www.deadjournal.com/users/lilbunnyrabbit

I'm afraid its no more interesting than this one though.

LilBunnyRabbit,uh-huh...well...if that's what u want - good luck then...
hmm...and still....it would b nice 2 get 2 know u better..)

Wasn't actually planning to, moved over to www.deadjournal.com, since being able to speak the language of the site is kinda handy.

hey, where r u?? hope u're fine and planning to get back here...
waiting for ya..

I hope that you read all of this before turning away. It has been difficult for me to talk to you through all this, though that has nothing to do with you or the things that were going on. It has everything to do with being unable to cope myself, I find it difficult to react to stress except with silliness or anger, not the most usefull ways to deal in certain situations. You may feel that I have pushed you away, this is not true. I never pushed you away, I just gave up when you stoped talking to me. To an outside observer it would seem that you burnt most of your bridges long ago, this is also false, I have allways been here if you needed to talk. I wouldnt and still wont push you. I cant do that, its not in my make up to force someone to talk I will wait for them. I suppose im just not good at conversation. However the fact still stands that I do care for you, and I am here (cept when im out :) ). I have always been up for a chat but felt that you didnt want to talk to me. Hopefully this will clear up what I percieve to be a miscommunication on my part.
I am writing this here as I lack the confidance to say it to your face. As I said I'm just useless at communication.

were all onthe road to hell. Some of us walk others run....speed changes but destination is the same

No, because people break me back, just as hard if not worse. People take away everything I care about, and its all my own fault that they do it. People take away every single mechanism that I have for dealing with things, simply by saying that it hurts them, and suddenly I can't do the things any more, and I can't even quit and die because I've said that I won't, and I try to keep my promises.

When I do it to people, I want to die, I want to kill myself and let it all end, I just want everything over. But I can't, because they tell me that would hurt them more. So instead I lie, I pretend I'm fine, I go back to acting, going through life pretending that I'm something I'm not because when people find out what I really am, they reject it, pushing me as far away as they can because they won't, and can't, help.

Not easy to stand by someone stuck on the road to hell, is it?

works just as well with people...... doesnt it?
you get to the bit you like.... breaking everything in the process.
but that doesn't matter..... does it?

you're totally right, the more you're hurt, the more apathetic (or simply pathetic) you are.

that's why there's no point in voting.
once a person is hurt beyong a certain limit, apathy is the only escape, and one only can hope there's still a way to go before one reaches that limit of hurt.

before one is old, frail and helpless.

sounds interesting.... ill have to keep an eye out for it

Исходное сообщение DemonButtercup
hmmmm, what is it about?

It's about birth, life, sex and death, it's about feminism and mass culture, it's about brilliant people and murderous circumstances... It's about LIFE.

hmmmm, what is it about?

stereotypes are also harmful.......but im just being a pain now :)

I know they're not, however the stereotypes are recognisable.

i like the story.... if i wanted to be pedantic, i could point out that stereotypical description of mental institutiions are not completely accurate, but im not going to :P

more?

Исходное сообщение DemonButtercup
im a nurse actually

you should definitely read "The World according to Garp" by John Irving, it does concern nurses.

im a nurse actually

Исходное сообщение DemonButtercup
bah..... forgot to post.....
me? funny? NEVAH!!!!!!!!!

what to do you do? racket? mugging?
I'm afraid of baseball bats, you know.

bah..... forgot to post.....
me? funny? NEVAH!!!!!!!!!