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Im back

Вторник, 10 Апреля 2007 г. 01:30 + в цитатник
Настроение сейчас - =)

Im back in uni, its the start of the 2nd term...
Easter holidays are finished, tomorrow is Lin Alg:/
Lin Alg you are all mine))
Anyway, today in the aeroplane, i was amazed.
The guy seated to the right of me was studying the same as me. He was interesting to talk to on his views of our degree, and friendly.
But to my left..., the girl with the blonde hair, never said a word...
She was too scared to look me in the face for some reason.
I said," hi, sorry can i get past you" then thanks, but she looked at me in the eyes once, then from then on didnt.
She was acting nervous for the whole trip(((

I dont know why all girls that dont know me personally are so scared of me...
Is it my effect on them, cause my sisters friends are friendly to me.

Sometimes, I wish i could read ppl's minds at will, it would be interesting.
Sometimes pleasant thoughts, sometimes unpleasant ofcourse.

Dear diary, regardless, I wanna start this term anew, with plenty of gym, planning, sorting out etc, starting from tomorrow.
I can sign a paper and post the pic, but this i will do only if i fail to deliver.;)

Photo memories of easter sunday

Понедельник, 09 Апреля 2007 г. 01:55 + в цитатник
This is how it looked before everything started...
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Holidays((((((((

Понедельник, 09 Апреля 2007 г. 01:40 + в цитатник
Настроение сейчас - Well and fine

Its finished, tomorrow im flying back to uni for 2nd term
hm. 1 week is not a big enough break, but I guess it will do. I hope all my effort will pay off on tuesday, and all my coming efforts will pay off on thursday and following monday :P
At least it was a great easter sunday, with Kuzunac, painted eggs, hot chocolate, and great company of brother bulgarians =)
In short time i had at the same time a relaxing and productive holiday, and at the same time meaningful easter.
Днес Христос Воскресе, и се нядавам че тез хора куито нямат вяра, да помислят за малко какво се случи днес хиледи години по назат в историята;)

Христос Воскресе

Воскресенье, 08 Апреля 2007 г. 04:20 + в цитатник
Настроение сейчас - Happy Easter)))))))))))))))))))))

Happy Easter all, christ has risen today. May you experience a rebirth on yourself, a revitalisation and new meaning in your life.
I hope we will all find new reasons and get a clear view on life.
May we appreciate what has happened today, and the sacrifice He made to give us His only son, so that we may be forgiven.
I hope we all learn, and from now on are willing to sacrifice something for someone, in order to do a favour for him or her. It is the ultimate love above all else.
Bless All
Happy Easter :)

Easter Friday->Easter Saturday

Суббота, 07 Апреля 2007 г. 03:59 + в цитатник
Настроение сейчас - Joy

Скоро Христос ще Воскресе!
A big day to come.
My holiday's end is in sight, but a new beginning for my approach to 2nd term will start.
I have not forgotten the promise i made on P.D.
Resolution to change working habits ,gym, wine tours and many more.
Time to make a stand.
1 more Lin Alg tut.
I feel inconfident still, but I hope it is just the fact that I underestimate me alot. May I be prepared on Monday for the week to come.
I walk through a valley of darkness, but the a new light will shine.
I shall fear no unknown, for this is familiar ground.
No matter the hardship, no matter the sacrifice, I am committed and will stand strong.
Whatever may come, I will be there, with open heart and open mind.

People Are Irrational

Пятница, 06 Апреля 2007 г. 01:55 + в цитатник
Настроение сейчас - philosophy

(And that's OK)

For years, I thought this: "People aren't rational beings, but I should act towards them as if they are. If I don't, I'll be treating them as less-than-human"

This is a wrong notion in many, many ways. Certainly, dealings with someone should be as honest and straightforward as can be properly understood. Unfortunately, people have emotions, and are likely to misinterpret, or not care about interpreting, a directly worded response.

People aren't purely rational beings - thus, it may be immoral to treat them as rational, as that's behaving as if the situation was different than it actually is.

If a person doesn't think in these terms (most don't), then there is much less chance of offending them by treating them as an irrational person. However, being plainly blatant may also be counterproductive.

The central lesson, here, for me: I can't assume that people have psyches similar to mine, because they probably don't. People are strange, irrational, subject to credulity, and likely delusional. If they're far enough removed from sanity (ie. very different from me), then treating them as rational people is likely to be misinterpreted, and certain to be misunderstood.

As promised

Пятница, 06 Апреля 2007 г. 01:52 + в цитатник
Настроение сейчас - Velik Den

Who wants to see the best looking boretsi ever. We will knock these eggs together and I just know mine will be the strongest:P
I skoro Kuzonaka?? Haide!!! :D

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Insanity to infinity

Четверг, 05 Апреля 2007 г. 03:04 + в цитатник
Настроение сейчас - Annoyed

My goodness, I have been suffering with this linear algebra this whole week.
Impossible, its so theoretical, I respect anyone who will do well next week tuesday at the test.
In my current state of knowledge, i know about vectors just as much as a 2 year old knows about driving a car!! Its 00.50 now and im stuck on this tutorial!

In other words, im still in deep trouble. I wish my maths professor made more sense, instead of just jumping around the rooms waving his hands like mad, pulling his lips up like a gorilla, and wearing his pants so high up hiw waist it looks like he has the Borat under wear like this:->
High Five, Brother Bilo is a retard;)

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Велик Ден

Четверг, 05 Апреля 2007 г. 02:21 + в цитатник
Настроение сейчас - супер

The Bulgarian Easter traditions are a variation of traditional Orthodox Easter traditions. Here in Bulgaria, egg cracking is good for more than just eating the egg!

The bright red colored egg is the symbol of Easter (or Pascha) for the Orthodox Christians all over the world. The traditional Orthodox Paschal greeting is: "Christ is Risen!" The answer is: "Indeed He is Risen". This is the greeting during 40 days after Pascha. Also, the greeting is exchanged during the ritual tapping of the eggs which is explained below.


The first egg to be made is always painted red to symbolize the blood of Christ and put aside - either to be buried in the fields to ensure fertility or kept in the home to bring good luck.

On Easter Sunday married couples traditionally visit the best man at their wedding and have roast lamb for lunch.

The Christian tradition of the red egg custom is connected to a specific legend. Mary Magdalene, whom Jesus had cured from all the evil spirits within her, was the first one to see Jesus risen from the dead and she went around the world to spread the happy news. She reached Rome and Emperor Tiberius’s palace. According to the tradition, everyone visiting him was supposed to carry a gift to the Emperor.

The rich people were carrying expensive gifts while the poor ones offered whatever they could afford. Mary Magdalene took an egg to Tiberius’s palace and handed it to the Emperor with the following greeting: ”Christ has risen from the dead!” The Emperor could not believe what he heard and responded: “How could anyone ever rise from the dead?! It is as impossible as that white egg to turn red right now!”

While Tiberius was talking, the egg in Mary Magdalene’s hands started changing its color until it finally became bright red. The Easter greeting ever since has remained “Christ has risen from the dead” and Christians all over the world color eggs in red (and various other colors) for Easter to celebrate their belief in the resurrection.


In 2007 the Orthodox Easter is on Sunday, April 8

The bright red colored egg is the symbol of Easter for the Orthodox Christians all over the world. It is tradition that the eggs are colored on Holy Thursday after the Divine Liturgy. The eldest woman in the house has the privilege of dying the eggs.

The Easter breads are a worldwide Orthodox tradition as well. These are big or small and decorated. The bread is called "kolache" or "kozunak". One of these Easter breads may be specially decorated with one or more (but always an odd number) of the red-colored eggs.

This bread is taken to church on Saturday evening. The church bells begin to ring just before midnight, calling Orthodox Christians to worship.

At midnight, a special sequence of services takes place: Midnight Office, Rush Procession, Matins and Divine Liturgy. These are the services of Great and Holy Pascha (Velikden).

Following the service, the clergy blesses the breads and eggs brought by the people and they return with them to their homes. The eggs are cracked after the midnight service and during the next days.

One egg is cracked on the wall of the church, and this is the first egg eaten after the long Great Fast.

The ritual of tapping the eggs takes place just before the Easter lunch begins. Each person will select his or her egg. Then the people in turn exchange the Easter greeting ("Christ is Risen!" / "Indeed He is Risen") 3 times before tapping their egg against the eggs of others.

The person who ends up with the last unbroken egg is believed to have a year of good luck.

P.S I will put some nice pics later on, i have none so far:D

Borat

Среда, 04 Апреля 2007 г. 01:13 + в цитатник
Настроение сейчас - Happy Clappy

3 days till Good friday))
All is going according to plan.
Except im pretty screwed with Lin Alg!
Oh, no))) The movie, I watched it...
BORAT! HA yes, and no one cant denie the originality of this movie.
I wasnt laughing as much as the others were, but man was i impressed
High Five, Great Success!
And to all those living in the U, S, and A, shame, what a portrayal of a society.
I rate Borat 8/10.

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Anastasia

Понедельник, 02 Апреля 2007 г. 01:27 + в цитатник
The sun shines down my path,
your arms of ray light hold me close to you.
My heart warms up, and body melts, your voice is like a
gentle, smooth breeze that whispers joy in my ears.
I feel so close to you, yet i'm so far.

The connection is so stretched out and wide, yet is so strong.
Never has my soul drifted so near a person's heart,
and felt so sincere about something so distant and beautiful
like a dream.
Fear not, for destiny has her way, hand guides the pawns across the checkboard.

One day, I will find a way.
Your dark hair, your dark eyes, your fair skin, your inside person,
such a wonderful thing I have not seen.
What looks like an ordinary dying tree to others. looks like a colourful orange red leafed tree to me.


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Testing 1, testing 1 ; 2 ; 3

Понедельник, 02 Апреля 2007 г. 01:02 + в цитатник
Настроение сейчас - I dont know

Yes! Its holidays, and almost Easter, thank goodness))
I left Uni for 10 days. I flew on Friday. I got to the airport, waiting to fly at 13.30, except there was a delay, ( better and also know as a nightmare).
But besides that, im home now, and writing from my house.
I was tired and pre occupied on friday night and the whole of saturday.
Its good to see everyone so alive, well, healthy and always so beautiful:)

tomorrow im going to friends of my sisters to watch movies and stuff, and so far ive had alot of occasions like imen den na tzvetnitsi etc, and went to a wine farm.
Tomorrow i must do abit of driving around town but its ok.
I have alot of work to get through too these holidays, so im gonna be busy, but ill try to do my posts in the journal.

So hello family and Easterday, good bye gross university food.
P.S. I pray for joy and well being for all friends and family, and pray for the girl who jumped from the apartment block, all my thoughts are also with her.
May she be healed, and returned to full well being too!

Good night World.

1 day till end of term!!!!!!!!!!!!

Пятница, 30 Марта 2007 г. 02:05 + в цитатник
Настроение сейчас - ... I cant wait:)

Avril Lavigne - Keep Holding

You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side
You know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
no I won't give in



Keep holdin' on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just, stay strong
Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you can say (nothin you can say)
Nothing you can do(nothin you can do)
there's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through



So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late
This could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side
I will fight and defend ah ah
I'll fight and defend, yeah, yeah

Keep holdin' on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just, stay strong
Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you can say
nothing you can say
Nothing you can do

nothing you can do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through

Hear me when I say
When I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change
Nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be
Will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah....

La da da da, la da da da da
La da da da da da da da da

Keep holdin' on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just stay strong
Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you can say
nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
nothing you can do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through



Ahh, ahh
Ahh, ahh
Keep holdin' on
Ahh, ahh
Ahh, ahh
Keep holdin' on
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through

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Deprivation

Четверг, 29 Марта 2007 г. 01:58 + в цитатник
Настроение сейчас - Sleep Deprived

I went to sleep last night at 3.30am after my last post. My eyes are battling to stay open, I can't write much.
Just my highlights, Alex, hope all goes well, leaving for a last trip to Tunisia.tomorrow! I hope u arrive safelty, and have a wonderful holiday)
To all others, its been a good 1st term, ( I WISH TIME WOULD SLOW DOWN,), seriously.
Had a wonderful "braai" this evening, but im too tired to go out for a drink.
I need to recover in time For Easter)))))
Almost 1 week left))

I hope all of your troules are chased away, and may all have a relaxed tomorrow.Радвам се че всичко се оправа! Нямам търение за вакансия!

01.57

Среда, 28 Марта 2007 г. 04:06 + в цитатник
Настроение сейчас - So tired, so sad, so happy, so me

Its almost over, tomorrow is the last day of hell, and until next term, I can prepare to enter the infernal gates once again (albeit abit more prepared)

Let me see....
I wrote an economics test earlier on the year, i got 90% and the TOP mark out of 400 students writing economics 214!!!!!!!
SO ECSTATIC, to be compared to the best in the country!!!
at the same time, i wrote a not so nice test last friday(at least easy)
AND OMFS on monday, AW 274 I hate you. It tore me apart to pieces.
I finished my ecos essay just now, and i still have a presentation to prepare for tomorrow and its 2.00 am now))))))))))))
Life is beautiful, so much happens and suffering at one time, amazing
And since P.D i made the promise to change, it seems to be working...
At this moment in time, i just wanna say, if any of you(friends, family and all) are going through hard times,( there is always an end and a rest, and happiness around the next corner)
Stay strong, and one day, when u look back, u might actually see what that period of your life was really for( cause nothin happens by chance, its the path of life)

Poison Bottle

Вторник, 27 Марта 2007 г. 00:06 + в цитатник
Настроение сейчас - смърт

I see it,
It is happy, it is black, it is dirty, it is crap
It sits there, on the table, fat and happy, whistling the appocalypse and doom
It sniffs, and wriggles about, like a worm in a snakes mouth.
His fat belly bulges, and sloshes with the sound of the ocean's waves.
Grin, and grin, his red teeth glisten and melt, and tar the floor.

No more! I pop his head off, and down goes he via the throat.

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The meaning

Понедельник, 26 Марта 2007 г. 23:53 + в цитатник
Настроение сейчас - The rope is around the neck feeling

I googled what the ""meaning of life"" is and here we go;
(cause after that actuarial science 274 paper 1, I have no meaning to live, and right now i dont want to be alive)

"What is the meaning of life?" is a question many people ask themselves at some point during their lives, most in the context "What is the purpose of life?" Here are some of the many potential answers to this perplexing question. The responses are shown to overlap in many ways but may be grouped into the following categories:

Survival and temporal success
...to learn, invent, reproduce and to overcome the obstacles that are created in life
...to live every day like it is your last and to do your best at everything that comes before you
...to be always satisfied
...to live, go to school, work, and die
...to participate in natural human evolution, or to contribute to the gene pool of the human race
...to participate and contribute to a given society by working, paying taxes, being a good citizen, and contributing to raise the collective quality of life.
...to advance technological evolution, or to actively develop the future of intelligent life
...to compete or co-operate with others
...to destroy others who harm you, or to practice nonviolence and nonresistance
...to gain and exercise power
...to leave a legacy, such as a work of art or a book
...to eat
...to sleep
...to ensure that all others after you remember your name.
...to prepare for death
...to spend life in the pursuit of happiness, maybe not to obtain it, but to pursue it relentlessly.
...to produce offspring through sexual reproduction (alike to participating in evolution)
...to protect and preserve one's kin, clan, or tribe (akin to participating in evolution)
...to seek freedom, either physically, mentally or financially
...to observe the ultimate fate of humanity to the furthest possible extent
...to seek happiness and flourish, experience pleasure or celebrate
...to survive, including the pursuit of immortality through scientific means (see life extension)
...to attempt to have many sexual conquests (as in Arthur Schopenhauer's will to procreate)
...to find and take over all free space in this "game" called life
...to seek and find beauty
...to kill or be killed
...to live it. To simply keep functioning. This applies to everything. This also cancels out all others besides the one below.
...No point. Since having a point is a condition of living human consciousness. Animals do not need a point to live or exist. It is more of an affliction of consciousness that there are such things as points, a negative side to evolutionary development for lack of better words.
...To know that there is death, hence be compelled to find the meaning of life/existence, otherwise, there is no point and it is more logical to die than to be a drain in resource/contribute to overpopulation or to create a perfect being and then die while remaning imperfect

Wisdom and knowledge
...to master and know as many things as possible
...to be without questions, or to keep asking questions
...to expand one's perception of the world
...to explore, to expand beyond our frontiers
...to learn from one's own and others' mistakes
...to seek truth, knowledge, understanding, or wisdom
...to understand and be mindful of creation or the cosmos
...to lead the world towards a desired situation
...to satisfy the natural curiosity felt by humans about life
...to enjoy all the enjoyable things one really want and available in the world and filled with joy in inner throuh out the journey of life
...to die.
...to 'be' that which we truly are, meaning, to manifest in the flesh that which we are deep inside

Ethical
...to express compassion
...to follow the "Golden Rule"
...to give and receive love
...to work for justice and freedom
...to live in peace with yourself and each other, and in harmony with our natural environment (see utopia)
...to protect humanity, or more generally the environment
...to serve others, or do good deeds
...to leave the world in a better condition than when you came into it
...to live an honorable life and die an honorable death
...to not forget the Mother's Tongue and serve Fatherland

Religious and spiritual
...to worship the Lord
...to find perfect love and a complete expression of one's humanness in a relationship with God
...to achieve a supernatural connection within the natural context
...to achieve enlightenment and inner peace
...to become like God, or divine
...to glorify God, and enjoy Him forever
...to experience personal justice (i.e. to be rewarded for goodness)
...to experience existence from an infinite number of perspectives in order to expand the consciousness of all there is (i.e. to seek objectivity)
...to be a filter of creation between heaven and hell
...to produce useful structure in the universe over and above consumption (see net creativity)
...to reach Heaven in the afterlife
...to seek and acquire virtue, to live a virtuous life
...to turn fear into joy at a constant rate achieving on literal and metaphorical levels: immortality, enlightenment, and atonement
...to understand and follow the "Word of God"
...to discover who you are
...to resolve all problems that one faces, or to ignore them and attempt to fully continue life without them, or to detach oneself from all problems faced (see Buddhism)
...To prepare for the meeting with God
...To be tested to see whether you deserve to go to Heaven or Hell
...To know that we have to make a choice. Choose the world and this temporal life, living it however we want, or knowing that this world is just a living example of what isn't eternal(death), a nothing-much, something not meaningful enough and instead see* that there is God(his whole creation of the world just for this choice) and something much greater that he could give you. (*seeing isn't just what your eyes and brain perceive of electromagnetic wave... its more to do with your mind, where you can 'visualise')

Philosophical
...to give life meaning
...to participate in the chain of events which has led from the creation of the universe until its possible end (either freely chosen or determined, this is a subject widely debated amongst philosophers)
...to find the meaning of life
...to achieve self-actualisation
...all possible meanings have some validity (see existentialism)
...life in itself has no meaning, for its purpose is an opportunity to create that meaning, therefore:
...to die
...to simply live until one dies (there is no universal or celestial purpose)
...nature taking its course (the wheel of time keeps on turning)
...whatever you see you see, as in "projection makes perception"
...there is no purpose or meaning whatsoever (see nihilism)
...life may actually not exist, or may be illusory (see solipsism or nihilism)
...to contemplate "the meaning of the end of life"
...to figure it out
...to understand oneself
...to question life itself

Other
...to find and follow an artistic passion
...to contribute to collective meaning ("we" or "us") without having individual meaning ("I" or "me")
...to find a purpose, a "reason" for living that hopefully raises the quality of one's experience of life, or even life in general
...to cultivate and experience exceptional herbal medicinal cannabis
...to participate in the inevitable increase in entropy of the universe
...to make conformists' lives miserable (see nonconformism)
...to make life as difficult as possible for others (i.e. to compete)
...to accomplish something that has never been done before

Miracles

Понедельник, 26 Марта 2007 г. 03:11 + в цитатник
Настроение сейчас - UPLIFTED ZOMBIE

I have no time to type, much.
Im in a big situation, still have tut 5 AW 274(today at 19.00) , ecos essay on wed, stats comp assign tues.
Дядо господи мерси толко много, се повече вярвам в невазможности, благодаря че ме пазиш.
Stiaan thanks for info on essay, you saved me, honestly and truely from an impossible situation.
I DO BELIEVE IN MIRACLES

Lone Wolf

Воскресенье, 25 Марта 2007 г. 03:34 + в цитатник
The rabbit runs across the field.
Yellow, blue, shine through.
Sadness floats above like a cloud full of tears,
He sits in his den, whispers echo in the box called the brain,
Excitement, anxiety, sadness, love, lonliness.
The drips of water talk in his ears, running down the den into mother nature.
Whisp, whale, womb, hale,
He smiles, and happiness wraps her warm arms around is lonley body.
The air shines, and his coat paints it a rainbow.
But the sun sets, and covers the sky with it's spotty blanket.
All the happiness, and hope have been smothered away,
And tomorrow comes and closes him in his den again.
Whisp, whale, womb hale,
FAIL.
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1 day after Day of Promise

Воскресенье, 25 Марта 2007 г. 03:13 + в цитатник
Настроение сейчас - post P.D

From now on I will refer to yesterday, 24 March 2007, as P.D (yes like A.D after B.C).
List of achievements( and any failures ofcourse);
1. I did an amazing amount of depth study.
2.I only left my room 5 times,( 3 of which were to eat naturally)
3.I rejected most distractions, even if it meant telling someone(nicely) i need to work.

->I didnt achieve but nearly as much as I wanted(cause im unrealistic in that respect, oh and i suppose im only mortal)
->I couldnt say no all the time, I just love spending time with close friends.
->I met a guy who was very interested in my name(i have it on my door), seeing as i am the only Bulgarian(therefore very rare like a rainbow).
->I watched some cricket,( all 10 min of it)

So yes, maybe i did fail, in what i wanted,
cause action will always be louder than words!
But if i have benefited in anyway from yesterdays promise, it is that I know i can do so much more, when i have urge and real determination.
So, yes tomorrow i will carry on living my promise, and i will never achieve maybe 100%, but atleast i have tryed.

Goodnight all, i wanna write another poem entry above.
P.S Скоро е Велик Ден))))))Нямам търпение=)
( дано да има много печен Кузонак:D :D


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