Thought about you became one of the usual routine in my life. You everywhere. I see your face in random people, I create my own answers for you silence and I keep care about you. Why love is so unfair and tough? We passed through so many things which just telling me to move on and concentrate on my future. However, the day without a thought about you makes me feel that something is not completed.

Fucking monday! Supposedly this day must be something happy. Today is 14 November 2011. Exactly 2 years ago I met zayne and I thought today would be nice day of memories. Of course! Keep dreaming. I couldn't sleep for the whole night even though I was so sleepy that my eyes were keep closing but after 2 minutes they were opening. Morning was fine, as usual breakfast and tea, exercises. Put my favorite white dress and went to bus stop. Checking my wallet no bus pass, thought I left it on Saturday's jackets so I called my roommate and asked her to check. Unfortunately I just lost it. I went back home to such for it and I didn't find anything. I'm super tired and depressed. Send message to zayne saying happy 2 years knowing you. No reply. Everything amazing today. Got a group project about fashion blogs, found amazing blog fashionasing.com but now I start to wander if I can use it for this presentations because this blog is not Canadian. Day sucks! That what I want to say. At list I received a compliment about my dress. I know it's pretty. Now gonna go to international center in George brown college to try my best with sending invitation letter to my parents. Hope at list this will go well. Was funny arriving to college and fire alarm start to ring. Well Monday fuck you

I don't give anyone a rEaSoN to hate me. They cReAtE their own little DRAMA out of pure jEaLoUsY.

Last Night I Dreamt I was Eating A Giant Marshmallow........When I Woke Up My Pillow Was Gone!

Experience is the worst teacher:
it gives the test before presenting the lesson.

Money cant buy happiness . . . but somehow, its more comfortable to cry in a BMW than on a bicycle.

it's really hard to wait for the right person in your life especially when the wrong ones are soooooo HOT!

Some people are alive only because it's illegal to kill them.

Life’s a b**ch. I’m just here to represent.

If you talk about me...
I got some advice.
Tap your heels three times,
and say 'I wish I had a life.'


If your heart were really broken you would be dead, so shut up.

I dont make mistakes,
i date them.


I keep telling people, I'm not crazy, I'm passionate.

loved by some, hated by many, envied by most, yet wanted by plenty!

To bad u can't photoshop your UGLY personality...

If you want to enjoy a party....

Drink triple
See double
Act single
SCORE!

Do not be sad if people preferred another one on you .. It's hard to convince the monkey that strawberries sweeter than bananas

There are only two types of honest people in this world, small children and drunk people.

The more people i meet...the more i like my dog

Everyone is entitled to their own opinion. It's just that yours is stupid.

You know you've had a great time when you can't tell your Mom what you did.

When life hands you lemons, stuff them down your bra to make your boobs look bigger.

Expect Nothing, & You'll Never Be Disappointed.

Single doesn't mean available!

The reason women don't play football its because eleven of them would never wear the same outfit in public...

Being drunk is not an excuse, but it is the reason"

I Don't care what you think about me
cuz it cant be half as bad as what I think of you

If you can't say something nice about someone...come sit by me...i wanna laugh and say mean things too..LOL

If women ruled the world there would be no wars. Just a bunch of jealous countries not talking to each other!

You Dont Have The Key To My Heart...I Changed The Locks...

when i have a problem, i just sing. then i realized my voice is worse than my problem ;)

t was so relaxing and earthy that I nearly grew flowers out my ass





I don't give anyone a rEaSoN to hate me. They cReAtE their own little DRAMA out of pure jEaLoUsY.

Last Night I Dreamt I was Eating A Giant Marshmallow........When I Woke Up My Pillow Was Gone!

Experience is the worst teacher:
it gives the test before presenting the lesson.

Money cant buy happiness . . . but somehow, its more comfortable to cry in a BMW than on a bicycle.

it's really hard to wait for the right person in your life especially when the wrong ones are soooooo HOT!

Some people are alive only because it's illegal to kill them.

Life’s a b**ch. I’m just here to represent.

If you talk about me...
I got some advice.
Tap your heels three times,
and say 'I wish I had a life.'


If your heart were really broken you would be dead, so shut up.

I dont make mistakes,
i date them.


I keep telling people, I'm not crazy, I'm passionate.

loved by some, hated by many, envied by most, yet wanted by plenty!

To bad u can't photoshop your UGLY personality...

If you want to enjoy a party....

Drink triple
See double
Act single
SCORE!

Do not be sad if people preferred another one on you .. It's hard to convince the monkey that strawberries sweeter than bananas

There are only two types of honest people in this world, small children and drunk people.

The more people i meet...the more i like my dog

Everyone is entitled to their own opinion. It's just that yours is stupid.

You know you've had a great time when you can't tell your Mom what you did.

When life hands you lemons, stuff them down your bra to make your boobs look bigger.

Expect Nothing, & You'll Never Be Disappointed.

Single doesn't mean available!

The reason women don't play football its because eleven of them would never wear the same outfit in public...

Being drunk is not an excuse, but it is the reason"

I Don't care what you think about me
cuz it cant be half as bad as what I think of you

If you can't say something nice about someone...come sit by me...i wanna laugh and say mean things too..LOL

If women ruled the world there would be no wars. Just a bunch of jealous countries not talking to each other!

You Dont Have The Key To My Heart...I Changed The Locks...

when i have a problem, i just sing. then i realized my voice is worse than my problem ;)

t was so relaxing and earthy that I nearly grew flowers out my ass

У женщин - все сердце, даже голова.

Все мужчины одинаковы перед женщиной, которой они восхищаются. (Бернард Шоу)


Женщина - как картина. Необязательно иметь её дома, чтобы просто восхищаться. (Анатолий Кадырменов)



Женщина слишком чистосердечна и принципиальна, чтобы внять голосу рассудка... (Джозеф Аддисон)


Женщина создана для того, чтобы её любить, а не для того, чтобы её понимать. (Оскар Уайльд)

Женщины декоративный пол. Им не о чем говорить, но все, что они скажут, очаровательно. (Оскар Уайльд)

И ребенка, и друга мы любим лишь в том случае, если мы вообще уже умеем любить. А этому мужчина научается у женщины. (Рихард Вагнер)

Каждая женщина - бунтарь по натуре, причем бунтует она исключительно против себя самой. (Оскар Уайльд)


Легче жить со страстной женщиной, чем со скучной. Правда, их иногда душат, но редко бросают. (Бернард Шоу)


Мужчин можно анализировать и обсуждать, женщин же только обожать. (Оскар Уайльд)

Нет ничего пагубнее женщины. (Гомер)


Ни один мужчина не стоит женщины, если она по-настоящему хорошая женщина. (Бернард Шоу)



Обнаженная женщина являет, вероятно, меньшую опасность, нежели женщина, облаченная в одежду, если последняя расположена так искусно, что, все скрывая, вместе с тем все выставляет напоказ. (Оноре Бальзак)


Руки доброй женщины, обвившиеся вокруг шеи мужчины, - это спасательный круг, брошенный ему судьбой с неба. (Джером Клапка)


Если мы выйдем замуж за наследника престола — мы будем королевами.
Если мужчина жениться на наследнице престола — он будет просто мужем королевы.
Жена президента называется — Первая Леди. Муж женщины-президента — никто!



Мы являемся «прекрасным полом».
Нам не обязательно носить галстуки.
Сидение со скрещенными ногами не приносит нам вреда.
Если мы захотим освоить мужские профессии — нас назовут первопроходцами.
А если он хотят освоить женские профессии — их считают геями!
Мы более чувствительны.



Женщины, которые живут одни — едят лучше.



У нас есть международный день посвященный нам.
Наш мозг имеет ту же вместимость, что и у мужчин, хотя у нас на 6 миллиардов нейронов меньше… значит наши нейроны более продуктивны!
Мы моногамны… даже если для этого нам придется перебирать разных мужчин, чтобы найти того единственного!
Визит к гинекологу приятнее, чем визит к врачу для осмотра простаты.
Мы всегда присутствуем при рождении наших детей.
Мы кормим грудью.
Это мы героини на наших свадьбах!
Мы можем обращать внимание одновременно на несколько вещей.
Всегда знаем где наши носки.
Если нам изменяют — мы жертвы…
Если мы изменяем — они рогоносцы!
В конце концов это мы решаем сколько детей иметь!
Наш ум сравним с умом любого мужчины, но мы выглядим лучше!
Если мы кого-нибудь убьем и сможем доказать, что совершили это во время ПМС — нам смягчат наказание.
Кто-нибудь когда-нибудь слышал о мужчине-музе, который бы вдохновлял?
Мы живем дольше.
Мы более устойчивы к инфекциям и легче переносим боль.


Женщины - как дети, чуть что - сразу в слёзы и к маме.


Женщина - как Пётр Первый, хочет жить в столице, заставляет брить бороду и мечтает поехать в Европу.


Женщина - как ипотека, на 30 лет и по 10 тысяч в месяц.


Женщина - как инспектор ГИБДД: херни наговорит, деньги отберёт, настроение испортит, а ты ещё и виноват.




Женщина - как посольство, может и не разрешить с друзьями в Тайланд ехать.

Женщина - как шахматы, чуть не в ту сторону шаг, сразу мат.

Женщина - как фильмы ужасов, мне лично больше нравятся чужие.

Женщина в торговом центре - как маршрутка, пока не крикнешь - не остановится.

Женщина - как театр, сегодня комедия, завтра трагедия, а послезавтра гастроли в другом городе.

Женщина - как любимый свитер, ты его конечно очень любишь, но на фига он тебе в Турции нужен?

Женщина - как преподаватель на экзамене, вроде готовился всё правильно рассказал, а она тебя хоп и на какой то мелочи подловила.

Женщина - как чай, кто-то любит покрепче, кто не очень, а кто-то с другом один пакетик на двоих заваривает.

Женщина - как футболист, лежит стонет а ты думаешь "симулирует или нет?".

Oni ne videli drug druga pol goda. Ona ushla ne skazav ne slova. On ee dolgo iskal, no kogda ponyal 4to ona ne ho4et togo 4to bi ona bila naydena on reshil na4at jit bez nee. Ona boyalas lyubit i bejala vsegda ot etogo 4ustva. U nee eto prekrasno polu4alos. No s etim 4elovekom ona ponimala 4to popala. Resheniye propast, dlya nee kazalos edisntevnnim vihodom. Kakie mejdu nimi bili otnosheniye mnogie bi podumali 4to eto bezumie i sumashestvie prodoljat bit s drug drugom. Oni ubivali drug druga, revnovali, mstili no vsegda ponimali 4to bez drug druga oni ne smogut. Lubov, kotoraya zastavlyala ih delat gluposti ne davala im spokoystviya. Ona ubejala, ona znala 4to esli ostanetsya vse prosto propadet, i mejdu nimi ostaetsya tolko nenavist. Ona hotela sohranit te teplie 4euvstva, kotorie prosipalis s kajdoy sekundoy ih provojdeniya vmeste, naedine.
Vstre4a bila neojidannoy dlya oboih. Oni oba dumali 4to vse zakon4ilas, v istorii postavlena to4ka. No, ih glaza stolknulis i mir preobrel smils. S ih pervim prikosnoveniem, oni ponyali 4to ni4ego ne proshlo, 4to to 4to ona vsegda boyalas poselilos v ee serdce i ono byetsya tolko s nim. Ona ponyala 4to ne ubejit, ona znala ego presudstvie daet ey jizn.
Ne begite ot lyubvi ona nas vse ravno naydet.

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Nakonec to prishel tot dolgojdanniy moment spoystviya. Poverit ne mogu, 4to tolko kakih to 6 mesyacev nazada ya stradala i mu4alas ot boli, i vse pered glazami prosto rushilos. Ya vse sidela, sadihayas v slezah i nadeyalas 4to zavtra ya prosnus i vse budet horosho. Takih zavtra u menya bilo o4en mnogo. Sey4as period, gde etot moemnt spokoystviya i polnoy udovletvorennosti. Ego izvineniye prineslo mne spokoystvie. Mne bolshe sovershenno ni4ego ne nujno. Ya znayu gde to daleko, v glubine dushi u menya ostalis te teplie 4ustva, kotorie ya emu kogda to darila. Smotya v ego glaza ya 4ustvuyu spokoystvie, ya znayu 4to mi projili 4erez mnogoe. Kone4no, tyajelo predstavit sebya s drugim, no ya ponimayu 4to vse mi prihodim i uhodim. Mi oba staralis, no okazlis slishkom yunimi 4to bi mi smo4 4to to postroit. V te4enii etih 6 mesyacev, mne 4asto snilis ego ruki i glaza. Eto ne zabivayemie 4asti tela, kotorie davali mnogoe ponyat bez slov.
Ya blagodarna za nego, kakim bi on ne bil. Mi vse ne idealni, i vse imeem gordost eto priznat. No posle neskolkih otnosheniy, mi vse na4inaem rosti i stanovitsya silnee.

i dont understand why this country, Canada call itself developed. They way governemnt treat people it warst that I could ever imagine. Me and my best friend were trying to go for her date, it was 2am. She doesnt have bass pass and I didnt need to use subway so I just borroved her mine. We got trapped, baceuse of some weird low pass back. She swiped and gave me back card and its illegal in this country. That assholes made such huge deal of this. It's like we just killed someone, he took my card away said to me that I have to sit and read rules. No but really?! What is nice about it? I can imagine how many people got in this situation? He called police, some subway service. They all took out passport, put our names in data base! Man! seriously? That time I felt like a real criminal, selling drugs or something. Well, police was not bad. They let us go, but my bus pass said bye bye to me.
Canada is a country where free speach is one of the main causes to make status to be developed. However, looking at people behaviour here I dont even see how this free speaking is working. People so scared to do anything in this country. Government gave so many abilities for people, but why no one tries to provide something new? I think i Know why? Because, all this rules are created just to scare people and shut theit mouth. They are not allowed to talk in reality. When you go to the bank, asking for some help and service they will tell you, omg you didnt even read it online? It is so easy? With out mentality all workers must be skilled and well experienced and try their best to do theit job. Here you just surprised everywhere. With this answer from bank worker you just wanna give them hard slap and don't do anything. Also, child treatment. That shoked me so much. Winter, -28. Super cold right? Fat Canadian lady walking with a small bag on her chest where is little baby, probably couple month with no shoes. Is it normal? poor blue fits are freezing and the mother she just acting like nothing is going on. Another thing. Most of girl here they are getting pregnant just because the guy promised them paradise or sometimes just by accident. Kids they start to work when they 13, not because they want it, but because they don't have other choice. I met a girl in my college she's 27. She has a son who is 6 years old. She ended up living with her sister, doing full time job and plus doing her best in college. Where is her husband? where is her parents?
Developing countries provide freedom for people. Of course there are a lot of dissadvantages fot this, but the kid grows up smarter. Freedom gives us ability to do mistakes and learn.The way European families treat their kids, with all love and responsability, provide great view for the future.

pochemu k nam prihodit period kogda mi sebya, kak gavno 4usvuem. terpet ne mogul eto sostoyaniye. takoe oshushenie

4to traktorom pereehalo. sidish pla4esh, dame ne znayesh kak s etim borotsya. stoyal vitiral moi slezi, govorit "4to use po

men tak sosku4ilas?". ulibnulo, no pri4ina drugaya axaxaxa. sama ne znayu kakaya. no po hodu eto PMS. kajetsya tebya

nikto ne lyubit, vsem ti ne prieyaten. poshla segodnya dengi snimat, kakoy to negr… oh sexy. kone4no! zalipshiye,

opuhshiye glaza posle prili4nogo koli4estva sleaze, pijama, durackiy vid i samoe glavnoe uniloe sostoyanie. no 4e) priyatno

kone4no.

Ho4u pobistree vernut svoyu shaslivuyu jizn. Vse take horosho bilo, a has opyta kakaya to hernya naplila. ne znayu kak

s etim borotsya.

why all the relationship end up the same.

u think, oh he is my the only one for me, u start to put this guy in ur big plans for future but at the end u disappoint and all of them just same for u. sad

that all ur dreams and goals are getting burned just cuz someone doesn't know how to be a man. i know man must have a big experience to get their

experience and strength. but hey, they call themselves strog gender. well, after 3d one u start to think totally opposite.

he was amazing guy, i thought that im super lucky to get him in my life. started to see him like a father, husband, my wall and support. nah. was bad

mistake to do that. we are really tired to get disappointed to see all the time same relationship and cry somewhere with a broken heart. the main problem

is we expect to much from them, because one of the most important things is to know how to make happy urself without needing a guy who gonna do

everything for you. woman independence brought success to most woman. feeling that u are able to do everything is just killing male gender, they start to

want u more.

sometimes doesnt matter what you want, what makes you happy and at the same time killing you inside
i dont know why... but its the best feeling ever

Na4inaya novuyu jizn... ponimayesh 4to ti eshe polnostyu ne vstal. u menya sey4as golova zapolnena vospominaniyami.. o mnogom jaleyu. no ya progresiruyu. ya viju gde ya bila ne prava, svoi oshibki, svoi peremeni nastroeniya. no ya znayu 4to moi shansi nakonec to zabit o proshlom vozrosli na dostato4noye koli4estvo procentov 4to bi soboy gorditsya.
so mnoy ryadom 4elovek, kotoriy ne dayet mne sdastsya, upast i ne vstat. On vsegda mne daet ruku polnu uverennosti i zashiti 4to vse budet horosho. Etot 4elovek podaril mne nadejdu i cel. gde ya viju 4to iti samoy eto ne tak i tyagelo. Kajdiy raz, kogda menya misli zanosyat v proshloe on vsegda mne pomogayet vernutsya v realnost. Kone4no mne eshe tyajelo na4inat 4to nibut novoe, moye serdce do sih por bolit. No eto budet edinstvenniy 4elovek, kotoromu ya dam poprobovat izmenit moyu jizn. U menya net nikakogo jelaniya vozvrashatsya obratno v jizn gde tolko pokazuha i falshivaya iluziya. Ya nashla 4eloveka, kotoromu ne nujno stroit iluzii 4to bi ya mogla emu verit i bit shaslivoy.

segodnya 27 aprelya. uje kak 2 mesyaca ya ni4ego ne slishala ot zayne. on interesniy. svoey revnostyu on uni4tojil menya i sebya. posle nashego rasstavaniya, rovno 4erez 2 nedeli on nashel sebe druguyu, kotoraya bila moyey lu4shey podrugoy ve4noy vlyublennoy v moego parnya. ya znala 4to on na4net mstit no ne znala 4to on smojet opustitsya do takogo urovnya gde na4inaetsya ispolzovaniye lyudey da eshe i moih druzey. posle na4ala ih vstre4aniy ya ne mogla hodit na u4ebu... kajdiy den videt ee lico, ispitivat bol i delat vid 4to tebe absolyutno vse ravno. nedavno on prishel v koledj k ney, uvudev ego obuv mne hvatilo na vsyu nedelyu. ya znayu 4to on ee prosto ispolzuyet i eto mne pomogayet ne dumat ob etom.
nedavno bila ve4erinka, kotoruyu ustroil lu4shiy drug zeyna. zeyn prishel i vzyal s soboy svoyu devushku v nadejde 4to ya pridu. ya daje ne znala ob etoy ve4erinke, potomu 4to ya bila v drugom gorode i ne dumayu 4to mne bi hotelos tuda idti. on ve4no stoyal ryadom s moimi druzyami slushaya o 4em oni razgavarivayut. podrugi govoryat 4to on postoyanno kogo to jdal. i celoval devushku tolko u nih na glazah. moya lu4shaya podruga diana skazala 4to posle dvuh 4asov stoyaniya ryadom s nim on o4en razozlilsya, i skoree vsego potomu 4to menya ne bilo. esli menya netu zna4it ya s kem to drugim. posle etoy ve4erinki on daje ubral fotografiyu so svoey devushkoy. on poteryal lu4shego druga. ego nadejda uni4tojit menya prosto siela ego iznutri. on teryaet vse i ne ho4et ostanavlivatsya. v etu pyatnicu u menya vipusknoy i skoree vsego on budet vspiske s moyey "podrugoy". emu navernoye udaststa poigrat svoyu dramu u menya naglazah.
nadeyus on ostanovitsya vo vremya. potomu 4to ya znayu 4to on ho4et i ya pitayus derjatsya na visote. no on menya ubvaet tem...4to ya v nem vse bolshe i bolshe razo4arovivayus..
inogda zadayu sebe vopros. 4to slu4ilos s tem 4elovekom, kotorogo ya bezumno lyubila?

etot god.. prepodnes mne sovershenno neojidanniye ispitaniya. sey4as ele ele stala na nogi. 4ustvuyu sebya na million let starshe.
posle togo kak mi reshili poprobovat s zeynom postroit otnosheniya posle togo 4to bilo mi upustili mnogie detali. mi ne mogli smiritsya 4to mi vdvoem izmenilis. mi poteryali te 4ustva, kotore nas derjali vmeste. ne bilo ni doveriya, ni uvajeniya! odna nadejda 4to vse budet horosho!
v nashem 3h mesya4nom pererive mi stroili svoyu jizni bez drug druga, pitayas zabit i na4at 4to to novoe. u nego poyavilis novie simpatii u menya poyavilis daje novie otnosheniya. mi zabili tu lubov, kotoraya bila mejdu nami. ona prosto propala ostaviv tolko 4ustva prityajeniya i zavisimosti.
u menya bil tyajeliy period s podrugoy s kotoroy ya jila, i mne prishlos pereehat k nemu. mi dumali 4to nash shans na4at vse sna4alo. no etim postupkom mi tolko uni4tojili ostatki toy laski, kotoriya hotya bi bila v nashey pamyati. s kajdim dnem ya uznavala vse bolshe i bolshe 4to on sdelal za te 3 mesyaca. kak on menya unijal pri svoih druzyah, bivshih devushkah, tolko 4to bi sebya 4ustvovat gorazdo lu4she. svoimi postupkami, o kotorih ya uznala gorazdo pozje u menya vnutri vse zgorelo k nemu... bilo bolno! ya dumala 4to vse protov menya. no gillian, kotoriy vsegda bil ryadom kogda ya padayu pomog mne vibratsya s etogo i vzyatsya za golovu. moy uhod bil visokiy, ya zapomnilas vsem.
sey4as ya ujasno jaleyu 4to mi reshilis poprobovat postroit vse 4to uje davno propalo. potomu 4to u menya daje propali vospominaniya, kotoriya mne bili cenniye s nim. sey4as ostalas odna nenavist i polnoye ne uvajeniye!
hotya... ya bila s nim shasliva

Tak stranno… ya daje ne ponimayu po4emu on menya prostil. eto mojno tak skazat bila izmena. no na samom dele. kajdoye nashe rasstavaniye on zakan4ivayet zvonkom svoey bivshey so slovami 4to ona dlya nego edinstvennaya i on ee do sih por lubit. 4to eto mojet ozna4at? mne bolno bilo uvidet perepisku gde on menya nazivayet bitch… ego bivshaya piset 4to ya pohoja na rebenka. emu daje eto nravitsya on eshe bolshe na menya napadayet. no vse ravno on menya ve4no proshayet i prodoljayet govorit 4to lubit, i 4to nikogda v jizni on sebya tak ne 4ustvoval. eto o4en stanno… i ya ne ponimayu ego povedeniya. mne ve4no bolno i mne postoyanno kajetsya 4to ego bivashaya vsegda budet u nego v serdce. inogda ya ne ponimayu kto ya v ego jizni? za4em on eto vse delayet? no a potom dumayesh… on mne skolko vsego sdelal, on mne vsegda pitayetsya sdelat priyatnoye. Kogda ya ego brosila… on vse 3 mesyaca bil sam i ne mog na4at nikakih otnosheniy.
Mojet eto moi misli, ya vsegda lublu o4en mnogo dumat i somnevatsya. No eta perepiska sdelala tak 4to bi ya poteryala vse doveriye… i v golove u menya tolko ne ponimaniye… i ku4a voprosov.

Etot facebook dostal! ne mogu ya bolshe tam bit. ve4no otkrivayu strani4ku i viju ego lizo. nado otdohnut ne mnogo.
zablokirovala svoy akkount i ya uverena emu vse ravno ne do menya... ne zametit daje..

takoy son stranniy prisnilsya!
tipo ya siju so svoim bivshim na balkone.... on sidit kurit a ya celuyu ego v ple4e! a emu kak bud to vse ravno... on sebe prosto prodoljayet sidet i kurit... mne aj bolno stalo.. do sih por strashno

no kak govoryat umniye ludi nujno 4to-to o4en dlya tebya vajnoye sumet otpustit 4to bi polu4it 4to to poleznoye v zamen...

otpushu... kak raz poka ya zablokirovana v etom facebooke to u menya budet vremya dishat bez nego

on edinstvenniy, kto smog sdelat menya shaslivaoy. Ya zakrivala glaza na vse plohoye i pitalas dat emu vse v 4em on nujdalsya :) kak je ya ego lublu... ne mogu i ne ho4u bit bez nego! nu po4emu vse tam?? po4emu ya ne smogla zakon4it tu shkolu 4to bi ostatsya s nim?
etot god bil polnim dlya menya provalom! s otnosheniyami... ne polu4ilos tolko potomu 4to ya tak zahotela! a po4emu ya tak sdelala? ya ne znayu....
so u4eboy toje no4ego ne polu4ilos.... voobshe ne znayu 4to eto. kak zakaldovaniy krug, kotoriy pitayetsya mne 4et pokazat... no do menya nikak ne dohodit!

mojet mne poehat tuda i poprobovat eshe raz? no a vdrug eto vse bil znak 4to ya prosto popala ne tuda...
no ego ya vstretila to ne slu4ayno.... i takogo ogromnogo jelaniya bit s nim u menya eshe ne bilo.

no ya ne mogu tuda vernutsya!! esli ya budu s zeynom tot drugoy budet ranen eshe huje 4em zzayne! svoyey slabostyi ya mogu ibit dvuh zayvec! a ya etogo ujasno ne ho4u!

kak bi ya hotela vernut vremya nazad! i bit s nim... i popitatsya ne zavalit tot edinstvenniy examen...
no eto jizn... esli ne sudba to kak bi ya k nemu ne rvalas u menya eto vse ravno ne polu4itsya...

kak tak mojno... ya lublu odnogo s kotorim mne ne sudba bit, a ko mne prilip sovershenno leviy pazan, kotoriy mne sovershenno ne nujen... i on mne ehse priznalsya v lubvi! nu po4emu vse vot tak. po4emu ya ne mogu bit s 4elovakom, kotoriy mne dorje jizni! i za korotogo ya daje gotova umiret!
jizn tak ne spravedliva...
kak ya sku4ayu po edo obyatiyam... poceluyam. moye serdce prosto razrivayetsya!

vse eshe v etpy kanade!
bolit golova, ujasno toshnit, takoye oshusheniya 4to ya sey4as umru... golova hodit krugom...
segodnya zapisivala svoe peniye... pela ukrainskuyu pesnyu... ne zabivaemiye oshusheniya... o4en volnovalas :) no kogda zakon4ila ponyala 4to ho4u eshe... no pripev spet ne smogla.... menya ujasno tryaslo!
pesnya krasiviya... no tyajelaya! pogolosit nado! ni4ego eshe spoyu..
no moye sostoyaniye menya pugayet... bolit absolutno vse

Once in a while, try something foolish. Be a bit absurd, do the enexpected, break your usual routine, open a new windows, do something outrageous, go a little bit wild! Life is too short to be ordinary.