illusivegirl, The main subject of this post is very interesting indeed. The phrase "they could go away" leaves some ambiguity, because they didn't exactly LEAVE, they only COULD. But what makes them stay? This is very interesting question in our context. And in last two lines, the author really wishes to find the way out of here, but not the one she has chosen - the alternative way, which she tries to find but cannot for this moment. So this is another example of the androgynous mind.
And finally, I would like to write here the sentence which can be taken as a main creed for any person.
Sometimes, in the heat of the moment, it is forgivable to got ass to mouth.