Everything seems s totally ppointless and boring... for me, except of course books maybe, i doubt they will ever be boring to me... anyways....
Maybe we would know better how to spend our lives if we knew what awaits us after death... maybe then we would understand what to do here on earth, either live it just for the fun of it, eat, drink, fuck when ever and with whom ever you want or just live it with higher purposes,, getting ready for what lies after... maybe that IS the real answer to life... actully what life after it it... vast abyss or... or somehting better...