he is not writing to me..........
sad.......
i guess he is mad at my sick stupid joke.....
in about 4 days , around this time i will flying over atlantic ocean...
i will forget him.......
:-) :-(

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Видеть во сне слепых людей означает, что к Вам обратится за помощью уважаемый человек.
Если во сне Вы кормите скот сеном, то наяву Вы поможете человеку, который не останется у Вас в долгу.

кто бы это мог быть?

i bought myself a very beautiful cholocate/red open back short dress for my summer vacation.
and its been 1 week as i am studying my ass of for finals :-(
i didn't even go to the party w/ olga and all that cute , hot athletic guys from hunter, sad

сегодня мне приснился сон что путин ругал меня за то что я тырила гигиенические помады?????? к чему бы это?????
да и еще, у меня сломался компьютер, как никогда к стати
приходится печатать с маминого
наконец то я НАЧНУ УЧИТЬ К ЭКЗАМЕНАМ
КАК ХОРОШО ЧТО ОН СЛОМАЛСЯ!!!!!!!
я счастлива! вот

learn how to french kiss - check

one more thing , my parents want to go back to live in ukraine.
how am i going to live here on my own?
i know its selfish , but don't want to let them go and i know i will not go back and live there with them. i don't want to.
i guess i have to grow up and realize that am an adult now and will have to live on my own.
alone.
i guess it can be exciting just as much as devastating
oh well :-) i know i will be alright
and - i promised to buy my parents a toyota land cruiser them they go . haha.
now everytime my father sees that car on a street he reminds me of my promise.
funny

tomorrow is mothers day, so i bought my mom a pressent today.
i bought her all natural violet 100% naturally grown cotton dress. i couldn't wait and gave it to her today. i can't say she really liked the dress. it is a little bit too big but she likes the style. :-)
so i told her that if she does like it to wear in public , she can wear it at home....

that jewish guy asked me out today, i said no.
i really don't feel like getting involved right now. i don't want a boyfriend.
i wanna be on my own. strong. independet. girl. :-)

yesterday i told my parents that i don't want to get married at all - they got upset. but its my life and i get to decide how to live it.
and right now , i want to live it to the fullest.
i guess i am selfish a bit. so many guys like me, but i keep sending them home. i would rather be alone right now than with someone that i don't feel that connected. anyway.

school is almost over. in exactly 2 weeks i will be flying to italy. i can't wait. :-))

this morning on tv i heard that if u rub salt into your hair , they will grow faster and hair become stronger... i will try it today.....lol

old new york :-)

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hard day,
today was the funural day. :-(
my mom is all sad and devistating.
school sucks.
some chinines guy at pat jonhson office said that i am beautiful and that i would get a job quick so i dont' have to worry about that.........funny....
saw andy in the elevator...he offered help with my resume, great, i should go to him and update it.......than he gave me an advice - LOOK STRAIT AT PPLS EYES WHEN U TALK, DON'T LOOK DOWN - i know i must do that and sometimes i don't, i am shy and i don't know why, but i hate to look at ppls eyes when we are talking.....i have a hard time trusting ppl...and speaking about trust...
i saw eugine today and he asked me what i got on a midterm. apprently he got a better grade than i did .............WHAT>?........and when i came in late for the midterm he called on me and asked me to sit next to him.........well i thought he wanted to cheat of me, BUT he said he wanted to HELP ME CHEAT FROM HIM B/C I WAS LATE.................what????????????????????????? what the hell.....usually ppl cheat of me, and he was so nice and offered me his help? maybe i was thinking wrong about him, maybe he is not that bad , not that bad at all.............who knows............i have a headache

holly molly, i saw 2 hours about David Blaine underwater.
he is awesome. his card tricks are amazing.
way to go dude! i am so proud of you!
but he is crazy.........

Если Вам приснилось, что над кем-то из Ваших знакомых совершено насилие, то Вас потрясет горе, случившееся с Вашими близкими.
just want i saw happened to my mother in my dream just before my grandmother died

horrible ...
this morning i and my parents when out ,to the bbq
when we came home, i , as usual, run to my computer to check my messages.
i opened up my account and saw the letter from repkin, and where i saw -
my grandmother died, yesterday :-(

p.s. will keeps on calling, i don't want to see or hear him
i am crying

today as i was taking the train to school i saw a gay man who was so so so so so hot! at that moment i wished i was a gay guy. he was fucking hot. he wore tight riped of jeans with a white , tight tshirt. he had a very long blond hair , that were very straight and he had a half undo with lots of hair clips on both sides. man, she was wow!

if that jewish boy on more time leans over me in the class i will kill him. i don't want to date him, i dont' like him and i certainly don't want to go to israel with him. man , dah!

today i washed my head with mint shampoo and my cat couldn't stop sniffing me, he even licked my head for like 10 minutes

"Dust yourself off, pick yourself up, start all over again"

"а мне вчера в автобусе наркоман в сумку залез... я сначала не заметила, а потом открываю - сидит"