give myself a break..
Nik says:
sounds like the right medicine for you
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
nope its not..
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
i dont have money
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
and if i have it..
Nik says:
well yes that...
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
i cant spend it cause i gotta pay uni..
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
uni is very xpensive here...
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
i was crying the other day..
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
when
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
my friend called me
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
and i told him that i was afraid..
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
sometimes i use to think that
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
i dont wanna live this life anymore
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
and maybe dying could b the only way out..
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
but then i thought about wot i was thinkinking
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
and i realized it was so wrong
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
now everything is worse
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
and im thinking that more oftenly..
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
and it scary me the hell
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
because when im so down there..
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
i think that maybe "it is!!" the only one way out
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
im
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
afraid of doing something stupid in an act of desperation..
Nik says:
never lose a grip on reality
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
its hard...
Nik says:
logic should prevail
Nik says:
and plan, a vision
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
when somebody get wot i get its hard..
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
i dont have one..
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
i dnt want one anymore..
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
wot for? i wont make it, i have no oportunities...
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
u know wot?? i was thinking that maybe i could go to more poor countries to help ppl built houses and teach stuffs to kids like maths or lenguages..
Nik says:
and you what...
why not?
Nik says:
now that to me sounds like a plan
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
id really love to do that, im totally avaible, i dont care abut leaving my family or friends
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
im not having a life here, dont care if i dont go back soon, i could stay there and help them
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
that would make me feel usefull..
Nik says:
very good
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
and good with my self and the world...
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
and i reasearch aobut it..
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
and
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
U NEED MONEY TO GO THERE!!!...
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
its like
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
SHit!! cant do anything rite!! not even giving my life to help ppl...
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
i wanted to go to the most poor countries of africa and play with the kids...
Nik says:
well, try this...
try get incontact with a humanitarian relief agency,

C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
and help the doctors to cure them...
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
there ar not here...
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
not in my country...
Nik says:
call an international one
Nik says:
The U.N
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
u know about one???
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
they dont have..
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
i already reasearched...
Nik says:
or a private american one
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
i went to the UN..
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
and cant find more...
Nik says:
look more on the internet
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
i spent 3 days here in the compùter..
Nik says:
hmmm
Nik says:
u need a phone number of one
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
www.afs.com
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
is the only one that have offices in my country
Nik says:
ok
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
thats the one i found
Nik says:
the Redcross
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
but u have to pay everything
Nik says:
a UK one
Nik says:
hmm
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
could ya help me find one??
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
ill be really gratefull..
Nik says:
sure
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
looks like u know a litte about this...
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
ok, im looking now
Nik says:
ok ill take a look as well
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
let me know if u find something
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
like the idea of one in the UK
Nik says:
yes
Nik says:
sure
Nik says:
ill come online tomorrow
Nik says:
same tiime
Nik says:
and let u know
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
ill try to
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
i have work tomorrow..
Nik says:
oh ok
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
u can e mail me if u find soemthing
Nik says:
ok
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
ill mail u wot ill find
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
s u help me to c wot to do..
Nik says:
sure
Nik says:
nando_j_g@hotmail.com
Nik says:
?
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
yeah
Nik says:
ok
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
nik870821@yahoo.com
Nik says:
yeap
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
u r a great person
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
im lucky to find ya
Nik says:
no problem
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
({)(})
Nik says:
;)
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
http://www.universalgiving.org
Nik says:
cool
Nik says:
ok nando im gonna go now
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
ok
Nik says:
have lectures tomorrow
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
thanx for listening
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
my drama
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
LOL..
Nik says:
sure
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
take care dude..
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
love ya..
Nik says:
you too!
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
hugs...
Nik says:
cool
Nik says:
(im not gay;))
Nik says:
but yeah a hug
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
i know...
Nik says:
;P
Nik says:
cool keep well
C3lebr@t!0n T!m3!!!!!!!!! says:
({)(})

Настроение сейчас - ______-----_____-----_____

Just Jack-Starz In Their Eyes

They'll be making sure you stay amused
They'll fill you up with drugs and booze
Maybe you'll make the evening news

And when you're tripping over your dreams
They'll keep you down by any means
and by the end of the night you'll be stifling your screams

Since you became a VIPerson
It's like your problems have all worsened
Your paranoia casts aspersions
On the truths you know

And they'll just put you in the spotlight
And hope that you'll do alright
Or maybe not

Now why do you wanna go and put starz in their eyes?
Why do you wanna go and put starz in their eyes?
So why do you wanna go and put starz in their eyes?
Now why do you wanna go and put starz in their eyes?
Starz in their eyes?

Remember they said you'd show them all
Emphasise the rise but not the fall
And now you're playing a shopping mall

Your mum and dad they can't believe
What you appear to have achieved
While the rest of these users are just laughing in their sleeves

Since you became a VIPerson
It's like your problems have all worsened
Your paranoia casts aspersions
On the truths you know

And now the tabloids use your face
To document your fall from grace
And then they'll tell you that that's just the way it goes
That's just the way it goes

Now why do you wanna go and put starz in their eyes?
It's the same old story well they just didn't realise
And it's a long way to come from the dog and duck karaoke machine
And Saturday night's drunken dreams

Now why do you wanna go and put starz in their eyes?
It's the same old story well they just didn't realise
And it's a long way to come from your private bedroom dance routines
And Saturday night's drunken dreams

Now why do you wanna go and put starz in their eyes?
Why do you wanna go and put starz in their eyes?
So why do you wanna go and put starz in their eyes?
Now why do you wanna go and put starz in their eyes?
Starz in their eyes?

Now why do you wanna go and put starz in their eyes?
It's the same old story well they just didn't realise
And it's a long way to come from the dog and duck karaoke machine
And Saturday night's drunken dreams

(When I grow up im going to be famous)

Behind the steel barrier and sequence and glitter
Five inch heels still knee deep in the litter
Each of them a bitter bullshitter,
Wrapped up in the cloak of fake glamour, getting lost in the camera
Well footprints are fools gold, diamonds crusts on their one off plimsolls
So little time for these one off arseholes
Rigour mortis Ken and Barbie dolls,
A pair of big shades and a push up bra,
It's such a short gap between the gutter and stars,
That you've come a long way from the place that you started
So why'd you wanna go and get so down hearted

Welcome to the kingdom of the blagger
Uncutting you nose clean, coating you bladder
A whole lot happier a whole lot sadder,
Used to be satisfied but now you feel like Mick Jagger,

Now why do you wanna go and put starz in their eyes?
It's the same old story well they just didn't realise
And it's a long way to come from the dog and duck karaoke machine
And Saturday night's drunken dreams

Now why do you wanna go and put starz in their eyes?
It's the same old story well they just didn't realise
And it's a long way to come from your private bedroom dance routines
And Saturday night's drunken dreams

Настроение сейчас - ...

"It is a myth that we only use 10% of our human brain."




It is common to hear this statement, alarmingly even from a few people who label themselves as "scientific" or as researchers.

In actuality, such a comment as above, is more misleading itself than the so-called myth of unused brain potential.

Think.




You no more use 90% of your brain potential than you use 90% of your muscle potential all of the time.

To say that we use all of our brain, would be like saying Arnold Schwarzenegger or Lou Firigno had as 90 pound teenagers reached the pinnacle of their muscular development.


You no more use all of your brain all of the time than you use 100% of your lung capacity sitting at your computer keyboard.

You no more use all of your brain all of the time than you use all of your car all of the time; that you always drive at the full potential of your Honda; that you always drive at the top speed of your car; that your trunk and seats are always filled to capacity; that you have even figured out and daily employ every single way in which you could use your car.



To say that we use all of our brain ignores the fact that you keep losing your car keys all the time.

To say that we use all of our brain ignores the fact that you couldn't remember where you left your car in the parking garage- even though this is well within your brain potential.




Sir John Eccles has stated his feelings on the infinite potential of the human brain, and he won the Noble prize.

Such a statement that "We use all of our brain all of the time" or "It is a myth that we only use 10% of our brain" are both misleading and unhelpful uninspiring skeptical crumbs with barely a grain of truth- As well as not even being accurate statements regarding usage of the human brain.




Humans have an unlimited capacity to learn. Unlike computers, no human brain has ever said: "Hard drive full."

A simple look at brain scans will show us that the brain modulates dramatically from one moment to the next in regards to its activity and usage. Here it is then, on the screen of Functional MRI machines and Pet scans, incontrovertible evidence that we do not use all of our brain all of the time.



To say "we use all of our brain all of the time" says nothing about the potential of human intelligence, creativity, and problem solving. Such a skeptical rebuttal of the vast potential of the human think machine implies that we have reached our limits of brain potential- probably the most harmful dead end notion of all. We haven't even gotten close.

Our frontal lobes have been culturally and socially lobotomized. At this stage of evolution, we are simply still Apes With Pencils.

That's actually very good news.



So, as it turns out, to say that "We only use 10% of our brain, only 10% of our brain potential"- this is actually an infinitely optimistic, as well as a considerably reasonable and thoughtful perspective of the possibilities that reside inside our craniums

Настроение сейчас - Отлично

Еи най после, аналиса беше лесно довечера))), взимам вече сила и сам готов да се бора пак))
Супер,довечера ще почина май и утре ще се ПОЧНЕ)) лека по лека
имам седем дни да се разтоновя и така
време е да се превърна в друк човек.
Еи колко хубаво се чуствам)))

Настроение сейчас - THE ARMS RACER

This weekend, insane, inhumane, crazy,,

I want them to stop, stop, stop
Time out, i will prevent the following one being the same, by being consistent working, since today!!! in analysis, and following mon is stas,
So priniciple of consistency applies.
no more time to write,
END

Настроение сейчас - Um sleepy?

Theories regarding the function of sleep
Given sleep's heterogeneous nature, no single theory predominates, as it is difficult to describe one single "function" of sleep.

Restorative theories of sleep describe sleep as a dynamic time of healing and growth for organisms. For example, during stages 3 and 4, or slow-wave sleep, growth hormone levels increase, and changes in immune function occur. In some studies sleep deprivation has led to decrements in immune function and, under extreme, extended sleep deprivation regimes, altered metabolism.[citation needed] However, sleep deprivation has not been conclusively shown to significantly impact organ, muscular, cardiac, or other somatic function in ways that suggest that any of these systems are primarily influenced by sleep.
Non-REM sleep may be an anabolic state marked by physiological processes of growth and rejuvenation of the organism's immune, nervous, muscular, and skeletal systems (but see above). Sleep might restore neurons and increase production of brain proteins and certain hormones. Wakefulness may perhaps be viewed as a cyclical, temporary, hyperactive catabolic state during which the organism acquires nourishment and procreates. Also, during sleep, an organism is vulnerable; when awake it may perceive and avoid threats. Asking the question "Why do we awaken?" instead of "Why do we sleep?" yields a different perspective toward understanding how sleep and its stages contribute to a healthy organism.
According to the ontogenetic hypothesis of REM sleep, the activity occurring during neonatal REM sleep (or active sleep) seems to be particularly important to the developing organism (Marks et al., 1995). Studies investigating the effects of deprivation of active sleep have shown that deprivation early in life can result in behavioral problems, permanent sleep disruption, decreased brain mass (Mirmiran et al. 1983), and an abnormal amount of neuronal cell death (Morrissey, Duntley & Anch, 2004).
One process commonly believed to be highly dependent on sleep is memory. REM sleep appears to help with the consolidation of spatial and procedural memory, while slow-wave sleep helps with the consolidation of declarative memories. When experimental subjects are given academic material to learn, especially if it involves organized, systematic thought, their retention is markedly increased after a night's sleep. On the other hand, the effectiveness of mere rote memorization is similar with or without an intervening period of sleep. Some memory theorists argue that saving memory directly into long-term memory is a slow and error prone process, and propose that cerebral input is saved first in a temporary memory store, and then encoded and transferred into long-term memory during sleep. (Zhang, 2004). Note that despite an abundance of positive findings in support of these ideas, many sleep scientists do not believe that sleep's primary function is related to memory. These scientists point out that many of the studies cited by proponents of this theory are contradictory or confounded by the side-effects caused by the experimental manipulations. A more salient issue is that only a handful of studies have shown that sleep actually influences brain plasticity--which is the mechanism underlying remembering and forgetting (Benington and Frank, 2003).
One view, "Preservation and Protection", is that sleep serves an adaptive function. It protects the individual during that portion of the 24-hour day in which being awake, and hence roaming around, would place the individual at greatest risk. Organisms don't require 24 hours to feed themselves and meet other necessities. From this perspective of adaptation, organisms are safer by staying out of harm's way where potentially they could be prey to other stronger organisms. They sleep at times that maximize their safety, given their physical capacities and their habitats. (Allison & Cicchetti, 1976; Webb, 1982). This theory, however, is not universally accepted. For example, if true, there would be no reason for the brain to disengage from the external environment as it does during normal sleep. A more advantageous adaptation would be for animals to seclude themselves but maintain quiet wakefulness to avoid predation. Nevertheless, it must be said that animals who are preyed upon usually disengage from the external environment to a lesser degree. Sleep is not simply a passive consequence of removing the animal from the environment, but rather is itself a "drive": animals will alter their behaviors in order to obtain sleep. Therefore, circadian regulation is more than sufficient to explain periods of activity and quiescence that are adaptive to an organism, but the more peculiar specializations of sleep most likely reflect different and unknown functions.
These several theories are not mutually exclusive; each may contain truths that will be validated in the future. Despite decades of intense research, scientists still have only clues to sleep function. With the recent demonstration that sleep is phylogenetically ancient (Shaw et al Science 2000, Hendricks et al Neuron 2000), the focus for understanding the purpose of sleep shifts from humans and other mammals to simple animals that predated the emergence of arthropoda and chordata phyla. Therefore, some of the sleep features that are unique to mammals (e.g. REM sleep and thermoregulation) are unlikely to have played a role in the evolution of a sleep-like state in the primordial metazoan. An examination of the nature of sleep and of wakefulness thus turns its focus to the study of the roles that proteins and enzymes play in basic metabolism.

Insane, crazy, not trying it ever again.
If ever someone goes to sleep at 5.00 am on a friday night
they will never have a normal weekend.
Everything is messed up...
its wrong.
now its 01.18! so yes, im planning to have an "early" night)

More of those photos are in album,
anyway , ecos was ok, but my goodness me was I pushed for time.
Now calculus is left on monday...
Its getting cool now))), today was 15 and the rain is coming. I wish my umbrella was bigger but:P, i can't walk with someone next to me, and we both stay dry, one of us like on wednesday always get abit wet))))
Anyway, goodnight, im too tired these days to make any good posts, but maybe this weekend in conjuction with my analysis Ill come up with some weird and clever stuff
and here is why I have a sad life....

Вложение: 3577538_tut_4.pdf

those unidentifiable pics before, are actually these...
hard to believe i know...

Настроение сейчас - .

I am an arms dealer
Fitting you with weapons in the form of words
And I don't really care, which side wins
As long as the room keeps singing
That's just the business I'm in

This ain't a scene, it’s a god damn arms race
This ain't a scene, it’s a god damn arms race
This ain't a scene, it’s a god damn arms race
I'm not a shoulder to cry on, but I digress

I'm a leading man
And the lies I weave are oh so intricate, oh so intricate
I'm a leading man
And the lies I weave are oh so intricate, oh so intricate

I wrote the gospel on giving up
(You look pretty sinking)
But the real bombshells have already sunk
(Primadonnas of the gutter)
At night we're painting your trash gold while you sleep
Crashing not like hips or cars
No, more like p-p-p-parties

This ain't a scene, it’s a god damn arms race
This ain't a scene, it’s a god damn arms race
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This ain't a scene, it’s a god damn arms race

Bandwagon's full. Please, catch another

I'm a leading man
And the lies I weave are oh so intricate, oh so intricate
I'm a leading man
And the lies I weave are oh so intricate, oh so intricate

All the boys who the dance floor didn't love
And all the girls whose lips couldn't move fast enough
Sing until your lungs give out

This ain't a scene, it’s a god damn arms race
This ain't a scene, it’s a god damn arms race
(Now you)
This ain't a scene, it’s a god damn arms race
(Wear out the groove)
This ain't a scene, it’s a god damn arms race
(Sing out loud)
This ain't a scene, it’s a god damn arms race
(Oh, oh)
This ain't a scene, it's a god damn arms race

I'm a leading man
And the lies I weave are oh so intricate, oh so intricate
I'm a leading man
And the lies I weave are oh so intricate, oh so intricate

Настроение сейчас - puzzler

Try and guess, it looks out of this world, and it is...
All will be revealed later...
And no, a magnifying glass won't help)))
N.B go with first instinct, they are usually right =)
Commendation for guessing correct will be given.

Настроение сейчас - Gloooooooooooomy

Lin Alg was ok on tues, but i know i buggered up unecessarliy.
Oh well, tough times, im sure the light at the end of the tunnel is approaching. I want these dark times to end.
Tomorrow is ecos, maybe it will be a turning point. No wait, actually it WILL be a turning point. Why? Cause ive decided so!
Tomorrow ill revise, and do past papers, and then presto like prestick :P

Настроение сейчас - Helllp

The silent nudge from the shadow, who carries a blood red blade.
It shines, its silver, its heavy.
The raindrops wriggle and tippy toe across the cold stone, approaching,
ever so close, so sharp.
Doom, he is red, is he black?
Tears of green and,and acid pierce through my skull.
Help me, I do wanna die!!!!!!!!!

Настроение сейчас - Not great =(

Well, AW 274, i got marks, and this is now for all the world to see, my embarrasment, my real mess up. Is this the mark an excellent mathematician and economist should get...
I need to cope with this stress, since my world is real depressing.
At least mathematics was ok...
But i know i didnt do as well as I could.
Im falling apart, and need to make a stand now!
Enough is enough!
Witness a this huge academic mess:

Настроение сейчас - confused

I wanna do something, but im not sure if i should.
I really want to though, but at the same time, might be a bad idea in the long run. The options are simple: yes or no.
I will offer politely if she wants...
But, should I or not...
A list of pros and cons:
Pros Cons
Sign of trust and acceptance Will reveal alot
Friendship May change what is nice so far
Genuine Appropriateness
Truth Lose something close, real good