{{ I'm almost ready to give up and ..
by the way, that's next after the giving up?
Never-ending loneliness and emptiness?

I am not afraid of it, because I already feel it:
all-absorbing, all-consuming feeling of loneliness.

Am I strong enough to overcome these difficulties?
I ain't no good nohow, am I?
I'm tired. Tired of waiting. I am so weak..
without you..