Еще одна вдохновляющая песня дня *_*

Песня дня <3

*так проходят все последние дни доделывания и "перекройки" вкр*

Daughter - Numbers
*вопли радости, слезы счастья*

Примерное состояние на неделе бессонной доработки вкр.

Кстати, этот мем тоже был в дипломе. Начали проверять на плагиат, до этого пробежались глазами по страницам, а там в конце Дружко, скрины из твиттера итд. Хотела сказать, что я не поехавшая, а так надо, но не стала.
Примерно то, что было на первой странице приложения %)

С утра до утра под музыку, соседи точно весь плейлист выучили, да и моих воплей вдоволь наслушались.

Итс окей 2, не пропадать же активному диалогу с незнакомцем какой-то там давности, вот и коммуникативные интенции в соцсетях по теме, только интенции неопределенные.

Ну, такое почти тоже было.

Когда совсем упоролась, в бой пошли подборки синонимов. Было весело.

В перерыве подумала о том, что надо бы и воздухом подышать.

Затем пришла стадия экзистенциального кризиса.

А вот так все начиналось, и, в принципе, оставалось в оглавлении почти до самого конца перед последней проверкой. Для меня это что-то вроде "ай, да ладно, косметические правки". А потом плакала на кафедре как Дикаприо просто потому, почему бы и нет. Попросили не расстраиваться. Ладно, не буду.

Сначала эта картинка идеально подходила к тому, что я все делала в последний момент, и поздно метаться, нужно уже было просто "сесть в машину и сгореть". А потом эта картинка начала олицетворять два года магистратуры и 24 существования, вот.

Когда смотришь в край упоротую больную аниме-пародию и вдохновляешься безумством персонажа с его любовью к поеданию онигири, что самой захотелось. Поэтому, бросив все, убежала за рисом и ингредиентами для начинки. Вроде съедобно. %)

монстр показал себя

He wakes up early today
Throws on a mask that will alter his face
Nobody knows his real name
But now he just uses one he saw on a grave

He pretends that he's OK,
But you should see
Him in bed late at night,
He's petrified

Take me out and finish this waste of a life

Everyone gather around for a show
Watch as this man disappears as we know
Do me a favor and try to ignore
As you watch him fall through a blatant trapdoor

He thinks that faith might be dead
Nothing kills a man faster than his own head
He used to see dreams at night
But now he's just watching the backs of his eyes

He pretends he's OK
But you should see
Him in bed late at night,
He's petrified

Take me out and finish this waste of a life

Everyone gather around for a show
Watch as this man disappears as we know
Do me a favor and try to ignore
As you watch him fall through a blatant trapdoor

Take me out and finish this waste of a life

Everyone gather around for a show
Watch as this man disappears as we know
Do me a favor and try to ignore
When you watch him fall through a blatant trapdoor

'Cause nobody knows he's alive

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This text just tore my soul. It hurts much :(

Совершенно случайно нашла аниме мечты, на вопрос "что творится у тебя в душе?", я бы показала кадры оттуда :D Серьезно, я обожаю магический реализм и что-то вроде городского фэнтези, когда обыденность пересекается с тайными волшебными мирами, где оживают фантастические существа и царит атмосфера бесконечного карнавала. После первой серии даже хотелось бросить, ибо "что за бред и стремительные развития событий без какого-либо объяснения, но потом уже не оторваться. Тут и неизвестный временной период, куча дико милых зверюшек, доброго юмора, потрясающих персонажей (особенно близок по духу мне характер Ёги :D), а так же немного кровищи, ангста и драмы, но все опять переходит в милоту, яркие единорожные цвета, наивную детскую доброту и отличную дружную команду. Так же тут хорошая музыка и очень красивые необычные цвета глаз каждого (!) героя, главного или массовки. Яркость, блеск, единороги, механические крольчата, мифические звери нидзи, параллельные вселенные, стимпанковские костюмы, кровь и доброта (да, именно в таком сочетании). Судя по тому, что эта прелесть вышла в 2013 году, продолжения после первого сезона не было(( (Я вообще не пишу отзывы на аниме, только если на совсем зацепившие типа "норагами", "6 зона" и тому подобное, а так я обычно молча смотрю все подряд и радуюсь жизни, но тут прям точное попадание, подобные миры и атмосферу я часто ищу в книгах и играх). Да, опенинг крутой, все 13 серий его не перематывала ни разу. :D

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Купила буквально вчера просто так. И вот это...

Очень здорово и вдохновляюще *__*
Остальные работы на канале автора, реально залипательный контент, хочется повторить то, что он делает, хотя бы попытаться что-нибудь совсем простенькое))
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCnLPP_MKTXGyBYr8_PjkJvQ

I feel for you, but when did you believe you were alone?
You say that spiders crawled inside and made themselves a home
Where light once was

Petrified of who you are and who you have become
You will hide from everyone, denying you need someone
To exterminate your bones

Friend, please remove your hands from
Over your eyes for me
I know you want to leave but
Friend, please don't take your life away from me

Living like a ghost you walk by everyone you know
You say that you're fine but you have lost your sway and glow
So I stopped by to let you know

Friend, please remove your hands from
Over your eyes for me
I know you want to leave but
Friend, please don't take your life away from me

Would you let me know your plans tonight?
'Cause I just won't let go 'til we both see the light
And I have nothing else left to say
But I will listen to you all day, yes I will

Friend, please remove your hands from
Over your eyes for me
I know you want to leave but
Friend, please don't take your life away from me

Эта композиция прекрасна.

The young boy wants to move ahead
And the old man sings rewind
I wonder when in this time line
We’ll break to the other side

Maybe there’s a span of time
When we feel we’re neither nor
Not wanting to go back again
And not wanting to go forth

The point in life must be
Pretty dark and hopeless
Terrifying
And if you’re asking me when that is

It must be tonight
It must be tonight
It must be tonight
It must be tonight

The old man sits all by himself
And thinks of better years
When he used to believe in stars
And would dream away his fears

The young boy moves so fast he doesn’t
See the stars above
And all his dreams are crushed by old man
Who didn’t dream enough

We must all agree
There’s a point in life when darkness breaks our
Brittle hopes and dreams
And I’d say

It must be tonight
It must be tonight
It must be tonight
It must be tonight

It must be tonight
It must be tonight
It must be tonight
It must be tonight
Stay with me

She asked me, "Son, when I grow old,
Will you buy me a house of gold?
And when your father turns to stone,
Will you take care of me?"

She asked me, "Son, when I grow old,
Will you buy me a house of gold?
And when your father turns to stone,
Will you take care of me?"

I will make you queen of everything you see,
I'll put you on the map,
I'll cure you of disease.

Let's say we up and left this town,
And turned our future upside down.
We'll make pretend that you and me,
Lived ever after happily.

She asked me, "Son, when I grow old,
Will you buy me a house of gold?
And when your father turns to stone,
Will you take care of me?"

I will make you queen of everything you see,
I'll put you on the map,
I'll cure you of disease.

And since we know that dreams are dead,
And life turns plans up on their head,
I will plan to be a bum,
So I just might become someone.

She asked me, "Son, when I grow old,
Will you buy me a house of gold?
And when your father turns to stone,
Will you take care of me?"

I will make you queen of everything you see,
I'll put you on the map,
I'll cure you of disease.

далее

Без шуток, я бы его альбом купила :DDD
EMMANUEL MACRON HURLE - HEAVY METAL



Это напомнило мое любимое видео по подобной теме:
Meshuggah Face of Wall Street

Вспомнила про этот столетний бред, в точности я по жизни...

Listen to the wind blow
Watch the sun rise
Run in the shadows
Damn your love
Damn your lies

And if you don't love me now
You will never love me again
I can still hear you saying
You would never break the chain.

Listen to the wind blow
Down comes the night
Run in the shadows
Damn your love
Damn your lies

Break the silence
Damn the dark
Damn the light

And if you don't love me now
You will never love me again
I can still hear you saying
You would never break the chain.

Chain, keep us together
Running in the shadows

Безумно красивая композиция, найденная на краю вселенной в конце времени.

Biodrive - Neon City
Kalax - Collide
Horror Machine - Corvette

Когда наслаждаешься очень редкими моментами исчезновения хандры (не знаю, насколько долго это продержится).

снова решила разнообразить небо над своей головой...
мне очень часто снятся сны, будто я смотрю из окна своей комнаты или нахожусь еще где-то и вижу другое небо, новые созвездия, силуэты планет, галактик...и все невероятно яркое, живое, реалистичное, безумно красивое... и обычно я начинаю фотографировать все эти космические чудеса, а затем по одному и тому же повторяющему сценарию фотографии исчезают, или по какой-то причине я не могу на них посмотреть. снится мне подобное едва ли не постоянно, я видела сотни удивительных миров и каждый раз безрезультатно их фотографирую, тщетно пытаясь унести доказательства в реальность.
P.S. меня бы больше мотивировал универ (здесь соседний корпус), если бы небо было таким

http://www.liveinternet.ru/users/fractus_somnus/post397926257/ helix над лэп

http://www.liveinternet.ru/users/fractus_somnus/post396686033/ унылый вид на крышу кинотеатра (не был бы унылым, если...)

Shades of the Abyss – Starfighter
Shades of the Abyss – Cryptwalker
Shades of the Abyss – Enter The Void

"You never thought you’d see the day when practical things were so high up on your wish list!"

https://www.buzzfeed.com/h2/fbxm/spinbrush/stockin...utm_term=.mun22MBxx#.xaLBBGgnn

http://listentothe.cloud/ переговоры авиадиспетчеров по всему миру под эмбиент

https://somafm.com/player/#/now-playing/missioncontrol переговоры НАСА под эмбиент

http://youarelistening.to/ давно уже кидала эту ссылку, переговоры полиции под... да, эмбиент на выбор :)

http://www.di.fm/spacemusic эта ссылка висит в шапке моего дневника (на гифке) с незапамятных времен, для любителей космической музыки

https://somafm.com/deepspaceone/songhistory.html  сома фм

 

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Потрясающее звучание, сразу же переносишься на неоновые улицы ретрофутуристического города.

I am not the only traveler
Who has not repaid his debt
I've been searching for a trail to follow again
Take me back to the night we met

And then I can tell myself
What the hell I'm supposed to do
And then I can tell myself
Not to ride along with you

I had all and then most of you, some and now none of you
Take me back to the night we met
I don't know what I'm supposed to do, haunted by the ghost of you
Oh take me back to the night we met

When the night was full of terror
And your eyes were filled with tears
When you had not touched me yet
Oh take me back to the night we met

I had all and then most of you, some and now none of you
Take me back to the night we met
I don't know what I'm supposed to do haunted by the ghost of you
Take me back to the night we met

Here I come, come to you in the very clothes
That I killed, killed you in and now I know I'm alone
I walk to you, rain falls from you
Can you wash me, can you drown me?

I wanna be a lot of things, so much pent up inside of me
I wanna be stronger, too long I've sat here undecidedly
Planning strategy, half of me knows it's all just a fallacy
Failing miserably, drastically and then I crash dramatically
Into a wall I've hit a hundred times before
And yet I still ignore the dark red blood stains on the floor
And I'm back in front of you, Lord, with the blood on the floor
Is the blood mine or yours? Don't wanna do this anymore

Back and forth between being me and who you call me to be
You see a man free who thinks he has to buy a key
To a door but he can't 'cause he's poor and he can't
Fall down anymore 'cause he's already on the floor
And his heart is broken and all and this is his call
But it's more of a cry 'cause he will try nine times
To realize nine crimes but he has more than nine lives
So he picks himself up and keeps climbing for the prize again

Here I come again to you
Just to show that blood soaked through
Through my bones and all I own
Is there a way for me to grow?
I walk to you, rain falls from you
Can you wash me, can you drown me, please?

Every time I feel selfish ambition is taking my vision
My crime is my sentence, repentance is taking commission
It's taking a toll on my soul, I'm screaming submission and
I don't know if I am dying or living
'Cause I will save a face for name's sake
Abuse grace, take a aim to obtain a new name in a newer place
But my name is lame, I can't walk and I ain't the same
And my name became a new destiny to the grave and
They say the ocean's blue, but it's black right now
In the dark, on the sand, looking out at my crowd
Depression and drowning singing now the full parts
Of lightning reveals where the ocean stops and the sky starts
I've been told by the sky that the ocean I shall win
But it's hard for me to see where ocean stops and sky begins
A random strikes of light remind me of what is true
But right now the ocean's blacker than black, the sky is too

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Is the blood mine or yours? Don't wanna do this anymore...

There's miles of land in front of us
And we're dying with every step we take
We're dying with every breath we make
And I'll fall in line

A stranger's back is all I see
He's only a few feet in front of me
And I'll look left and right sometimes
But I'll fall in line

No one looks up anymore
'Cause you might get a raindrop in your eye
And Heaven forbid they see you cry
As we fall in line

And about this time of every year
The line will go to the ocean pier
And walk right off into the sea
And then we fall asleep

And as we near the end of land
And our ocean graves are just beyond the sand
I ask myself the question
Why I fall in line

Then out of the corner of my eye
I see a spaceship in the sky
And hear a voice inside my head:
Follow me instead
Follow me instead
Follow me

Then the wages of war will start
Inside my head with my counterpart
And the emotionless marchers will chant the phrase:
This line's the only way

And then I start down the sand
My eyes are focused on the end of land
But again the voice inside my head says,
Follow me instead
Follow me instead
Follow me

Take me up, seal the door
I don't want to march here anymore
I realize that this line is dead
So I'll follow You instead

So then You put me back in my place
So I might start another day
And once again I will be
In a march to the sea

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It's also meaningful to me...

Twenty One Pilots - Car Radio
I ponder of something great
My lungs will fill and then deflate
They fill with fire
Exhale desire
I know it's dire
My time today

I have these thoughts
So often I ought
To replace that slot
With what I once bought
'Cause somebody stole
My car radio
And now I just sit in silence

Sometimes quiet is violent
I find it hard to hide it
My pride is no longer inside
It's on my sleeve
My skin will scream
Reminding me of
Who I killed inside my dream
I hate this car that I'm driving
There's no hiding for me
I'm forced to deal with what I feel
There is no distraction to mask what is real
I could pull the steering wheel

I have these thoughts
So often I ought
To replace that slot
With what I once bought
'Cause somebody stole
My car radio
And now I just sit in silence

I ponder of something terrifying
'Cause this time there's no sound to hide behind
I find over the course of our human existence
One thing consists of consistence
And it's that we're all battling fear
Oh dear, I don't know if we know why we're here
Oh my,
Too deep
Please stop thinking
I liked it better when my car had sound

There are things we can do
But from the things that work there are only two
And from the two that we choose to do
Peace will win
And fear will lose
There's faith and there's sleep
We need to pick one please because
Faith is to be awake
And to be awake is for us to think
And for us to think is to be alive
And I will try with every rhyme
To come across like I am dying
To let you know you need to try to think

I have these thoughts
So often I ought
To replace that slot
With what I once bought
'Cause somebody stole
My car radio
And now I just sit in silence

I ponder of something great
My lungs will fill and then deflate
They fill with fire
Exhale desire
I know it's dire
My time today

I have these thoughts
So often I ought
To replace that slot
With what I once bought
'Cause somebody stole
My car radio
And now I just sit in silence

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And to be awake is for us to think
And for us to think is to be alive

I appreciate this song, it helped me so much.