What kind of man I am? What is my purpose here on this Earth? What should I do living my life? How to do right things? All those questions concerns me every day. And I know I'm learning plenty every day. I fight... Now I study a lot of subjects, go in for karate with my trainer. I think of I'm getting more determined. I think of it's all God. Sometimes I feel bad, but everything chandes if I begin to think of my future, my aim, my plans, my changing and improving inside and outside.

I was absent for a few days, but... I did a lot of things, ya know?

Christmas was... mmm... it wasn't for me or for anyone in my family. But everything was great as regards my new habits and cause of affairs.

Secondly, practise has started. That National Institute of International Security Problems is really fascinating me. I'm almost sure I'll working there after getting bachelor degree. Well! I feel ok concerning that.

I got some probs with parents sometimes, but I handle it.

The only thing is Olia who I got my mind set on. I still remember her lies, her betrayal. I can't be who she used to be. She used to be like that, like I am now. She remebered all bad things I was doing. I should handle it as fast as possible. I shouldn't be in sorrow. God is giving me a power. I'm with'im.