my first real job experience:
today after an interview, i went to my job
and alex said : "we sold you for lunch to another guy"
i thought it was a joke, but it was not
i had to work for another guy (who is a 300lb fat ass) who "kindly" asked me to move boxes that where biger than me !
what a fucking idiot, i hope he dies
the boxes were bigger than i was, and he is a huge fuck who wants to sit on his ass and i am an innocent stupid intern who would mind
Yeah right!
I didnt sign up for this, and i was wearing my business suit, how would he do this to me? he didn't care, idiot
and my boss , robert, another idiot , did nothing when i complained.
so i started crying right in the middle and got all of them amberrast
i will probably get fired, but oh well, i was working for free anyway, its an iternship
thats for the expereince jerks, NOT

i think i am suffering from a mild depression
i am scared to think of that
i really need a vacation or free time where i can forget about EVERYTHING
i am so worried about everything! over my head :(

Sade and Haddaway, are two most beautiful african people )

midnight in manhattan could be so much more romantic if i had that special someone
p.s. will thinks that i am flirting with him, but in fact all i did - i gave him a call and congratulated on his speech
p.s.s. andrew at work firts with me, he says he is writing a book about cute little eastern european girl with a cute smile who is walkign her little heart out :)
p.s.s.s. robert is scared of me, sometimes i think i am his boss, not that he is mine

i have several interviews comming up, now this time its for real!
and now everyone in the office sees how banker keeps on wispering into my ear some weird nonsense almost everyday i am in :(

pms is killing me, i wanna shoot someone...
i need to relax

it must be a great feeling being rich
going to different countries for shopping
living in a hotel , where the doorman opens up your doors
i wanna be rich, who said that money cant buy you happiness??

this is where i work : in this the oldest grand central builind in nyc
p.s. i don't know why i didn't post pics of it before, i fell in love with this building since my first day at work !

problemi dol finita!
i mean i no longer care about small little things!
i saw this dream that made me feel good :) so i know something good is comming my way! happy!
and i love school and my work
i love to wake up and go to work, passing my 42nd grand centeral terminal every other day. i see lots of tourists, this beautiful the oldest train station in nyc terminal. one day i will take a picture of it, and i absolutelly love its ceiling, with the 12 zodiacs in a circle

fucking halloween , i fucking hate it
not the holiday, but todays day in general
i got stood up by my two best friends
olga was the worse
i hate her, bitch
i hate everyone!!
thats it, i am going to sleep
i cant believe i spend 3 hours after work waiting for being stood up
fuck it

p.s. this banker is flirting with me at work, today he tried to wisper somethign in my ear and tried to pursuade to get myself a costume
and joe brought me gift - poker cards with some fin company logo on it!

Q: How do men feel about strong females that earn more than them and are bossy?
A: I think these are additional qualities for loving them more

albanian guys a hot!!!!

josh today :
"olena you are pretty nasty, oh no wait, you are pretty and nasty"
hehe, i totally rocked my presentation today, they loved me and ate it up all my fake made up facts about aerospace idustry

my corporate party yesterday was a fucking disaster!!!!
first of all - two hours ride with robert and christy from manhattan to the weschester airport was a fucking nightmare!!!!!
2 hours, my ass, NO traffic, if i was driving alone , it would have taken me 45 min max! plus roberts whining : right turn, left turn, stop here, no dont' stop here, i see ppl, lets ask them, pull up here, no keep on driving, drive faster, slow down, i wanna get out and talk to ppl, WOULD YOU PLEASE SHUT THE FUCK UP!
and than the whole party - i and elena had to register people , we were the coats taker girls, man it was so borring! i felt like i've never done anything worse in my life! and all those rich people looking down at you.
and i got into the a little argument with one of them... but hey, it wasnt my fault, he came up to me, standed right next to me and started talking, so i answered back. Thats right!
i am glad i left earlier cause elena was driving me back home, so i didnt have to stay at this borring meeting all night! err, business people are not fun!! they dont know how to relax and get real! HA!

" i am fabulous bitches "

p.s. not to offense anyone, its just raises myself esteem, that is way too low right now

i cant keep up with my own schedule
i keep on posting post-it notes all over places : my monitor, desk, wall , mirror and i still cant keep up
like today, i went into my communication class and found out that i have a quiz!
it didnt even cross my mind that we can have a quiz, but the funny part is :
ok so i walked into the classroom and everyone was looking down and studying hard, so i asked my neighbor " Waz up, why is everyone studying so hard, do we have a suprise quiz or something like that?"
and she goes " yeah, we do, remember the professor told us last class!"
and to be honest, i dont remember shit about professor telling us about quiz!!
how bad is that???? but BUT but, i am 100% sure that when i get home , i will definatelly find that one of those post-it has a note on it "study for quiz for com!"
which remind me of another point - DON'T FORGET TO TAKE IT DOWN! otherwise i will be studying for that crap this weekends thinking that i have a quiz, ah,cause i cant keep up with the dates either!!!!

54 days left till graduation ! soon this hell will be over, and than another hell will start
just moving from one circle of hell to another circel , getting dipper and dipper

i think i am going crazy, i am reading others people profiles
thinking they have more fun and more friends
much more interesting lives in general
i am down again, for no reason :-(
i seriously need lots of money, so i can go on freaking vacation and forget everything and everyone
and as soon as possible, otherwise i will go nuts

i fucking hate my team, i wish i can beat the crap out of them
idiots

called olga, long time no talk with her
made me all upset
she is all that happy with her bf and i am all that alone with lots of work
sad
i have no personal life :-(
maybe i should get one?
maybe than i will know that " there are two types of orgasms for women"
lol
:-)

i guess there wont be a happy end
i am getting lazing, i dont wanna study
i am scared whats going to happen after this winter
and once again, my anxiety is back , all always , back to square one
i am always worrying before the time :-(
i spend these two days staying at home, doing nothing - sad , i am waisting my life .............................
i am hopping its going to get better
and i am thinking about winter: what should i do? look for a job? go to ukraine? take a vacation? what?
will called, as always
nothing else is going on.....lol :(
i need new ppl , lala lala lala
stupid me