"Spring"

Caught in time so far away from where our hearts really wanted to be - Reaching out to find a way to get back to where we'd been - And if summer left you dry with nothing left to try - This Time...... Caught at a distance from myself and there was no one there to know - What could I do? - I have learned sometimes a need can run too deep and we throw away the things we most wanted to keep and inside we lie over and over again - This Time...... If you don't now you'd better learn to believe me when I say I'm going to build a wall around this town Around these hearts and hands.


"Deeper Than Inside"

I'm going down, going down, deeper than inside

--the world is my fuse--

And once inside gonna tear till there's nothing left to find
And you wonder just how close close-up can be?
Can't you see? Can't you see?
I had a dream all my thoughts turned to real lips

--and the world is my fuse--

And just a dream, just a dream can bring me to my knees
And you wonder just how tight skin deep can be?
Can't you see? Can't you see?
I'm going down, going down, deeper than inside

--the world is my fuse--

And from inside, outside just can fall apart
And you wonder just how lost inside can be?

Try me. Try me.


"For Want Of"

I—I believed—memory might mirror no reflections on me,

I—I believed—that in forgetting I might set myself free.

But I woke up this morning with a piece of past caught in my throat…
And then I choked.

I bled—I tried to hide the heart from the head.
And I—I said I bled—In the arms of a girl I'd barely met.

And I woke up this morning with the present in splinters on the ground—
And then I drowned.

And if I can't see it’s for want of—you

You said, "I see"
If there's nothing here then it’s probably mine
My—My turn to see—if there's nothing here it will always be mine, mine

But I woke up this morning with a piece of past caught in my throat—
And then I choked.

I—I guess I've learned the taste of days that will always burn.
I—I guess I've learned if it’s in the corner of my eye I can't always turn.

And I woke up this morning with the present in splinters on the ground—and then I drowned.

And if I can't see it’s for want of—you

You.


"Hain's Point"

I read somewhere that every wall's a door to something new
Well if that's true-why can't i get through?

Cause I'm not who I thought I was
And I can't explain

But it feels like...I'm falling through a hole in my heart
Just falling through a hole in my heart
Don't try to reach for nothing at all

I could walk around--fall in love with a face or two
But it wouldn't be you--no it wouldn't be you

Cause you're not who I thought you were

No I can't explain
No, no I can't explain

But it feels like I'm falling through a hole in my heart
Falling through a hole in my heart.
Don't try to reach for nothing at all.

I can't, I can't explain.



"All There Is"

It's more than love
And it's less than love
It's what I give to you.
It's more than love
And it's less than love
It's what I give to you, you, you.

All there is is in the knowing that this never had to end.
All there is to know.

If I could take,
heart in hand,
what I'd give to you.
If I could take,
heart in hand,
what I'd give to you, you.

All there is is in the knowing that this never had to end.
All there is to know.
This never had to end.

It's more than love
And it's less than love
It's what I give to you.
It's more than love
And it's less than love
It's what I give to you, you, you.

All there is is in the knowing that this never had to end.
All there is to know.



"Drink Deep"

Drink deep, it's just a taste, and it might not come this way again,
I believe in moments, transparent moment, moments in grace when you've got to stake your faith

(but why do I confine, when all I want is release?)

It moves inside you, it stays outside you,
and its not something that I could prove,
or could chose, to be moved.
Yes its a promise, and its a threat,
and its not something that I'll let you for get,
not just yet, not just yet

(but why do I chase when all I want is near?)

If its not the rule then its always the case,
good intentions get fractured, good intentions get replaced,
so close to reach but so hard to hold,
the only chance you get is past your control, it's so hard, it's so hard.

Drink deep, its just a taste and it might not come this way again,
time to surrender, sweet surrender of all things in time, all things one place, one place.



"Other Way Around"

Maybe what you've seen isn't part of me at all
It must belong to someone, but not to me

Maybe I was too quick - too quick to turn my head
But I had to go - just to get around

Other way around
The world it wants you weak
Another way around

I was so young - I didn't know what it meant
to be hurt and then to hurt

I was so young, but it's so hard to stay still
I was so young, and it's getting harder still
just to get around - the other way around

Maybe tomorrow - hope won't come stillborn today
And maybe tomorrow - sounds won't fill in for words to say

And we'll get around
We'll get around
The other way around



"Theme (If I Started Crying)"

Cruelty is the better part of your honesty
And when you're so direct its just for yourself to protect
And if I started crying, would you start crying?
Now I started crying - why are you not crying?

Sometimes--when I--see a world inside
Sometimes--when I--I try--I really try

And hope's just another rope to hang myself with
To tie me down till something real comes around
And if I started crying would you start crying?
And if I started crying why are you not crying?



"By Design"

Time heals all wounds they say
But the self inflicted won't just fade away
And in these shifting tides of blame
why are you suprised to see your name? It's such a drag
Time got the best of you
Things you gave you say were taken
Explaination piled over excuse

And so the story goes
But by your own design
And if you look to me to find you
Then my eyes will pass right though

Believe me I had wished
We could have avoided this
Please dont ask me to explain
All the things that caused your pain
I only want you to realize
Passivity equals compliance
Let it slip right through your hands
Become the victims of other's demands

And so the story goes
But by your own design
And if you look to me to find you
Then my eyes will pass right though
Pass right through



"Remainder"

We are all trapped in prisons of the mind,
it's a hard sensibility
but we'll see it through in time
but when words come between us
Noiseless in the air
Believe me, I know it's so easy to despair.

but don't
Tonight i'm talking to myself
There's no one that I know as well
Thoughts collide without a sound
Frantic, fighting to be found

And I've found things in this life
that still are real
a remainder refusing to be concealed
And I've found the answer lies in a real emotion
Not the self-indulgence of a self-devotion

Too many situations
Left with too little to say
So we try, we try to feel our way
And if decisions cause divisions
Tell me who's to blame?
Pick a target for convenience
When there are other ways

So don't
Tonight i'm talking to myself
There's no one that I know as well
Thoughts collide without a sound
Frantic, fighting to be found

And I've found things in this life
that still are real
a remainder refusing to be concealed
I've found the answer lies in a real emotion
Not the self-indulgence of a self-devotion


"Persistent Vision"

I was the champion of forgive forget
But I haven't found a way
To forgive you yet
And though I know you and I are through
All my thoughts are lines converging in on you

I wish sometimes, the mind were blind

I see - What must be seen
To feel - What can't be real
To know - What's done is done - it goes on and on

I am the victim of a persistent vision
It tracks me down with it's precision
And though I know you're not in my eyes
I can't seem to clear you from my mind

I wish sometimes, the mind were blind

I see - What must be seen
To feel - What can't be real
To know - What's done is done - goes on and on

Help me. I can't see at all.

I was the champion of forgive forget
But I havent a way to forgive you yet
and though I know you're not in my eyes
I can't clear persistent vision


"Nudes"

I want to talk, like I'm talking to myself
I want to reach, yeah I could be someone else
And when a touch,
When a touch becomes to much
You know, I could be someone else
And I - yeah I know enough not to hope to know
But it's so hard, 'cause the night can fill my eyes
And you give me some distance,
I can get so hard to find
And when a word, when a word cuts in too close
I can always get so hard to find
And I - I know enough
Not to hope to know
It was so clear, to have not been clear at all
I got so far to have come against a wall
The first, the final, no middle
Well it seems so real to me,
To each is own illusions
If I could only believe



"End On End"

I’ve had days of end on end
Where nothing changed cause nothing began.
Restless movement in an empty room,
Gathering shadows of a darkened blue.
And oh- it feels so strange- when it comes again.
Cycles of end on end, edges begin to blend, time
Following time, a pattern becomes defined.
I had a feeling from end to end.
Tried to catch it before it started again.
Pushed it away to force a laugh,
But inside I didn’t have the breath.
And oh-it feels so strange – when it comes again.
But I’ve got it now,
I’ve got the rhythm down.
Cycles of end on end.
But if one wave stops, another begins.
End on end on end on end on end on end on end on end on
end on end on end on end on end on end on end on
end.


"All Through A Life"

All through a life
And through the lives that came before
The ties that bind to blind
Of those that came before
I'm looking back
And in looking back I hope to get beyond
And start to mend all those days
That they left undone

But in my veins a trace remains

And to want in the face of need
Well it just seems so obscene
But that's all thats left
And that's all they've left to leave
And then they point to themselves and say,
"I look like you."
And it hurts to hear and so it must be true

But in my veins a trace remains

But I think it's going to be alright
I think it's going to be o.k.
I think of those days that came before
And together we will mark these days


"Hidden Wheel"

It never seemed that close to me
No it never seemed all that much to see
But now it feels so real
feels so real to me
But now it feels so much
Feels so much to see

Is this the,
The first time
I've seen the color of this room?
Is this the,
The first time?

Yes, I had a taste but I did not swallow
And if I went it was just to follow
And now a question was asked of me
But now there's a question being asked of me

Is this the,
The first time
I've seen the size of these walls?
Is this the,
The first time?
Yes.

Now
I'm the angry son
Everything I've learned was wrong
I'm the burning door
Once I'm opened I can't be closed
I found a hidden wheel
And it rolls to reveal that
I'm the angry son
I'm the angry son


"In Silence/Words Away"

Sometimes it's not the giving
When what's given is gone and for free
But in taking what it took from me
And I'm not living
In someone else's eyes I am lived
Recreated in expectation so once again I'm missed
And left

Far, far away from you

The only way out is through myself to you
With words that do no justice but what have I left to use?
Because I can't stand this silence, it speaks too loud for me
A song that fails and fails me once again denied release
And left

Words, words away from you
From where my heart wants to be

Is there a beauty in promises broken?


"Patience"

Wanting to understand
To understand a hand thats not my hand
In a moment to be defined
All clear lines of all that, that could mean
And I'm wanting eyes
That wont justify or despise all they see
and a silence inside
To help me decide and hide in me
But oh,
I get so tired of waiting
I get so tired of waiting
I get so tired of waiting
When these skies won't fall
Wanting a chance
Just a chance that cannot be missed
Because in seconds that pass
Never there, it's just another kiss
And I'm wanting a heart
And hearts that won't just beat on their own
Because every beat without purpose or thought
You know..
Makes me feel more alone

And I'm so tired of wating
I get so tired of waiting
Waiting
When the skies won't fall