Nothing Will Stop Me From Being With You. I Love You.

I had an ackward conversation with my mom. She says I should tell our relatives I don't have anyone in my life and then after I should say that I had someone not serious and it ended just like my other relationships, for the same reason. I wonder sometimes if she wishes that was true...
I asked her what would happen if it didn't. She asked me if I'm considering getting married now. "What if I do?" - I said. "Then we'll tell them as it is" - she said.
Ackward. Anyhow, life moves on, I shouldn't waste time thinking about things like that. :) I still want to get some studying done today as well! Bye bye!

I can finally watch Chobits again! :D
Today I talked to my grandma for almost an hour, she is a very interesting person. :)
Tomorrow my boyfriend is taking me to my favourite Pacific Mall!:)

I had a great day yesterday. Although I couldn't sleep, my boyfriend was there to comfort me. He's my rock.
I had a great day in class although the lecture was a little boring. But we have a test next week.
Then my boyfriend and I bought this amazing white greek-goddess style dress for his army ball. I love it so much! :) It fits really well.
And then we took a shower at my place, had some personal time, cuddled, ate and the whole nine yard. :) He slept over and it felt very nice for both. :D
Today I'm really sleep-deprived, lol, but it was worth it, felt like heaven. :)
Also I took a very nice aroma bath and washed dishes like crazy. :P
Soon my mom and I are supposed to go shopping, wee.

I feel kinda odd right now. I really hope this will pass though.

I feel like I can never forgive the person who was so close to me yet would hurt me like that physically and emotionally by saying I was in need to exercise, with no sense of fashion and that people would look at my funny, and talk about me, that I would embarrass that person. I thought I was past that but every once in a while I'm reminded of it all. I'm not sure I will ever forget. How I hope that I would. That person appologized a lot and felt bad and all, and probably would never do that now, but I still can't forget completely... This nightmare won't go away... Yet another night I can't sleep and I cry...

I really don't like when people around me start overreacting, getting irrational and letting their emotions rule the day, say stupid shit and then try and make excuses for themselves. I don't buy it. Shape up, get your shit together and, for the love of god, relax. Any rational human being will understand your point of view if you just say it once, but when I'm calm about whatever they think they're guilty of (usually imaginary since you just assume stuff) and the other person is tripping that's just not cool. Bottom line: RELAX, CHILL w/e works for you just don't get in over your head so that you're either an emotional wreck or don't make sense but usually both. Stay focused people, don't lose your cool, PLEASE.

Everything's cool. I think I can finally be cool with stuff and just be who I am and who I wanna be. I can just relax, love my man and hang with my friends. Peace!

Just wanted to say welcome to all the new guests here! I'm glad to see all of you! :)
Today I already had a great start of the day: slept enough, woke up with cheerful music, had a great work-out, ate my straberry cereal, checked all e-mail and all. And now I can take a tasty-smelling bath and go out with my beloved. :D

I never like high school. I thought kids were mean or boring. But I just had issues. I wish I could go back and change everything around... I wish I could've gone to prom and made more friends. Oh well. Live and learn.

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Thank you for the lovely comments and thumbs up. :) I love you all.
My life is wonderful right now. We've been spending more time together and he has beem very affectionate, loving and understanding. He cooked me a very nice steak dinner, we went restaraunt-hopping, watched "The Holiday" (oddly enough upon his request, hehe). It's great.

When we spoke today I felt so much love for myself from him... so much genuine care, concern and worry.
He's such a beautiful person.
Why do I always fall for the ones that don't like to show their emotions often times? Must be something. :)

The other day I was in pain, physical... nothing I could do and painkillers didn't work. He felt bad for me but wanted to play games second day in a row and faintly offered to cancel but ended up going anyhow. He appologised for it after but what's the use appologising to a person whom you've stabbed with a long sharp knife one week ago.. by accident.
I met with my best-friend. There I met this guy I used to know a while back. He changed...
My friend keeps reminding that I have a boyfriend... But that man was but a dream to me... An island of dreams in my sea of sorrow. Cannot I have even that?
But in reality you can keep that man, and the island and the dreams. My only dream is to go ice-skating, get hugs and phone calls from HIM. Damn him and bless his soul.
I feel like getting drunk so that I can't feel anymore but it's too early right now.

Buddha says pain and suffering come from desire. Indeedy.
I want his time, to go ice-skating together, hugs and phone calls. I get none. I'll wait more.

If my love wants to do other things.. Things other than seeing me... It is really okey and wonderful. And then we can miss each other. :)
Captivating love this is... Wonderous.
Some get offended by their beloved partners wanting to do other things but wouldn't it be horrific and boring to never want anything else?

I am very lucky. My beloved would do anything for me. If I want to see him he would cancel any plans. Only I would never let him do such a thing. And that is why he is lucky. ;)
He does the same for me and it allows us to have happy lives and know we can count on each other. Bliss. :)

Maria, when it comes to your body, you're Fit and Healthy

Way to work it, girl. Not only are you hot stuff, but you know it. From exercising to eating right (or at least trying to), it's no surprise to you that a healthy lifestyle is the key to looking great. What's your secret? Moderation.

Not one to deny yourself or try crazy, fad diets, you know that keeping things balanced is what keeps you fit and happy. A tough workout today may deserve a double-fudge brownie reward tomorrow. You're certainly not going to sweat over a few extra calories...unless it's on the dance floor. And nothing's healthier than that!

Happy 2007! I'm on the right track, everything is wonderful and I feel great. :)
Words I take into this year: dignity, respect, love, rationality, calm, tenderness, wisdom, patience and above all positivity.

I'm almost done with Xmas shopping. Only two people left but I should be done with it tomorrow. Yay :)