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I cant believe this....it was the first time this year when i bursted into tears cos of my tennis...i know it sounds reli stupid but its' one of the most important things in my life and it's not working at the moment...for 2 weeks now i cant play...this is incredible...i cant focus either...its not even about Alex anymore. I simply cant. I wanted to make it to the nationals here but how can i? Damian said i could but im too bad...

i had a fall-out with my coach..he just turned away from me. it was my fault, i know it and i want to say "sorry" but i just cant go back there now. Mascara is all over my face and tears are running down my cheeks. I cant do this anymore. I wanna give up and stop playing forever but i cant cos soon i will be dying to play again...i have to 2morrow, in fact...this is driving me crazy...my coach says it's fine and im the best at school but it doesnt matter cos this is not what im after. i mean,did you see those 6th form girls i have to play with in the summer? they are shockingly bad and Damian says i cant play for the boys if i wont make it to the firsts. but how can i?