I have regained it, along with peace, determination, hope and occasional wisdom, lol. I shall be fine and we'll try.

Just watch, no sound required:
http://thatvideosite.com/video/3756

Today my heart was broken. Enough said.

Are cold, lonely? Don't be. You have sunshine within you, you have all the strength in the world, potential and ability to do ANYTHING. Do not worry. Nothing is worth it. Concentrate but do not worry. If it comes to worst look-y here, after all it's just life and you are its master:

Downloaded Chobits. Nice. :)
Maybe I should do something other than resting during my holidays but being sick and just relaxed or chilling always seems to get in the way or nicer at the moment. ;) Maybe tomorrow!

Our relationship grew into a beautiful strong bond. I feel like I live in a fairy-tale or in a romantic movie with dramatic plot and happy endings. I feel so close to him, so in love, loved and happy. Thank you for bringing him into my life.

Today I was feeling iffy and like I'm getting sick so I just stayed home and rested. It was really nice. :)

Here's a little story I really like:
A man told his grandson: "A terrible fight is going on inside me -- a fight between two wolves. One is evil, and represents hate, anger, arrogance, intolerance, and superiority . The other is good, and represents joy, peace, love, tolerance, understanding, humility, kindness, empathy, generosity, and compassion. This same fight is going on inside you, inside every other person too."

The grandson then asked: "Which wolf will win?" The old man replied simply: "The one you feed." Anon.

Welcome to all the guests!

My throat hurts a little, but I'm good. The worst times are behind me. Now nothing will trouble me. Stay cute. ;) Tomorrow is my friend's birthday. I hope I will be healthy enough to go and enjoy. :) Lots to do. :)

В колонках играет - James Blunt
Настроение сейчас - Serene

Being this happy should be illegal. Being this madly in love should be illegal. Enoying everything like this should be illegal. Being so aware should be illegal. Being so hot should be illegal. But it's not and we would've done it anyhow. And I love you so much...

В колонках играет - Complete silence
Настроение сейчас - Not good, heh

Today was so bad. Nowhere to go but up now. And now off to bed. :)

В колонках играет - BoA
Настроение сейчас - hurt but okey

I wish he would listen. Or else I won't be there anymore...
"If this was small enough to be helped
by some little apology...I would be a fool to bring it up." Spanglish

I haven't been this mad in a long time. I hate when this is done to me... Running, hiding, avoiding. This is so screwed up...
In the end I'm just so hurt.

Well I can't post anywhere else, so I'll post this here. I think it's cute. :)

http://www16.big.or.jp/~nansya/ASCII-art/english/peoples.htm
http://www16.big.or.jp/~nansya/ASCII-art/english/peoples2.html
http://www16.big.or.jp/~nansya/ASCII-art/english/animals.htm
http://www16.big.or.jp/~nansya/ASCII-art/english/others.htm
http://japanese_ascii_art.tripod.com/

I am very tired after the weekend: I had a Ta-chi practice, a sleepless night before that (some say because of Sun radiation outburst or something), work, went out with friends, my knee hurt a lot but my boyfriend took care of me, little bit of sleep, work. I'm very happy though!
Even sewer in Japan is not like any other. I wanted to post it in yaponski_bog's community, but it has all kinds of inappropriate content on the site, heh: http://prikola.net/id/7819.html

В колонках играет - Ayumi Hamasaki
Настроение сейчас - Happy, calm

I like my new Diary for that. It's more personal, I can be totaly honest and truly show myself as I am.
Yesterday was an amazing day and a real challenge. I did not fail and stayed graceful, gentle and kind through it all. It was a real success for me and I'm very excited!
My boyfriend and I went to the movies, to shop, ate, had cinnamon buns with coffee and watched a movie. Then we had the most amazing night of them all... But I should not speak of it any more than I did. I will just say that it was simply wonderful. I love him.

They say I'm gentle and it is the best feeling in the world - to be fully accepted. I hope I can have enough strength to stay gentle. :)

More and more I am assured how important it is not to react without thinking. I was upset he wouldn't call even though he promised he'd be calling me back but he was very sick and I am glad I didn't say anything about being disappointed. I know he loves me very much.
Another thing: it is impossible to feel remorse and empathize when you are being attacked. I find it when I don't blame people they appologize themselves once they know u got hurt by their words and if they don't they regret it later. Hence no need to compromise yourself and get ugly. Stay cute. ;)

В колонках играет - Jpop
Настроение сейчас - Tired, excited, happy and a little sad

It's snowing outside! It snowed before but this time it's real snow and it covered the ground!!! :) I love snow so much - so white and fluffy, fresh and crunchy under my feet.
Today started my one month vacation! Winter holidays and no university! All I have to do is one big but fun assignment with a group, two very small assignments and some reading which is really interesting! And then I'll just work and rest and enjoy myself. :) So happy! Yakkata! :)
My poor boyfriend is always working or exhausted. I miss him but nothing can be done.
Today I was fixing up something on my old computer and did it all by myself! Only asked my dad something small once.
Also one guy I know persistently made me uncomfortable being to familiar with me but after I told him about it he understood.
I love my boyfriend so much, I wish I could be in his arms right now and rest my little head on his chest and he would put his hand on my head as usual. It feels so safe and cosy when he does that. :) Oh well, soon, but for now life is good and kind!

I'm just a girl that lives in Toronto and tries to figure out this world. :)