i hate the way i live... i hate things which are around me... i don't really know what for do i live? i'm tired of this life... i am not happy... i don't know what to do... i'm tired to wright these things.... but i can't say it to anybody... what will be next? i think the life is playing with me? or may be she just has fun of me? who knows.... the thing is that i really don't know what shall i do... fuck... i hate this period of my life... i want to change it.... but i don;t know how... i still have a hope that soon everything will change.... the question is when?! anyway now i'm going crazy....