I'm sooo stupid... That's what I feel sometimes... Today for example... But would you understand that it doesn't mean to me what it means to you? If I were you... I wouldn't.
Yes of course it's true if I tell you this. Buuut. You know the truth. I know it may hurt, even for me it's still mystery how these two statements are still both true. It's awful... I mean that I can't understand this. What I feel - it's wonderful. What I try to do but somehow still cannot (as a result of my stupidity, I guess) is... is not that pleasant and sometimes even disappointing. From the other point of view... Would there be any sense in something ideal, which wouldn't have any purpose?
That's a rather cruel thought. But it exists and I have to do something with it.