Alec005, I am absolutely fine. :)

I liked it... a lot. True, it's sad...with a hint of pragmatism. You wrote it about 5 years ago? Are you still feeling the same way? I can't find words right now. There are a lot of things in your story I can relate to, so while reading your thoughts I was able to take a peek inside my own mind and soul. Very touching. Thank you, Alec.

CRAZY_VENUS, I am very happy to hear that.

Thank you very much for liking my book, well, chapters of it: I am still in the process of writing it...

The thing is, I DO feel the same way...

And please do not mentionit.

Sorry to hear, that you have found thinkgs you can relate to. I wish, you would not have had those things... That way you could have been happier, but then again, it's all parts of life experience, no?

Alec005, Have you been writing more? Because if you have, I'd like to read it.

Well, you know, I'm not thinking of myself as not happy, it is life experience, and i'm comfortable with it. Even if sometimes I wish things were different, I'm grateful for what I have.

What is happiness in your words anyways?

CRAZY_VENUS, not yet. Did not have an uninterrupted block of time to sit and write. Happiness is when you are with someone, with reciprocal understanding, with reciprocal respect, with romance, spontaneity, friendship... someone I can be a 'shield' for...

How about you?

Alec005, too bad.

What are the chances that you will find that person? Very little, IMHO. And then, even if you meet that person, where is the guarantee it's going to last? Nothing lasts forever.

For me happiness is to be true to myself, not compromising my own dreams and needs. I want to be self-efficient, when my own happiness does not depend on anybody else.

CRAZY_VENUS, that is very true, but I meant, happiness as happiness, not to have happiness all by yourself. You know, what I mean? The type of happiness, you are talking about, I have:) And it's does not feel too good...


And I am willing to wait for that person to come and to look for that person actively myself. And if that person does exist, then I know that both of us won't get disappointed in each other...

Alec005, I know exactly what you mean. I would love to be able to share my happiness with the "right person". It just seems to me almost impossible to find that kind of person. I don't know, there's been so many disappointing relationships, that I'm coming to the conclusion that I cannot be "tied up" to anybody.

CRAZY_VENUS, don't think this way. Trust me! Everythign will happen in it's own time! One step at a time, you know! But believe you me, there is happiness for everyone!

Alec005, Maybe, maybe. Waste of time...

CRAZY_VENUS, nope. Trust you me... Everything happens for a reason!...

Alec005, There's a reason for everything, agree.

Gosh, just wanted to spend a day alone, and everybody decided to stop by today...can't say "I don't wanna see anybody"

CRAZY_VENUS, that happens once in a while... Could be quite bloody irritating:)

Alec005, Absolutely. Another compromise, let them be happy:)

CRAZY_VENUS, not necessarily: just look exhausted and that you have to run out momentarily: they'd get a hint;)