Поняла одно: хорошие, добрые и отзывчивые люди никому нафиг не нужны.
Буду ЗЛОБНОЙ СУКОЙ!!!!

Настроение сейчас - мрак

Хм, ну что ж, пора начинать рассказ о своей одинокой, дибильной жизни.
Это все настолько ужасно, что порой бывает просто невыносимо!!!! Как бы я хотела доверять людям, быть огражденной от лжи и человеческой злобы, верить словам любви и не видеть в этом преследования чужих интересов и безжалостной насмешки.

Подари мне, пожалуйста, счастье,
Счастья ворох мне подари!
Но бывает ли много счастья?
А бывает ли оно без лжи?

Подари мне улыбку взгляда
Или просто на меня посмотри.
Подари мне роман прекрасный!
А бывает ли он без лжи?

Фотографии Auringonsade :

Shot

Tonight we escape
just you and me
we find our peace
somewhere across the seas
enough of the fight
enough of the fuss
I'll be awake if he finds us
needless to say
I’ll stand in your way
I will protect you and I'll...

I'll take the shot for you
I'll be the shield for you
needless to say
I'll stand in your way
I'll take the shot for you
I'll give my life for you
I'll make it stop
I'll take the shot for you

Tonight we'll be free
I’ll find us a home
tonight we will be
finally on our own
enough of the hell
enough of the pain
I won't let him touch you
I love you
needless to stay
I’ll stand in you way
I will defend you and I'll...

I'll take the shot for you
I'll be the shield for you
needless to say
I'll stand in your way
I'll take the shot for you
I'll give my life for you
I'll make it stop
I'll take the shot for you

enough of the scars
enough broken hearts
I will protect you and I'll...

I'll take the shot for you
I'll be the shield for you
needless to say
I'll stand in your way
I'll take the shot for you
I'll give my life for you
I'll make it stop
I'll take the shot
I'll take the shot
I'll make it stop
I'll make it stop
I'll take the shot



Night after Night (Out Of the Shadows)

Heaven sent you, to bring the answer
Heaven sent you, to cure this cancer
For a moment unbeatable chance
For a moment the world in my hands
Like an angel you came
Every time when I prayed
Guardian of my dreams
Watching me when I sleep
Like an angel you came
Every time when I screamed

Time after time I lose again
Night after night I wake up shaking
'Cause my world is breaking
I'm fool enough to fall again
Night after night I wake up crying
'Cause I feel like dying

Still disconnected and unprotected
Still I'm haunted but unwanted
For a moment unbreakable stars
For a moment you stayed in my arms
Like an angel you came
Every time when I prayed
Guardian of my dreams
Watching me when I sleep
Like an angel you came
Every time when I screamed

Time after time I lose again
Night after night I wake up shaking
'Cause my world is breaking
I'm fool enough to fall again
Night after night I wake up crying
'Cause I feel like dying
Time after time I lose again
Night after night I wake up shaking
'Cause my world is breaking
I'm fool enough to fall again
Night after night I wake up crying
'Cause I feel like dying
(Time after time I lose again)
Night after night I wake up shaking
'Cause my world is breaking
I'm fool enough to fall again
(I'm fool enough to fall again)
Night after night I wake up crying
'Cause I feel like dying


No Fear

Girl,
You lived your life like a sleeping swan
Your time has come
To go deeper
Girl,
Your final journey has just begun
your destiny chose the reaper

No Fear
Destination Darkness
No Fear
Destination Darkness
No Fear

Girl,
The rain falls down from the northern skies
Like poisoned knives
With no mercy
Girl,
Close your eyes for the one last time
Sleepless nights
From here to eternity

No Fear
Destination Darkness
No Fear
Destination Darkness
No Fear
(Destination Darkness)


Lucifer’s Angel

Behind those eyes lies the truth and grief
Behind those beautiful smiles I've seen tragedy
The fallen skin hides the secrets within
The silent forces that secretly ignite your sins

Fly away, fly away
From the tourch of blame
They haunt you
Lucifer's Angels
Never lived, you never died
Your life has been denied
They call you
The Lucifer's Angel

Beyond these clouds you can hide all your tears
Beyond this world you'll be safe from their wicked fears
And in their hearts they fear your demands
You know their minds won't accept you, they'll never understand

Fly away, fly away
From the tourch of blame
They haunt you
Lucifer's Angels
Never lived, you never died
Your life has been denied
They call you
The Lucifer's Angel

On your own I know you can make it
Truth or bone I know you can shake it
Survive alone I know you can take it

Fly away, fly away
From the tourch of blame
They haunt you
Lucifer's Angels
Never lived, you never died
Your life has been denied
They call you
The Lucifer's Angel
Fly away, fly away
Run away, run away
Hide away, hide away
Lucifer's Angel
(x3)


Last Generation

We stopped and left the car
Last thing I can recall
A raging wave of light
Vaporized all this life
And we ran into the field
Incapable to breathe

Rest in peace it's all over now
It's the end of salvation
Memories in the photograph
Of the last generation
Of the last generation

I've seen this in my dream
A petrified family
Pointing hands at me
Victims of the tragedy
Dust replaced their souls
Hearts turn into stones

Rest in peace it's all over now
It's the end of salvation
Memories in the photograph
Of the last generation
Of the last generation

And dust replaced their souls
Minds turned into stone

Rest in peace it's all over now
It's the end of salvation
Memories in the photograph
Of the last generation
Rest in peace it's all over now
It's the end of salvation
Memories in the photograph
Of the last generation
Of the last generation


Dead Promises

The break of dawn kills all the beauty
The dead of night is drifting away
Should I stay and welcome the day
Or should I follow the one and hide from the sun
The ray of light cuts like a razor
The blazing fire burns in my eye
The day reveals the dreadful betrayer
And his Wicked mind
Hide from the sun
And hide from the sun

Dead promises
Paintings from the worlds of pure
Ancient prophecies
Remains of the worlds so cruel
The time has come
Hide from the sun

Like a rat I run to the darkness
The ray of night embraces my mind
Afraid to look back into the heartless
A world of dust and blood
I'll hide from the sun
Hide from the sun

Dead promises
Paintings from the worlds so pure
ancient prophecies
Remains of the worlds so cruel
The time has come
Hide from the sun

I Know me better
I won't be as bitter
In my own heaven
I'll be good forever
Won't fall back never
I won't crack ever
Won't look back never

Dead promises
Paintings from the worlds of pure
ancient prophecies
Remains of the worlds so cruel
The time has come
I'll hide from the sun


Immortal

Strange signs
Crooked signals
Strike down
The last aerial
Heaven's bending
Below, the world begins to break
Life is ending
Time has come to escape
Down to the chambers

Drink this blood and we'll become immortal baby
This love, is breaking the one last bond

We chose the silence
Hatred, cruel violence
We should be ashamed
We had a chance that we ignored
And now it's too late
The end is knocking on the door
Ready to claim us

Drink this blood and we'll become Immortal baby
This love, is breaking the one last bond

Surrender to my love
Sacrifice your soul
Your picture in the frame is fading like a ghost
Never say goodbye
Never be alone
Never say goodnight
Never say die

Drink this blood and we'll become Immortal baby
This love is breaking the one last
Drink this blood and we'll become Immortal baby
This love is breaking the one last
Immortal love is breaking the one last bond


Sail Away

Once upon a time we had a lot to fight for
We had a dream, we had a plan
Sparlks in the air spread a lot of envy
Didn’t have to care once upon a time
Remember when I swore
That love was never ending
That you and I will never die
Remember when I swore
We had it all
We had it all

Sail away, it's time to leave
Rainy days, are yours to keep
Fade away, the night is calling my name
You will stay, i'll sail away

Once upon a time we used to burn candles
We had a place to call a home
The dream that we lived
Was better than divine
Everyday was like a gift
Once upon a life
Remember when you swore your love is never ending
And you and I will never die
Remember when you swore
We had it all
We’d never fall

I'll sail away, it's time to leave
Rainy days are yours to keep
I'll fade away, the twilight's is calling my name
You will stay, I'll sail away

No reason to lie
No need to pretend
I'm greatful to die
To live once again
I'm fearless to fly
And reach for the end
And reach for the end

Sail away
Sail away, it's time to leave
Rainy days are yours to keep
Fade away, the night is calling my name
You will stay, I'll sail away
Sail away
The night is calling my name
Sail away


Keep Your Heart Broken

Enfolding your love in my heart
By the dawn I'll be gone
The road keeps us apart
For some time I'll be gone
You promise to swallow the tears when I leave you
You promise to follow the leads I will give you
You said you would crawl in the dark from the laughter
You said you would long after me ever after

My love will grow black if your heart gets stolen
Just promise to keep your heart
One day I'll come back if the door's still open
Just promise to keep your heart broken

Days go by like the wind
And this life is too short
It makes no sense to give in
To release you from my thoughts
I promise to write you, I'll always remember
I promise I'll try to be back 'til December
I said I must go, I must face this disaster
I said I would come after you ever after

My love will grow black if your heart gets stolen
Just promise to keep your heart
One day I'll come back if the door's still open
Just promise to keep your heart broken

If you just promise to keep your heart
Promise to keep your heart broken
If you just promise to keep your heart broken
Broken

My love will grow black if your heart gets stolen
Just promise to keep your heart
One day I'll come back if the door's still open
Just promise to keep your heart broken

Forever and after my love
Just promise to keep your heart broken


Heart Of Misery

I don't want to feel anything today
(I don't want to feel anything today)
Anything at all I'll just be alone
(I just want to know that you want to know)
I don't want to live through another day
(I don't want to live through another day)
Meaningless to fight for the victory
I just want to dive in the heart of misery

One love, One life
Lock me in the heart of misery
One Love, One fight
Lock me in the heart of misery

I will never be anything again
(I will never be anything again)
I'm tired to give, I don't want to try
(I'm afraid to live, I'm afraid to die)
I just want to fly, throw it all away
(I just want to fly, throw it all away)
Meaningless to fight for your sympathy
I just want to drown in the heart of misery

One love, One life
Lock me in the heart of misery
One Love, One fight
Lock me in the heart of misery

One man forgot to breath
One heart refused to beat
One love is incomplete
One loss

One love, One life
Lock me in the heart of misery
One Love, One fight
Lock me in the heart of misery
Lock me in the heart of misery
Ah ah, ah ah
In the heart of misery
Ah ah, ah ah
In the heart of misery


Don’t Let Go

Don't let go... don't let go... don't let go

Holding my breath as i walk to your garden
Everything seemed so abandoned
Roses have gone just as high as the mountains
Fireflies glow in the dark

Don't let go now (don't let go)
Somebody is lying

Everyone came to the final revival
It's been a year since we've been here
The Spell has been cast to welcome the arrival
The phantom silence is near

Don't let go now (don't let go)
The garden is dying
These wounds won't heal (don't let go)
Somebody is lying

Break the spell of emptyness
And thousand year of lonelyness
Bless the path of rightousness
And walk the trails of hollyness
The garden is dying
Somebody is lying

Don't let go now (don't let go)
The garden is dying
These wounds won't heal (don't let go)
Somebody is lying (2x)
Ohhh oh oh ohhhhh
The garden is dying
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
Somebody is lying
Ah ahahahaha
Once of us is lying
Ah ah ah ah

Living In A World Without You

It's hard to believe that it came to this
You paralysed my body with a poison kiss
For 40 days and nights I was chained to your bed
You thought that was the end of the story
Something inside me called freedom came alive
Living in a world without you

You told me my darling
Without me you're nothing
You taught me to look in your eyes
And fed me your sweet lies

Suddenly someone will stare in the window
Looking outside at the sky that had never been blue
Oh there's a world without you
I see the light
Living in a world without you
Oh there is hope to guide me
I will survive
Living in a world without you

It's hard to believe that it came to this
You paralysed my body with a poison kiss
For 40 days and nights I was chained to your bed
You thought that was the end of the story
Something inside me called freedom came alive
Living in a world without you

You put me together
Then trashed me for pleasure
You used me again and again
Abused me, confused me

Suddenly naked I run through your garden
Right through the gates of the past and I'm finally free
Oh there's a world without you
I see the light
Living in a world without you
Oh there is hope to guide me
I will survive
Living in a world without you

It's hard to believe that it came to this
You paralysed my body with a poison kiss
For 40 days and nights I was chained to your bed
You thought that was the end of the story
Something inside me called freedom came alive
Living in a world without you

It's hard to believe that it came to this
You paralysed my body with a poison kiss
For 40 days and nights I was chained to your bed
You thought that was the end of the story
Something inside me called freedom came alive
Living in a world without you

Oh there's a world without you
I see the light
Living in a world without you
Oh there is hope beside me
I will survive
Living in a world without you
Living in a world without you
Living in a world without you
Living in a world without you
Living in a world without you


Ten Black Roses

Life is like a boat in the bottle
Try to sail, You can't with no air
Day by day it only gets harder
Try to scream but nobody cares
Through the glass you see the same faces
Hear the voices play fade a drum
When your life's a boat in a bottle
You're surrounded, drifting alone

Don't leave me now
Stay another day
With me

When you're sad, and no-one knows it
I'll send you black roses
When your heart's dark and frozen
I'll send you black roses

Far away we wait for each other
I'm still on that road to nowhere
Kiss yourself for me in the mirror
Tie a black rose into your hair

Don't lose your faith
Share another night
With me

When you're sad and no-one knows it
I'll send you black roses
When your heart's dark and frozen
I'll send you black roses

Ten Black roses
Ten Black roses

Life is like a boat in the bottle
Try to sail, you can't with no air
Day by day it only gets harder
Try to scream but nobody cares

When you're sad, and no-one knows it
I'll send you black roses
When your heart's dark and frozen
I'll send you black Roses

Ten black roses


Ghost Of Love

I am near you
You don't see me
Can you feel me
Closer than close...

Does it hurt?
Does it burn?
Do you know what you've lost?
Are you scared of the dark?

Now that you're gone
All that remains
Is the ghost of love
Deep in my mind
I hear the chains
Of the ghost of love

You are falling
Down and dirty
You'll be crawling
Lower than low...

Can you sleep?
Can you breath?
When you know what you've done?
Tell me where will you run?

Now that you're gone
All that remains
Is the ghost of love
Deep in my mind
I hear the chains
Of the ghost of love

You are falling
Cruel and thoughtless
Yet all that you left of me is
The ghost of...

I'm fading
I'm barely breathing
Can't hold on
I'm dying
I must be bleeding
Won't be long...

Now that you're gone
All that remains
Is the ghost of love
Deep in my mind
I hear the chains
Of the ghost of love


Justify

So close so far, I'm lost in time
Ready to follow a sign
If there was only a sign
The last goodbye burns in my mind
Why did I leave you behind?
Guess it was too high to climb

Give me a reason
Why would you want me
To live and die
Live in a lie
You were the answer
All that I needed
To justify, justify my life

Someone as beautiful as you
Could do much better it's true
That didn't matter to you
I tried so hard to be the one
It's something I couldn't do
Guess I was under the gun

Give me a reason
Why would you want me
To live and die
Live in a lie
You were the answer
All that I needed
To justify, justify my life

It's only right
That I should go
And find myself
Before I go and ruin Someone else

So close so far, I'm lost in time
Ready to follow a sign
If there was only a sign

Give me a reason
Why would you want me
To live and die
Live in a lie
You were the answer
All that I needed
To justify, justify my life

It's only right
That I should go
And find myself
Before I go and ruin Someone else


Your Forgiveness

It's time for forgiveness
It's time to repent
Time for ascendance
To live without revenge
We'll never be together
It's time to face the truth

You tell me
Who can make it last forever
Destiny
Couldn't seal our fates together
There's a time for anger
Cause I still bleed from your last kiss
The war is over
And all I need from you is this
Your forgiveness

You were my religion
I gave you my soul
Your body was the light
You were my obsession
I gave you all control
I didn't know your
Heart was cold and made of stone

You tell me
Who can make it last forever
Destiny
Couldn't seal our fates together
There's a time for anger
Cause I still bleed from your last kiss
The war is over
And all I need from you is this
The hardest thing for you to give
Your forgiveness

Chorus


Run To You

Tomorrow's taking me away from you
Like a jealous lover
Kiss me one last time
Before I go down this broken road I follow
You will leave me torn and sting me like
A thorn from a dying rose
The saddest scent of you will cling to me
I know

I will run to you
When my journey is over
Wait for me
Keep our love alive
I will dream of you
'Till I reach the sun
Then I'll turn around and run to you

If I stay with you and linger here
Another moment
I will fade into the scenery
You wouldn't even see me
I've got nothing left to offer you
It's not that I don't care
All I ask is that you think of me
I swear

I will run to you
When my journey is over
Wait for me
Keep our love alive
I will dream of you
'Till I reach the sun
Then I'll turn around and run to you

I hate to see you cry
The way you look away
Makes me wanna die

Run to you
Wait for me
Keep our love alive
I will dream of you
'Till I reach the sun
Then I'll turn around and run - to you


You Got It Wrong

When you found me on the street
Did you think you rescued me
Bet you thought without you would die
Like a snake you swallowed me
Took it till I couldn't breathe
Just to bring your fantasies to life
You count on the faithful to get your way
And to follow your lie

You got it wrong now
Cause I don't give a f***
I'm not your believer
You got it wrong
So I guess you're out of luck
Your dream just lost a dreamer

Hold me with your mystery
Preaching peace and charity
But I see trough your vanity and lies
You think you got the best of me
But I will re-write history
I'll take back my life to your surprise
If I could make it as painful as you dig for me
I'd be just waisting my time

You got it wrong now
Cause I don't give a f***
I'm not your believer
You got it wrong
So I guess you're out of luck
Your dream just lost a dreamer

There's a little part of me
That would like to see you cry
Even if it's just one tear
I know it would never dry

You got it wrong now
Cause I don't give a f***
I'm not your believer
You got it wrong
So I guess you're out of luck
Your dream just lost a dreamer


Lost And Lonely

It feels like the end of time
Like something bad is coming
You've been living in the world of lies
Your see through walls are falling
It's getting hard to except that
I'm losing you

I watch as you sleep
Your nightmares break the silence
I can tell that you're in too deep
Got your mind down to a science
And every time that I touch you
I'm losing you

You're the eve of my destruction
In the garden of fears

Why am I devastated
You through it all away now
Who's the one who's lost and lonely
I gotta break away from you
Who will pay for all the things you've done
I'm not the only one

You're out of control inside
I don't need x-ray vision
To see all the desperate signs
You made your heart a prison
I took it all out of fear of losing you

In the valley of deception
There is a river of tears

Why am I devastated
You through it all away now
Who's the one who's lost and lonely
I gotta break away from you
Who will pay for all the things you've done
I'm not the only one

So many nights, so many fights
So many days, too easy to erase

Why am I devastated
You through it all away now
Who's the one who's lost and lonely
I gotta break away from you
Who will pay for all the things you've done
I'm not the only one


The Fight

Everything is still and calm
In the dead of night
Right before for the fight
Clouds are gathering for the storm
Destiny decides
Who will live or die

I've been waiting for this moment
It's time for the battle
Even if I never make it
Take me home
I might never get my story
Carved in stone
But I will rise again
The fight is to the end

The pounding of the drums of war
Turns your tears to mud
Rivers turns to blood

If you live to see another day
To take another breathe
Make it life or death

Chorus

Give me strength to carry on
Till my life is done

Everybody wants the glory
But you better remember
The fight is to the end


Dangerous Kind

You got me in this situation
You got me backed against the wall
Caught in a web of your creation
I bet you set me up to fall

Once I thought about it
I figured out your wicked ways
There's no doubt about it
You'd sell your soul to seal the case

You're the dangerous kind
Now look at what you've done to me
What you've done to me baby
You've gotta criminal mind
Your motive is to plant a seed
Now I'd kill for you baby

You gotta shady reputation
From bed to bed to man to man
Once you deliver your temptation
No one can stop your master plan
Don't try to lie about it
I don't believe a thing you say
The more you try to hide it
The more the lies show on your face

Chorus

I've been sleeping with the enemy
Now I'm doing the time
Paying up for the crime
Guess you took everything you could from me

Chorus


Live Forever

Was it an angel
That knocked on my door
Or was it a wind
Was I still sleeping
Lost in a dream
Or was it you

We swam in the fountains
Beneath the northern stars
We cried from the laughter
And died in each other's arms

Remember
Live forever
Remember
To live for love

I got back my letters
Ages ago
Your address unknown
I pass a stranger
Who had your eyes
Or was it you

We ran through the graveyard
To catch to midnight sun
We danced drunk and naked
Until the summer was gone

Свет сквозь мутное стекло
Я смотрю на тебя сквозь окно
Мои слезы тихо капают вниз
Постепенно намокает карниз
Ты почувствуешь капли дождя
Это капля в море слез для тебя
Забываю все хорошее, что было между нами
Я ищу разгадки тайны

Знаешь я хочу тебе сказать
Я не буду вспоминать
Все, что было
Все, что было,
Все, что было

Взгляд сквозь закрытые глаза
Упадет вниз последняя слеза
Растворившись в себе я найду
Твою мечту
Ты почувствуешь капли дождя
Это капля в море слез для тебя
Забываю все хорошее, что было между нами
Я ищу разгадки тайны

Знаешь я хочу тебе сказать
Я не буду вспоминать
Все, что было
Все, что было,
Все, что было

Rusketusraidat

Helvetin Hyvin Menee.
Sä kysyt multa, miksi oon vihainen
ja ikkunasta puluille kiroilen
Mulla on sulle pikkuinen salaisuus
alaston mies on mulle asia uus
Heitetäänkö pois kaikki housut ja paidat
Lähdetään lennolle
Näytä mulle missä sul on rusketusraidat
Piirrä ne kartalle
Helvetin Hyvin menee.
Mun perhe oli himovanhoillinen
Ne kielsi multa seksivalistuksen
Mä mietin usein että missä sen teen
Valitsen junan taikka lentokoneen
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