HUGE GIGANTIC DAY OF MY LIFE
no words can explaine how much it means to me

went to a french restaurant w/ olga and her two friends
i can't say i enjoyed it
ok, i didn't, at all
i am not a party person
and i hate when people talk talk an talk all the time around me , about their own business, and never shut up
i just don't feel comfortable around that kind of people
we spend an hour at the restaurant (and yeah food was ok, just ok , first of all- it was so little food on the plate that i didn't even get a full taste of it - and the price was so big - $135) and than an hour outside , standing on the street in a very cold weather ,taking pictures (dah! we only went to the restaurant , not to las vegas) and talking about THEIR trip to paris last summer.
and oh no , i was standing there, pretending that i am smiling , b/c i didn't go to paris last summer , i was studying my butt off at school!!
the only words that got out of my mouth today were:
"Hi"
"Yes , i like the food"
"Bye, It was nice to meet you"

спрашиваю у оли :
- во сколько у тебя интервью было?
- в 10:90

my last class in tennis :
IT was horrible, i got hit by the ball in stomach
yes, i DOES hurt

вот деыки приоделись

fuck taxes
i don't want to do them anymore
its too hard to learn on your own
p.s. i am too cute for taxes anyway

не могу себя заствавить убраться на рабочем столе, вот уже месяц.....

my tennis prof is the best prof ever
he makes me think about life......
i love when he preach.....
today i talked to him about his life.....
he is a very succesful man, but lonely , i can see that.....
i asked him about his kids and he said that he takes care of 4 kids of his sister...
that means he doesn't have any of his own......
he choose career over personal life.........
he read my signature and told me about my personality....
he said i am consistent , a dreamer , never finish what i start , have my ups and downs in life, , sad but some of it is true..........
i guess , i wish i had better personality......i wish i was stronger....
and yes it is true, i love new challenges but i lose my interest very fast (especially if it doesn't go the way i wanted)
i guess life will make me tougher........

Dreamer Personality

The dreamer personality lives in a never-never land of make-believe, pipe dreams, and “someday.” This personality will think of exiting concepts late at night but never does anything about those concepts in the light of the day. Dreamers have permanent potential but never quite get around to turning those potentials to goals, plans, and actual activities. Their favorite phrases start with, “Someday I will . . . “

If you have a dreamer personality, you have probably allowed other people to set the standards for your success. Usually your reason for adopting others’ standards was to gain a sense of security. Security is a good thing. However, when it becomes the dominant focus of your life, you have lost your perspective. Then you become petrified about taking any new risks and you become your worst enemy. Procrastination is the best method you can use to stay in your familiar but unproductive lifestyle.

pro·cras·ti·nate ( P ) Pronunciation Key (pr-krst-nt, pr-)
v. pro·cras·ti·nat·ed, pro·cras·ti·nat·ing, pro·cras·ti·nates
v. intr.
To put off doing something, especially out of habitual carelessness or laziness.

v. tr.
To postpone or delay needlessly.

big day, HUGE day in my life
i went to two interviews .....one outside the school and i got it , but i am not sure i want it......it is simply- the duty is to perform cold call and go to meating from time to time w/ the adviser......but i am not sure i want that......and the adviser is kind of cute (he said he went to the army) so yah, his is cute and in a great shape.....but like ppl say "never mix business w/ pleasure" ......so the fact that he is cute and attractive is not so good.....
another interview was at school for the manager position at vita......it was rather more of a joke than the interview........i knew almost all the interviewers (all 3 girls) and the chances are -that are will get the position is 99% ( and if i don't that means their either hate me or jealous of me - ok lets be realistic they know i am hot (i even went partying w/ one of them and i think i said something rude to her - oh yeah , she never wanted to get out of her room so i said you should come out more often and party and not be so geeky) yah, thats the only reason i if of me not getting the position......otherwise my interviewing skills were perfect! )
so ian today.....we talked........he got the same grade in class as i did haha.......
and i didnot get a chance to see olga ........in her swing dance class....hey, i was running all day long from one interview to another.....pringing out stuff and papers.....but its all good....yeah......

p.s. my parents said that i will never ever should become a teacher b/c my character just doesn't fit into the decribtion of this job.....i am a very "nervous" person.....and mom said that " i might kill some kid accidently just b/c he doesn't understand something and i have no patients or nerves it explain it again" so there you go - teacher career is off my list
to bad there aers still so many left on it, and i still don't know what i want to do in my life

p.s.s. funny but today i was dreaming that i was married to andrew....but there was no wedding...no white dress ....no guests ........no nothing ...but i knew that i was married to him....and i was unhappy b/c he didn't even touch me on our wedding night...
sad.
its only a dream

i have no one to love and thats a tragedy

went to the doctor,,,i hate doctors,,,,but this one was cool and his assistance was very cute!

I'm an Evil Bitch and I Love it

for the past week, i already had 3 interviews and another one is comming up this wednesday,,,,,,out of 3 , i was accepted in 2
YEAH baby
ppl want me!

i am in love with smooth jazz

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"If you ever see me getting beaten by the police, put down the video camera and come help me."

woke up today at 6:30 just to spend the whole day at school learning taxes.......
how much fun is that? so i went to the first avaliable room and the prof sucked! so i had to go look for another one........luckely the 2nd prof was quiet enternating.......and i learned smthng like........for ex to recieve an eligible credit school dedaction you have to be "an eligible student who goes to an eligible school"......man my spelling sucks.. and i can no longer think clearly,,,,,oh man 10 hours per day of studying tax is NO fun....I HAVE NO IDEA WHY I SIGHED FOR THIS SHIT

went to 2 interviews today
got the first one
screw up on the second one

this morning before the class i got to see my tennis prof so a sec......and we talked.....i told him that i was not able to come to class yesterday because i had internship interview and he told me : " you are a very pretty girl, you surely will be hired, but don't let big guys take over you after that.....and never ever mix personal life with the professional life......it was one of mine mistakes and i had to pay for it"
p.s. got another interview to day at 4......