so i went to the movies w/ andrew today......
hard day........
after laying on his shoulder all movie long , at the end i said
lets me friends........
and he said lets be friends w/ benefits (well not exactly like that , but he ment that)
so i don't think we will be seeing each other anymore......
thats my guess.........
aren't i am a bitch?? no , i am not.........
i wish i could tell it to him earlier........but....oh well.....
he is sweet, too smart, gental.........so he is way TOO nice......

p.s. jeff is 28 and he likes me ..........
but again, the same old story , i don't like him ... WHY DON'T I LIKE GUYS THAT LIKE ME??? its always, always , always like that
i am picky........i guess

p.s.s can't wait for tomorrow..........naked boys show , yeah

p.s.s.s career day went well.......pretty well, i am proud of myself.....yeah!

talked to andrew for an hour on a phone.....
it was fun..........

-"sorry, i missed ur call yesterday"
-"i didn't call u"
- "i know"
- ........
- " at least call me this weekend, just to ask how i am"
-" i am shy , i never call first, but u can call me......."

today i went to see comrads and worms show w/ ANDREW
damn it........
i was like : "don't buy the ticket , its the most borring play u will see, besides i will sleep during it anyway........." but he didn't listen and bought the ticket, b/c he said:"i want to hang out w/ u"
man.........it might take a while to get rid of this guy, he is smart , but he doesn't get a clue
and yeah, Jeff wants me to help him w/ his studying.........ah. what an *&*

"Lloyd Banks - Born Alone, Die Alone"
i am not a fan of rap, but it has some deep meaning in it.....

this morning then leor called me i accidently flashed
the toilet while we were still talking.....way to go
georgeous......cute guy passed my helpline and said hi
and he thought that i was cute....hm....sweet......

haha, first like around 9 olga called me and asked me to go to play pool b/c dennis is going to be there.........so i went........it took some curage to say that to my parents.....i said them that olga's father will pick me out and drive back......but it wasn't , it was dennis.....by the way nice, car , but i am not into infinity...........so there i met another guy who said that also remembers me, but i didn't remember him......anyway......they decided to teach me how to play pool......haha.....its a dead trick......i can't learn.....
than , in the middle of the game andrew text message me asking me how was my test,.....oh.......it was so sweet.........even throught i dumped him on a saturday night before......man, i felt bad........so i called him and said....."it was horrible, but i wil see u on tuesday right?," i am not sure he was excited.........poor guy......
anyway, dennis drove us to some launch.....where people hang out and smoke kol'yan.....i was like what????????
but i was fun......they all smoked, but i didn't , he asked me to try but i really didn't want to do that...........and as i learned in school......if u don't want something to do.........don't do it and don't let ppl force u to do it.............
i am not sure he had fun w/ me, his friends seems like had more fun w/ me than he did....haha,,,,,,,,and he was the one who liked me in the first play.........now lets see how he feels about me now.....i was cold to him yesterday.....i don't know y, anyway .....he drove home olga first......even through my house was closer......haha....than he started driving in a wrong direction.....i was like man....and where are we going to??/ but he said we are just going to turn around and that it......
yeah right,.....he drove like 4 blocks just to turn around???? on a crossroad??? where u could turn easily??? i don't know ........maybe he is unexperienced driver......but yesterday he was trying to show us some tricks....like driving w/out hands...after a few tequila shots.........i was scared......at some point....and his friends kept on making jokes about me....being so innocent and "good" girl.........ass........i am a good girl...
they said they want to see me dancing , since i didn't smoke......so they kind of asked me to go dancing next saturday........but i didn't give them my number........he said he will contact me thru olga....and i said i wll have to check my schedule......haha........will see what kind of impression i made on them......will see..............aren't am i a doll???
p.s. will see if he still likes me.....after that....

i did call andrew and we had a nice chat
i canceled saturday night, but i will see him on tuesday

kevon thinks i am pretty
walei tries to hit on me....(w/ kevon help)
we are getting closer w/ julia
andrew called this morning , but i didn't pick up, and i still haven't called him back
professor made a great performance out of my piece
they all applaud me after every sentence

.

so i went to prof today and she said i look different?
like there is a sparcle in my eyes .......or smtrhing
in them........and that i look cute when i
smile...........and that whole interview : note to
myself "never ever say to the interviewers that u r rational" they might wonder why r u saying that to them

He wrote
hey ....,

hows it going? i was so tired yesterday night, fell asleep watchin
tv... endinded up sleepin like 9 hours...
things are ok with me, 2 hours in the gym , my fav destreser ! amoung
other things... haha

any way, i wanted to know if you wanted to meet up this week and hang
out for a while... lemme know if u r interested, by the way, check my
profile on the facebook to see some of this weekend's pics...

have a nice one,
andrew

i did:
hi andrew................
i am surprised that u emailed me .............
r u in love w/ me or smthng?.............
i am sorry , but what u've said on saturday , on that little balcony, kind of made me mad, REALLY mad ......that's y i didn't want to hang out w/ u on saturday night, and on sunday morning.........
sorry , but i can't forget it ........
at least give me a reason , y should i hang out w/ a guy who thinks that i am a slut?.........................
i liked u , u had ur chance , but u blew it........
and for the future, next time - if u apologise to some girl , at least try to make an _expression like u mean it..........

best of luck

so he did :

hey .....,

I'm sorry, but I never said u were a slut.. I'm being totally honest here, what made u think that?

Saturday on the balcony we were talking about tons of things,mostly school and life, I mentioned some previous dating experiences, but nothing out of the ordinary, I said u seemed hard to approach, not in those words but that was the idea.... and when I was "apologizing", it was in a joking kind of way because I hadn't realized that you had been offended, yeah u can blame me for not realizing when I made a mistake, and i won't try to blame it on anything/anyone but myself.. I made a mistake, I'm human... its hard not to judge a person by a negative reaction, but don't consider that as the only reason in not hanging out with me.

right now i am really trying to clarify my point that I did not consider you a slut at any point of the weekend or now. we simply connected on Friday night and spent some good moments on Saturday. I was kinna lost on why u didnt want to hang out but now I know the reason, I knew something was wrong but did not see the whole picture

the response in ur email caught me totally by surprise, i wasn't expecting such a reaction at all , i fucked up, I'm human.. I still wanna hang out with you, just because i think some chemistry exists (leaving aside this incident, so to say), you seem like a cool girl and are pretty darn attractive ;-)

the invitation to hang out is still open, lemme know if you are interested, if you are not, its ok, but please again, I know email sucks as an apology but I am really sorry that you thought i considered/called you a slut...

and in response to your question about mock interviews you can drop by the ....and schedule an appointment, I'm working Tuesday from 4-6 PM so if u are free drop by and we can further talk this over if you want... any way here's my number ..........

again I apologize for my mistake on Saturday...

andrew

p.s. How drunk was I? and why the hell out of the blue i remember him calling me a slut?? One of us definatelly belongs in a mental institution.........

p.s.s.
andrew text mess me this morning, he was concerned whether on not i am comming to class....oh , ......how sweet......but he woke me up ..........ass.........
and andrew called......asked something going to the movies.....but the connection was so bad, (and i didn't know what to asnwer to him) so i asked him to call me tonight........
eh, oh., ah

Жене сказал, что пошёл к любовнице,
Любовнице сказал, что пошёл к жене,
А сам идёшь в библиотеку и работаешь, работаешь и работаешь!..
Ленин

so Daniel called me today, i wonder how this one will
go.........
and guess what, Andrew emailed me........
grrrr

results are in! you are...


The Wild Rose
Random Brutal Love Dreamer (RBLDf)


Colorful, but unpicked. You are The Wild Rose.

Prone to bouts of cynicism, sarcasm, and thorns, you excite a certain kind of man. Hoping to gather you up, he flirts and winks and asks you out, ultimately professing his love. Then you make him bleed. Why? Because you're the rare, independent, self-sufficient kind of woman who does want love, but not from a weakling.

You don't seem to take yourself too seriously, and that's refreshing. You aren't uptight; you don't over-plan. Romance-wise, sex isn't a top priority--a true relationship would be preferable. For your age, you haven't had a lot of bonafide love experience, though, and this kind of gets to core of the issue. You're very selective.


Your exact opposite:
The Dirty Little Secret

Deliberate Gentle Sex Master

The problem is them, not you, right? You have lofty standards that few measure up to. You're out there all right, but not to be picked up by just anyone.


"You're never truly single as long as you have yourself."

ALWAYS AVOID: The Bachelor

CONSIDER: The Vapor Trail.

omg......it was hot, hot , hot
on friday, we got to party until 2 a.m.
somehow i ended up making out w/ andrew everywhere.....
even the camera guy took a picture of us on stairs, which is not cool, ok
but the reality , i was drunk....
i don't like him, its just the fact that i was drunk and he was there........
we even ended up making out in the guys bathroom and my hotel room.....
by the was hotel was nice........
this whole weekend was fun........
on saturday , we got to go to the woods , claiming up and down hills and i was WEARING heels...........man, it was bad........i feet hurted so badly after that, that i had to go to my room and take a hot shower for an hour, skipping borring conference downstairs, until my feet felt better.....i am surprised , i washed my head than went outside wearing nothing but the sweater , and i still have got sick........hm.....GREAT!
oh yeah, no party on saturday , everyone was so tired,that we just watched movie "saw" downstairs........it was cool....i little bit creepy....but cool........and today i woke up , not by myself - phone clock, at almost 10 and still felt like i haven't slept for days..........
the most interesting part, is that i dump andrew on saturday , but on sunday he asked me if we can hang out when we get back at school........hm weird.....he must really like me........or just me kissing me........"you are playing hard to get" , ps, yeah right......i was drunk honey, and i don't want ur ass anymore,, so i am not playing any games w/ ya. On our way back , i played cards w/ two guys, and i won almost every time....it was fun.....time flied so damn fact........i still wonder should i email andrew something back or not? he asked for my phone, but i kind of played it stupid.....and didn't gave it to him.......i guess he got it that i am not so into him........and i even didn't say goodbye to him......we even took different buses.........ah......i don't know,,,,,,,,i am confused
and now that olga called me and said that denis likes me , and he invited me to the party , but since i went to this one, i was too late...........and that now he wants to ask me to the movies........eh......i don't know whom i like and whom i don't......
but i was fun experience.........

"I’m too fat to get into my work pants." - omg!

CHICAGO, October 4, 2005 - CareerBuilder.com’s annual survey of absenteeism at the office revealed an increase in the number of workers who have called in sick with bogus excuses. Forty-three percent of workers said they called in sick when they felt well at least once during the last year, up from 35 percent in the 2004 survey. The survey also revealed that some hiring managers were less tolerant of workers playing hooky with 23 percent stating they had fired an employee for missing work without a legitimate reason. The CareerBuilder.com survey, "Out of the Office 2005," was conducted from August 10 to August 22, 2005 of more than 2,450 workers, including 875 hiring managers.

The most popular day for calling in sick when feeling well was Wednesday with 27 percent of workers getting over the mid-week hump by fabricating an excuse. While extended weekend absences were also popular with 26 percent of workers calling in sick on Monday and 14 percent on Friday, those partaking may have put themselves at more risk of scrutiny. Sixty-three percent of hiring managers said they are more suspicious of employees calling in sick on a Monday or Friday.

"Thirty-eight percent of workers said they feel sick days are equivalent to vacation days," said Rosemary Haefner, Vice President of Human Resources at CareerBuilder.com. "While the definition of a sick day has evolved with more employers including mental health and special circumstances in the description, workers need to be respectful of company policies and their responsibilities as an employee."

The most popular motivator for missing work was the desire to relax and catch up on sleep as cited by 23 percent of workers. Seventeen percent said they just didn’t feel like going in, 16 percent attributed it to a doctor’s appointment and 9 percent said they had to catch up on housework and run personal errands.

When asked to share the most unusual excuses workers gave for missing work, hiring managers quoted the following examples:

"I’m too drunk to drive to work."
"I accidentally flushed my keys down the toilet."
"I had to help deliver a baby on my way to work." (employee was not in the medical profession)
"I accidentally drove through the automatic garage door before it opened."
"My boyfriend’s snake got loose and I’m afraid to leave the bedroom until he gets home."
"I’m too fat to get into my work pants."
"God didn’t wake me." (employee didn’t believe in alarm clocks and thought a higher power would wake her when she was ready)
"I cut my fingernails too short, they’re bleeding and I have to go to the doctor."
"The ghosts in my house kept me up all night."
"I forgot I was getting married today."
"My cow bit me."
"My son accidentally fell asleep next to wet cement in our backyard. His foot fell in and we can’t get it out."
"I was watching a guy fixing a septic pump, fell in the hole and hurt myself."
"I was walking my dog and slipped on a toad in my driveway and hurt my back."
"My house lock jammed and I’m locked in."

leor keeps on giving me compliments and bugging me in class
p.s. never ever volunteer for the interviews....

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