В колонках играет - Christina Aguilera-"Hurt"

Hello.....It's me... I don't know why but i feel so so so bad...Everybody's left: my mom, my friends, my cousin...... This is the first time i'm by myself after I came back..... This is really hard.... I mean when smb. is around u - u'r not thinking about nothing.... U just smiling, having fun, joking....u don't have a time to think about anything..... U know what I mean.....
And now...I have a lot of time....I wanna do smth. - I can't......I wanna talk to anybody - I can't.....I wanna chage smth. - still can't.....
U know what i'm listening now....? Ofcaurse u know....... "Athat dalaalem" or whatever the song name......
So what I wanna say..... I have one really huge problem.... I'm doubting.... about everything..... & I hate myself because of this.....
I looking at ***, I'm talking to *** & I started to realized that there's nothing between them....I mean from ***'s side..... I'm not sure but... I feel so so bad.....I know what u gonna tell me: "It's not of your business...." may be....But still.....
I'm looking at myself & I'm afraid what's gonna heppen with me...& with u.....
& nobody are not helping me, they can't..... :(
& I can't stop thinking.....I hate those days.....I hate to be by myself......

Whatever...... Everything gonna be solved soon :)
Right? I'm just so stupid sometimes.....& It's just a bad mood...... :(
U have to hear this song.... Christina Aguilera-"Hurt".....It's woow!
May be I feel bad because of it....

ok....I don't know why i'm writing all this sheet....but i just... wanna say all of this.... without any reason......