ýòî âåäü ìàñêà, - ñ íàäåæäîé â ãîëîñå, ñòàðàÿñü çâó÷àòü ìóäðî...
ïðî ñåáÿ: î, ãîñïîäè, êàê íîâî! êàê òîíêî! è âñëóõ: - è?
-ïîâåðü, ïîëþáè, îò òîãî ÷òî îäíà ïðåäàëà, íå çíà÷èò, ÷òî ëþáâè íåò!!
íàèâíàÿ, ìèëàÿ, ñìåøíàÿ... "îäíà"... "ëþáâè"... ÷òî ìû äðóã äðóãó äîêàæåì?!
-ÿ ìîãó ïðèâåñòè ñòî ïðèìåðîâ...! - âñïûõíóëà èñêðà â ãëàçàõ, ñ çàïàëîì...
-ÿ ïðèâåäó èõ ñòî òûñÿ÷ - è íà òâîþ ïðàâäó, è íà ìîþ!! - ïîãàñ îãîíåê...
ñêîëüêî æå òàêèõ ìèëûõ, íàèâíûõ, ãëóïûõ, õîðîøèõ, ñìåøíûõ...
âñå èùóò ïðàâäó, ëþáîâü, ïîñòîÿíñòâî,
à íàõîäèòå âû ìåíÿ...
you called me ‘angel’… you remember?
you were enraptured: “oh, so movingly naïve!”
I smiled with a smile of a saint
my evil soul smirking: “you, my girl, the one who is naïve!”
and then that day… you called me ‘evil’… you remember?
remember crying till you hardly even breathed?
I smiled with a smile of a devil
and wrapped you in the warmth of my angelic wings…
my halo – that was someone’s bullet-sight, they drew a bead…
16July, 2004