Something I posted on LJ today:
http://alindra.livejournal.com/373557.html?view=1013813&style=mine#t1013813

As my comment, not my post.
I do not know if I will keep my Russian writing in Ethiopia. Unlikely.
I didn't find a place for my "Russianess" -- today's Russia is more wrong than the Soviet Union: what prevents it from being Russia? What did it learn from the 20th century?
Chaadaev is right, Fedorov wrong? How else to read the last twenty years?
Well, that's the choice of people who still live there.
Nothing can be done. They are free to choose death.