I don't know. I guess I've heard too many horror stories about how your being a donor reduces your chances of being saved in the ER.

sheer nonsense I've been working in the ER, never was an issue in determining the course of management.

On the other hand, I'm still working on my attitude toward death. To become a donor, means to accept death...

dopn't waste your time on accepting death. first of all it's too early, and doing something so much in advance takes all fun out of it :) And then, it's inevitable regardless of your "acceptance".. so quit this...

to become a donor is to accept a simple idea that you can give someone a chance to live longer.

I know this is not right, my not becoming a donor

I don't judge you, not at all. you're tormented, and nothing is wrong with being a bit lost in all these ethical issues... do what makes the most sense. It's just a bit different from, say, religion or other ethical debates. And this difference is that you won't be able to take an opportunity to enjoy whatever idea or a concept you'd feel in peace with when you're dead and don't feel anything. So the only thing one really should be worrying about is whether my life can be veneratred in someone.

, as a future health professional must be the 1st one to do that

Just being a health professional doesn't automatically oblige you to donate.. it's more in line with humanistic ethics, then with a profession. But, I agree, being a health professional, you're more educated about an issue and have an overall better understanding of its factors than an average joe.

I wish you could feel what I feel and were able to read my messy mind...

I hope it's a working mess :)

Have you ever heard about Tuskegee study?

No, I haven't.

I'm suggesting, that not everything that is done for the sake of good is worth it

i don't understand. care to elaborate?