В колонках играет - when you really love someone-Alicia Keys
Настроение сейчас - weird...dunno

i got out of bed this morning and a weird feeling hit me. why am i living this live the way i am? just got back from israel-went for 3 days for my dad's 60th...it was great and everything but when i came back i felt like im falling into pieces. something is tearing me apart im really scared of something...but i dont know what it is. i feel weird. i always was this iron lady who didnt let anything to her. i never let anyone too close to me cos i knew it would really hurt eventually...but i made a mistake-with alex. just confirmed that i was right to keep people away from my heart. now i cant comletely get over him-he's always there-in my head, in my heart,inside of me. but i also struggle to be friends with him cos everything we had in common when we were going out has gone now..i have nothing to takl to him about, i have nothing to share with him. not even my love for him, because its gone. but his charm and all that is stil there and i know that he feels something for me too. he always will. it wasnt just me who had such a serious relationship for the first time. it was him too. and im not dreaming or making it up-this is true, he feels something for me, but we will never be together.

anyway, i even stopped going to the dining hall and on the rare times when i do go i feel sick and want to get out as soon as i can-poor Mirra probs hatess me for it now!! hunni,soz if you're reading ths!!!

god...anyway...i'll try to figure it all out,but after my mocks wich are next week and i havent revised at all! have some stuff to catch up on so spk to u all l8r!!

xxx