Well, I guess you don't need reasons for doing that!))) You have it or not! And it's your own personal business.
Hmm....you're alone, but you'll never be lonely I'm sure! Although you're missing you're friends(so I am), you'll never feel loneliness. You're not such kind of people. And still, whether they're far from you, deap inside they're close with your mind! I hope so! But I'm with you for sure! You're the great and unique person! I love you, I miss you, I hug you!)))
P.S. Keep going, you'll have success with your diaries of blogs!)))))