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просьба не смеяться над моим английским....и вообще просьба не смеяться....хотя и так ясно что никому не смешно...
Hello. My name is Alexey, I live in Moscow, Russia. I appeal to you for help concerning
too many inexplicable events happening in my life lately. In brief, four years ago I happened
to get an experience I called to myself «loss of soul». This was a feeling of inner light absence,
pain and hopelessness. The first thought that came into my mind was to visit church, but all my
attempts to talk to clergymen were not a success and left me with a feeling that they were very
mistaken
with their judgments. I visited Buddhist teacher later, but somehow in his presence I just forgot to
verbalize my main problem and did not get an answer, vice versa I got lost in what seemed and loomed
to
me that period, I had nowhere to appeal. It got worse then because I was seethed with a feeling that
I was a
betrayer of Christianity with my appealing toward Buddhism, I spent a lot of time considering myself
a betrayer who was not worth forgiveness. All that time I felt as if «сlouds gathered above me».
Then there was a sensation that I was spied by some enlightened people from Internet forum, but it
was very painful
for me to realize that they did not understand me at all and nevertheless were trying to talk about
me at the forum.
After that there was a period when it seemed to me that the television was paying a lot of attention
to my person.
It was very painful and I could not understand what was going on. Then there was a meeting (
in my mind ) with
some friendly people and I suspected that it was related to my watching of Thai Buddhist channel
dmc.tv on the Internet
and the attention of the teachers to me. There were many conversations (in my mind) and attempts to
help me, some successful,
some not… generally there were much telepathy and different creatures around…but all this time I
cannot meditate…I suspected
special service to control me…and I had several contacts with creatures from outer space…I had met
the Christ later and the
God himself after and talked to them all…but I do not need all these conversations actually, I
cannot display any special
knowledge on anything, on the contrary more and more questions have arisen…
I have tried to list the main events which have taken place next to me but my questions are not only
about them,
I am trying to obtain harmony again and I guess that the only thing that can help me is the
persistent practice
of Buddhism and Christianity, simultaneously if it is possible,together probably. But I cannot
meditate.
I do not know what mantra is better for me to use to manage my problems. Maybe I need any special
rituals.
I kindly ask you to help me to see what I can do.
Thanks in advance.
Alexey.
P.S. I describe all the above mentioned events at length in my diary here
http://www.liveinternet.ru/users/2349894/more
But unfortunately, I regret to say I cannot myself translate it into English.
Hello again)
After same time of thinking i decide continue my first letter.
Before i said that i don`t have a special knowledes after many days
of conversation (in mind) with differense creatures but if truth i
have some. I want to try recollect it for you and may be in the
future will can help to me undestand everythying better. Most
amasinest meeting in my adventures it is meet with Univers. For me
very difficult wright how i meet she. But it was...it was summer..i
live with my grandeparents in the village...most part of time i keep
silence and walking and thinking alone...but inside me was a lot
events... someone working near my person....in the beggining i
suspect same intelligence agencyююююш thinking near mindcontrol and
zombing......therefore i decide go away from Moscow.....but
mindcontrol was not other and i begin thinking about creatures from
out of space.....same time ago it seems i have a contact with one of
them.....i dot`n know his gentrice but he was intellegent and explain
to me that he is.....in russian lan we have only one word for
them.....this word can be translated how....human from other
planet...and he ask me use this word...exept everything he said that
i just don`t know whats happend near my...(if truth i steel don`t
know).....
in final....he "go away"....i don`t undertstand near nothing....and
few new words.....he often repeat word - district....argue about
darkness everywhere......same "caplets"....and he ask me repeat words
"Weeel" like mantra.....all that period of time i was sure that he
try to help me.....and i steel don`t have other ideas....
after i just forgot everything aboute him and just keep living...
...if truth i drop a lot information in present time.....becouse i
thing only book can explain all details of my destiny...but in
preasent time i`m not ready to write it)
and...
summer.
village.
Near me God - Yahve....main Christian God, Christ itself and
anotherone person...God present his how Grandfather of the Univers.
Very, very clever human from heaven. Clever it`s not a name for
him....he genius!.....and it seems he really creator......although who
creators of lot what for me difficult question...
except them strange "mindcontrol" or i don`t know who is it....but
averything what thay do - not to well.......
....all time i try understaund who are thay and what they want....but
unsuccessfully....but somhow i "hear" that they are....ask Univers
realise they ary wishes and Univers do EVERYTHING for them....i just
can`t explain what seems to me.......but in same moment i implore to
all possible Gods which near me....ask University to hear me.....ask
she to help me....
and she come)
i near sow the face of beautiful women. She give me only one sign in
the begining....it was black lock.....and words.....I KNOW....after it
i was absolutely shure.....SHE KNOW.....i love her)
Later after same conversation she acknowledge itself how Mother of the
Univers....
and someone..may be she itself.....she wish me the key from the
lock.....i was very happy)
Later i meet she friend.......more properly i ask her ask some friends
come to me becouse near me a lot strange creatures and we all God,
Grandfather, Univers (pronounce with tender:) .....and we all still just try
whisking me from the difficult sutuations.....and i "meet" anotherone
greate person....i sow his sign....and understand only one thing - i never
sow so sign on the Earth....although same associations can be....something like
head of human.....but not usual...
hi was one of my greatest helpers....
miss him to)
one of the last my frends...
he said what for me he somthing like guest from the future)))
very, very perfect human.
If truth i already don`t know how right address to many person. I know
only what they all Gods....although foe me it was difficult accept
more than One God.....
in final my "friend from the future" at my request found God creator
of Adam....wich first human....with Eva)))
he was need to me for help to me with my soul problems....i need a
doctor wich really know how human created......But everything very
difficult.....and in present time i prefer don`t disturb many Oldes
Gods.....a lot different reason for it...
more...
I know Santa Lucia...like person....but unfortunately never
sow.....just know she like soul...like holy....like someone who know
me one time....
And know Green Tara from Tiberian Buddism...She present near me than i
read she mantra Om Tare TuTare Ture Swaha...she present like greate
flow of energy....
I think that i recollect all my main friands from different realms but
unfortunately circumstance of our meet very sad.....my story like
horror movie....and i don`t know who is main pest.....or how a lot
them.........
and....God....not always right.......and Christ......after all his
act and behavior i just fear recollect him....
and i`m very tired from Gods mistaken...but not shure wich situation
i will have without him.....
many problems.
i need your hepl.
pls)
Hello another one time)
in my last letter i recollect human from other planet wich ask my
repeat sound "weeel"......
it was great mistaken.....he ask repeat sound "Woom"....and say that
for me will be better never meet creatures wich use "weeeel"
(will)....
Sorry.
Hello.
Last night was very long for me. After i wrote my letters to You. I
keep thinking near my questions and explanations. I feel same to my
person and keep trying to give difference explanations already in
mind. I try recollect how foreign (UFO) working near me before. I try
explain same new revelation wich i open for myself. If truth now i can
recollect only one idea wich looks like important. It`s idea about
greate error of physicist wich then reasoning near university
erroneously say that atoms, protons, neutrons and other particles it
is something not alive. I think more right will be question: Who are
they?) although it`s only my assumption. Almost my knowleges about
modern physicist and last Theory of Everything i know from
http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/nova/elegant/ I strongly recomend to watch it)
after i ask God wich near mу help to everyone who try understand me
give them same seeing. becouse i indeed know that if i will just
thinking and try explain differense truth it`s one idea if everyone
will "See" everything it other. I`m not sure that i want to show but i
near sure on my body, in my body and near my body can be foundeв
strange objects wich don`t must be near me. Before i often use word
zombify. Later i hear that somone thinking that it is have name
coding.
and in present time i don`t know there all these cods. If truth God in
the begginig was not sure `i`m human or not. He never sow so person
like my. I fear to present how i`m looking from heaven. although
mistake possibe everythere.
after i addict attempt to God that i`m normal usual human. for it i
ask him come to one enlightened prist and give him know something
aboute me. it was long way of explanation what he thinking in result.
sometimes it looking like truth sometimes i`m dobt. But reality in
only one rigth idea noone my try to ask give something to somebody or
say something to sombody never was successful. it`s never was
understanded in other human although something may be exchange in
them...............if you don`t have a knoleges from God and difficult
visions,.......is it mean that nothing working so as i wish........
unfortunately.
i spend half a night on it.
after i try thinking about mythology wich present in Christian church
then they are thinking aboute Buddism. It is not simple question how
explain to christins prist that Buddism - right way. I don`t like so
strage mistaken.
difficult.
after i thinking near psychology. God it seems understand that it`s
very deep knoleges. And i ask come to my teacher of psychology and ask
him any possible questions.
it was already 5 am.
i hear hear hear.......somthing like god do something.......i somthing
like hope on him........but result.......it seems always - zero.
although before he make for me few dids and i anderstand that he can
help me.
but now i deep disappoint.
Sorry
I have a dobts about my story. I just don`t know how everyone in my
family feeling him. I can see the auras in present time. Just very
very worry near everyone.
Alexey.
See you)
